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I do not own any of the characters in this fic and never will own falling skies,there is strong language and possessive actions threw out, Part jimmy/Connor if any of this displeases you feel free to exit now.
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It had been a couple hours since Ben showed up. Jimmy had cleaned himself up and was now cleaning out the guns holding room with Connor.
Connor always helped him with stuff like this, he could clean like it was no ones business.

"Jimmy could you pass me the boxes?" Connor asked not looking away from the rifle he was fixing up.

"Mhm" jimmy mumbled his mouth full of an salvaged cinnamon roll he had snuck. Connor hated when he ate junk food. But come on. It wasn't anyone would notice. Connor brought his eyes to jimmy and frowned but it slowly slipped and brightened into a white smile.

"Jimmy…come on, were almost done"

Jimmy nodded and took another bite before throwing the raper in the bin .

"It's gone. It's gone" he said mouth full and hands up in a surrendering gesture.

Connor brought his bright green eyes down to Jimmys mouth and snorted "You missed a spot".

Jimmy began to bring his hand up to wipe his mouth but Connor stepped forward pulling his hand down, trapping Jimmy between him and the counter. Licking the bit of ice cinnamon off of Jimmys' upper lip and sneaking a kiss. Jimmy' cheeks flushed pink and he looked away. Connor frowned.

"What's wrong?" he asked

"Nothing…" He went to move but Connor kept him trapped between his body and the counter.

"Jimmy…it's not nothing. We still haven't talked about it" he said, green eyes staring deep into Jimmys' crystal blue.

Jimmy gaped rapidly before shutting his mouth and scratching his head, his longer hair feeling soft and comforting under his fingertips.

"Talk about what? We have nothing to talk about. Yup. Nothing" he tried to close his eyes to avoid Connors kicked panda eyes. Because kick pandas were definitely a thing.

"Jimmy. Who was that guy? I gave you time alone and now it's time that we talk about it." Connor said, sounding anxious.

"Connor, I…don't worry about it ok, just…could you move?" he asked at last opening his eyes, staring up into the taller mans soft gaze.

"Jimmy I'm not moving until you tell me who he was. Is…was that Ben?" Jimmy felt a shiver go down his spine. He scratched the back of his neck and looked away.

"Connor, please not now…"

Connor exhaled through his nose and moved off of Jimmy,Jimmy's eyes narrowed as he noticed Connor was heading for the door. He rushed up to stand in front of the door before Connor could reach it.

"And where do you think you're going? Just because-fuck-…just because I'm not in the mood to discuss things right now?"

"Jimmy you have never 'been in the mood' to discuss things about him" Connor spat out the last word like a bad taste in his mouth.

"Even after we got together, you still never told me about your past relationship, everyone seems to know about it but me. The person who's dating you." he scowled slightly. Jimmy was beginning to rub off on him.

Connor it's a long story" Jimmy sighed feeling the tears prickling at the back of his eyes. He really didn't want to cry again. But not wanting to almost seemed to make it worse.

"I'm willing to listen" Connor said holding up Jimmys' chin to look in his eyes "I want to listen"

Jimmy bit his lip and pulled his head away. He could feel his stomach churning. His heartbeat was picking up speed and his skin was itching with the forewarning of oncoming sweat.

"Connor-fuck-...he hurt me ok?Really bad, he broke me. And-" his voice cracked and he looked down. He really really didn't want to cry again, but his body was betraying him. He rubbed his foot around in the imaginary dirt below him.

"And what?" Connor asked, he really actually cared. Jimmy felt his breath shortening; he didn't want to lose anyone else. Jimmy looked up, his eyes red and puffy again.

"And I didn't want to talk about it with you. Because…even though he hurt me…destroyed me, I still love him" he moved from in front of the door and started walking towards the shelfs on the other side of the room, stopping in the by the tables to wipe at his eyes.

"I'll understand your decision to leave me if you want. You deserve better. You're an amazing guy…and gosh, you're almost perfect. And you're exactly what I need-" Jimmy paused.

"But I'm not what you want…" Connor finished for him. Jimmy felt hands wrapping around his waist and supple lips against his neck. He inhaled and exhaled slowly. He shook his head and slowly pulled Connors hands off of him.

"You don't have to stay. You shouldn't stay" Jimmy said calmly turning to face Connor. God he's so perfect… Jimmy thought to himself.

"I want to stay Jimmy" Connor grabbed his shoulders and nuzzled the top of his head. "I don't care if you don't want me, you need me. And hopefully after some time you'll want me too. Jimmy…I'm in love with you". Connor pulled him in closer. Jimmy felt a single tear slide down his cheek. But it wasn't for him.

No matter what Connor did it would never be good enough, Jimmy knew he would never love him. Could never love him. He'd never stand a chance. He'd end up just like Jimmy. Broken. Bruised…and shattered.

Broken. Bruised…and shattered.

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