It had been about two months since we last heard from Alex. It was October now, and my feelings were still and mixture of hurt and sadness and that did'nt change the pounding headache I was feeling right now or the fact I was feeling sick as a dog...more then usual I mean.
I was in my room sitting at the desk with my pillow on it to rest my head, as I did not want to lie in bed. I heard a faint knock at the pass through door before it opened.
"Feeling any better?", Jay asked as he stepped into my room.
"I feel like shit", I mumbled my response. Jay walked over to me and touched my forehead.
"You feel kinda hot. Want some water?"
"Sure", I replied half heartedly as Jay left the room briefly and came back with a bottle of water.
"Here", he said, handing the bottle to me. I looked at the bottle and took it half heartedly.
"Are...you okay? You look kinda pale", Jay said and not wanting to worry him I said,
"I'm...fine. You sure you don't want me to come with you to see Alex? I don't mind, honestly". Well, okay I was'nt really in the mood to talk to Alex but if Jay wanted me there I would be willing to force myself to go with him.
"No, I'll be fine. Besides, your sicker then we usually get so your should just stay here". Jay then moved to his room. I'm not sure why I said the next thing next, but I did.
"...Jay, I just want to say I'm sorry if I've been a burden",I mumbled. I know you're probably going to berate me for this, but what Alex said about me being a damsel in distress kinda got to me a little. Jay stopped and turned back to look at me.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, sometimes I feel like I'm just lying back while you're doing more work then me", I grumbled.
"Rebecca, I think that sickess is getting to your head a little. You've helped. You're more or less the voice of reason for one thing. Besides, just knowing there's someone else with me helps me sleep better at night...sort of", Jay said with a small smile. "So, do you want me to pick up some medicine when I'm done with Alex?"
"Um, call when you're done with Alex and we'll see", I replied with a faint smile.
"Okay. I'll call you later then". Jay left after that and I returned to laying my face down on the pillow. Ifell hlaf asleep for a short time untill something woke me up. The sound of the spare chair in this room being pulled up next to me. I looked and I saw it was Tim.
"Tim?"
"Can't make this visit too long, I have... stuff to do at Rosswood Park", Tim mumbled as he sat down.
"Where Alex and Jay are?" It was more of a statement then a question. Tim sighed a little.
"Yeah. Where Alex and Jay are", he repeated before taking the bottle of water Jay gave me and opened it. "You need to drink", he mumbled before he held the open bottle to me.
"Fine", I grumbled as I took the bottle from Tim and drank from it.
"Need some medicine? I've got some with me for headaches",Tim offered.
"Sure". I shruged my shoulders as Tim took out a small container with pills and handed two to me which I took. "Thanks", I sighed as I laid my head back on it's side so I could look at Tim.
"No problem", Tim murmured as he patted my head a little. "You should be okay. This is about as bad as the sickness goes. You're probably letting the stress get to you if your this bad".
"Right. So, when do you need to go?"
"A couple minutes".
"Are you...going to hurt them?"
"No, just watching", Tim responded before he asked me, "are you okay? I know your sick but you look like you have something on your mind".
"It's...I don't really want to talk about it right now. Maybe later", I mumbled, not in the mood to talk about Alex.
"...Does it have to do with Alex?"
"...Yeah", I sighed. Tim sighed and put a arm around my shoulders.
"Look, I have to go now, but I'll come back as soon I can. Okay?"
"Sure",I said.
"Okay. See you later then". Tim stood up and kissed my forehead before he left through the unlocked door joining my room to Jay's.
"Later...", I murmured. I yawned a little and shifted my head enough for me to gaze out the window. I thought about what Tim and Alex said to me that I should'nt trust either of them. I think irony is the proper term here, if not well then I can't think of anything better. Either way, as much as I care for Alex (despite how much of a jack ass he's become), I find myself wanting to trust Tim more. It's just that Alex really scared me last time I saw him, and the fact that he did'nt run from that thing when we were at his apartment does'nt really help my faith in him.
The next day I was better. More so then yesterday at least. I only had a headache and even then it felt faint compared to yesterday so I decided to go with Jay on another breaking and entering. At this point I've nearly given up on reasoning with Jay about not doing it, we end up doing so anyway.
"Okay so as soon as he leaves, we're gonna run inside, look for the tape, grab it and get out", Jay explained the plan as we waited for Alex to leave his house.
"Okay, but try and not move too much stuff around. We don't want Alex to realise we were here", I said back.
"Don't you think he'll think us when he realises the tape is missing?", Jay asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Well, I guess...but if we don't find it it's better safe then sorry", I replied.
"I guess. Oh, here he come, get down!"
Me and Jay crouched down further in the bushes we were hiding in and waited for Alex to leave. He looked around from the deck before locking the door and going down the steps, entering his car and driving off. Using this chance, me and Jay quickly ran up to his house and up the steps. Luckilly Jay had stolen a key for the front door last time we were here so we got in no problem. When we did, Jay locked the door behind us and we made our way to Alex's room.
Alex's room did'nt seem any different from last time we were here, although to be honest from the fear I experienced that night I had forgotten what exactly the room was like. I was looking throught the shelves, searching behind and in every book incase the tape was behind one or if one had a certain number of squars cut from the center with the purpose of hiding something...well, it's not like it's too far off.
"Damn it. Where is it?", I mumbled as I replaced yet another book on the shelf. Heck for all we knew Alex may have had the tape with.
"Anything yet Jay?", I asked.
"No I...wait". I looked over and saw Jay tug something under the desk and pulled out a secret drawer and took something out. "It's the tape".
"Well, let's take it and go before something unwanted comes along", I said before we began to leave. There was nothing else here we needed and Alex could have returned at any time so we could'nt stay any longer then we needed to.
I don't know why but when we got to the car my knees nearly gave way but I managed to put my hands on the car to keep myself from falling.
"You okay?", I heard Jay asked.
"Y-yeah. Don't know what happened there. Let's just go", I mumbled.
"I told you you should have stayed at the hotel", Jay said as he unlocked the car and got in. I did'nt really care though. We got what we needed and that's all that mattered.
I noticed Jay take the tape out and grab a piece of paper and pen when we got in and then writing something on it.
"What are you doing?", I questioned curiously.
"Just writing on this to mark it as important", Jay answered before putting the tape back and showing it briefly to the camera before handing it to me to hold.
"So, back to the hotel?" That was what I assumed we were doing as I took the tape. It made the most sense in my opinion.
"Yeah, we'll watch it later", Jay said as he put on his seatbelt.
That evening was more or less quiet. Neither of us were actually feeling hungry so we did'nt eat. I was feeling a bit off again so I just decided to go to bed early. It was mostly the headache though. It got bad again shortly after we left Jay's apartment but I just decided to sleep it off.
When I woke up it was about a quarter to midnight. I saw that there was no light comming from Jay's room so he was probably asleep.
"Feeling any better?" Already recognising the voice I sat up and looked at Tim who was sitting on the edge of my bed.
"I...think so. I was feeling a little off earlier so I went to bed early", I replied softly. "So Jay said you led him to a tunnel Alex has been spotted at. Can I know why?"
"...Maybe some time in the future. Not now", Tim responded before he asked me, "do you want to talk to me about Alex?" I sighed and pulled my knees up and wrapped my arms around them as I rested my head on them.
"I don't know it's just...me and Alex were close y'know. Not in a brother and sister way, but more like friends who lived in the same house", I started off. "We would have small fights, but most of the time, we just teased eachother and would joke off sometimes. We always always helped eachother too. I helped Alex as much as I could with his scripts, and whenever I wrote a story he would be my critique". I chuckled a little, not paying attention to the tears comming to my eyes. "And up untill I was twelve he would take me trick or treating, and even then we always watched Halloween movies or specials. Our favourite one to watch together was the Halloween Tree", by now more tears were comming into my eyes and it was a wonder I was'nt sobbing yet. I felt Tim's hand on my back as I countinued. "I-I can kinda remember, when I was fourteen...I let Alex read the first actual story I ever wrote that was'nt for school and...and".
I began to slowly break down and had no problems with Tim wrapping his arms around me in a comforting hug as I began to let out quiet sobs, tears comming down from my eyes.
"An-and because of...of...that THING, those moments are gone and we'll never have 'em back", I cried, clinging my shaky hands onto Tim's jacket.
"Rebecca...I'm not too sure what to say exactly but...you still have the memories, right? Besides, as much as I hate Alex it ain't over 'till the fat lady sings, right?", Tim said as he tried to cheer me up, rubbing my back soothingly along my spine. I sniffled a little and shivered a little. Wheter it was from the slight cold of the autumn season or Tim's touches on my back I'm not too sure.
"I-I guess...", I sniffeled, starting to calm down now. I felt Tim's hand leave my back and tilt my face up so I was looking into his dark eyes. He began to wipe the tears off of my right cheek and murmured,
"You should'nt cry Rebecca. Your a lot prettier when you smile".
"You think I'm pretty?" I could'nt help but smile a little. "Between the two boys I had dated your the only one that actually called me pretty to my face. Don't get me wrong I know I'm pretty but it feels good to be called that now and then", I weakly laughed a little at that as Tim chuckled.
"Well, I guess I had the guts to say it then", Tim joked before kissing the tears off of my left cheek. I hugged Tim, leaning my head on his shoulder.
"Do you think we can ever be together, without having to go behind peoples backs?", I asked. I felt Tim tense a little and fearing I ruined the moment I quickly said, "I-I'm sorry I did'nt mean to-"
"No, it's okay it's just...I'm not sure when this will be over exactly", Tim admitted. "But, I know I care for you a lot and that I want to keep you safe. Don't ever forget that", he murmured before he started to place mixtures of ghost and butterfly kisses on the side of my neck.
"How can I?", I sighed lightly, shuddering slightly since the side of my neck seemed a bit more sensitive where it meets my shoulder. Tim seemed to notice since he placed a few more kisses there before giving a light suck before he trailed up to my lips, to which I responded by kissing back.
When we did break away for air Tim tightened his grip around me and laid down, holding me to his chest.
"Sleep. You need it", Tim murmured as he stroked my hair gently. I just nodded my head against his body and let my eyes close, letting Tim sooth me into one of the most peacefull sleeps I've ever had since this madness started.
Date: 10/16/10
Time: 11:14
Woke up last night and found Tim in my room.
I confessed to him I was worried that me and Alex would never have the same bound we use to have, and he tried to cheer me up, which did work.
He also told me he cared for me a lot, and he wanted me safe and to never forget it.
I doubt I ever wil.
Rebecca Kralie.