Over the past few days Kendall had noticed that James had stopped smiling at him or hardly even talking to him as he had tried ever since they had met. Kendall thought about how at meal time or when they were spending time with Carlos and Logan how even then he ignored James more than the other two. Kendall had started to think about it and was beginning to feel guilty. He didn't mean to hurt the boy or to seem rude or like he didn't like him. It wasn't that Kendall didn't like him because he even knew that he hadn't given him a chance at a friendship. He didn't know why he hadn't either. Maybe it was because of the stress of everything and he needed someone to take it out on and James was the first person that he didn't instantly agree with. He knew deep down in the pit of his stomach that he needed to give him a chance.

Kendall came out of the shower room and saw James sitting on his bed intently focused on a letter that he was writing back to home. He walked over to the slouching boy and sat next to him on his bed watching him. When James finally looked up from the paper he was scribbling on Kendall smiled at him and spoke a soft "hi."

"What do you want?" James said as he looked back down at his paper. Kendall's heart broke when the boy next to him sounded so harsh. He noticed looked out straight in front of him seeing Logan and Carlos laughing about something as they were changing and getting ready for bed. After all, it was lights out in ten minutes.

Kendall shook his head and looked down at his intertwined fingers then said, "Hey, I've wanted to talk to you." He didn't exactly know where to start so he waited for James to reply. After a few moments passed and James showed no interest in his words Kendall began again taking in a sharp breath. "I just wanted to apologize about how I have treated you. I don't know why I had treated you so bad when all you have been is nice to me. I guess I was just scared and stressed and needed someone to take it out on and you were just there at the wrong time." Kendall looked up at his other friends and caught Logan's eyes that showed question. Kendall just slowly shook his head and Logan turned back to Carlos who was sitting on the edge of his bed with that goofy smile spread across his face. Kendall smiled slightly before turning his attention back at James who was now looking at him. He looked at him seriously before telling him "Well, say something!" Kendall hated it when he didn't get an answer after a serious subject was brought up.

Suddenly James was on his feet and threw the paper that was in his hand down on the bed. Kendall jumped back farther onto the bed and looked up at the boy who hovered above him shocked. James leaned over Kendall so that his face was inches from his and growled through his teeth, "You think I wasn't scared to!? I have been terrified! I was trying to find a friend that I knew was going to do the same thing I was, and that was come here! I needed someone to just be on my side and I tried so hard to get you to just like me! You turned your back on me for no reason and now you want me to talk to you after weeks!" He put his fists on Kendall's chest and pushed off of him before storming into the shower room.

Kendall let out the breath that had caught in his lungs. He slowly stood his entire body shaking from the adrenaline that now ran through his veins. He slammed his own fist into the cabinet that he and James now shared. When he looked at Logan and Carlos their faces were blank from the shock of seeing their friend break down. After a moment of staring at each other Logan and Carlos broke the gaze and nervously began fidgeting with anything they could.

Kendall sat down in the center of his own bed and put his head in his hands and let out a sigh. He didn't know how he felt at the moment he just knew that he had to somehow make things right with James. He had no right to be rude to him.

Five minutes later their new over seer walked through the room and inspected all the boys. He stopped at the foot of James' bed and looked at Kendall. "Where is he?" The man asked pointing at the empty bed.

"He's in the bathroom. He will be out soon." Kendall said with a flat tone to his voice. The man didn't seem too concerned and continued down the aisle.

Kendall climbed under his covers as all the other boys were doing and he rolled onto his right side facing James' empty bed. He laid there thinking about what James had said to him. About how he was terrified just like Kendall was. He just needed someone there for him like every other young man in the room.

Soon after the lights had gone out Kendall saw James' silhouette through the light of the bathroom coming towards his bed. He climbed in without even glancing at Kendall. "I'm sorry." Kendall whispered before he turned quickly to face Logan's direction. He watched as the smaller boy's chest fell and rose with this even breathing before Kendall closed his eyes and drifted into a deep sleep.

The next morning at breakfast Kendall found Logan and Carlos already seated and eating when he arrived in the dining hall. He sat down next to Carlos and said a small "hello" still clearly distracted by the fight him and James had had the night before.

"How you feeling, Kendall?" Logan's voice breaking him out of his trance.

"Oh, I'm fine." Kendall said as he played with his food. "Have either of you seen James today?" Kendall brought his eyes up to meet Carlos's stare. He just shook his head. Kendall caught on that Carlos was uncomfortable with his friends fighting so he decided to leave him out of the situation as he turned back to Logan.

"No, I haven't seen him today. He was gone by the time I got up." The small brunette said. After a short pause he spoke up again. "If you don't mind me asking what was your fight about last night? I thought that James was going to hit you!"

"Yeah, I thought so too." Kendall said as he dropped his fork from his eggs then continued "I told him I was sorry that I had been such a prick to him and he went off on me telling me he wanted to be friends with me and all I did was treat him like hell. And he was right. I did. And I regret it so much!" Kendall could feel his blood begin to boil as the anger towards himself built up in his chest. Suddenly his voice rose as he continued to Logan. "I feel so fucking bad. James did nothing wrong and I was a complete ass! I don't know why I was acting that way. I knew and know that all of us are stressed right now! I just wish I could take it all back and start over with him!" When Kendall stopped he looked up at Logan who was no longer looking at him but over his head. Kendall slowly turned till his eyes locked with James' hazel ones. James walked around the table and dropped his tray next to Logan before saying "Kendall, can we talk alone?"

Ok guys, another chapter down! Please let me know what you think! Please, please! I should have the next one done soon. Maybe tomorrow afternoon or night!