"Logan, I can't figure this out! I don't know what I'm doing. Our test is tomorrow!" Carlos' voice rose an octave as he threw his pencil down onto the bed. The four boys had pushed Kendall and Logan's bed together so that they could all sit in a circle together.

Logan leaned over and said "Carlos, calm down. You're going to do fine on this test. What don't you get?"

As they went back and forth about what Carlos didn't understand Kendall looked up at James who was going through flash cards about how to do different sutures. "How are you doing James? Do you think you're getting it?"

As he finished the small stack he had in his hands he looked up at Kendall with a nervous smile and said "Yeah, what about you?"

"I'm good. Though, I can't believe that this is the last week before we get sent out to a base for real work."

"Yeah, but you do know that we will most likely be stuck in a hospital here for at least a few months before we are sent overseas."

"Yeah, but isn't that a good thing? I mean think about it, James! Would you be able to handle the stress of being sent onto the front lines as soon as we leave here? It's not like when they shot blanks around us. Those guns could kill us!" Kendall went on a rant. He felt the stress explode in his chest and the fear that he didn't know he was feeling knowing that he was going to be leaving this safe place soon to another new place that he knew nothing about.

"Kendall, calm down!" James said putting his hands out in front of him hoping that Kendall would just take a deep breath, "Breath!"

Kendall took in a deep breath, "Ok, I'm ok. Let's just study for a few more minutes before the lights get turned off on us."

"Damn. I've never seen you get so upset over nothing!" Logan said as he let out a breathy laugh and nudged Kendall's arm. "You gonna survive buddy?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I think the test is getting to all of us." Kendall said then added more for himself than for the other three, "Remember, we have three chances to get an 80% on this test before we have to take the entire 90 days over again."

"Yes, everything is going to be ok guys! Don't freak out. And! Always go with your first instinct. Don't second guess yourself." Carlos said thinking about what his mother had always told him before he had to take a test. He felt a pang in his chest as he thought about how much he missed his family. He even missed his dog!

"You ok Carlos?" James asked looking at the Latino that had a hurt expression on his face.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I just miss my family." He said his eyes staying hidden behind his long dark lashes.

"I know dude. We all miss our families. Right guys?" Kendall said trying to cheer up his friend.

"Right," The other two said in unison. "Now let's get to bed. It's going to be a busy afternoon tomorrow and we will need our rest."

They replaced Kendall and Logan's beds to where they had originally been before they all put their books away and laid down for the first time in a few days before the lights went off. "Good night guys." Kendall said rolling onto his left side.

The boys stood outside of the class room waiting for their teacher to arrive and unlock the door before they could go in and take a seat. "I'm so nervous!" Logan said for the first time admitting that he was freaking out, at least a little bit.

"We are all going to be fine." Kendall said as the teacher pushed through them and opened the door. The four boys sat side by side as the teacher passed out the test and told them all "You all have one hour to complete this exam. If you do not pass you will have two more chances to take it again to be able to graduate on Saturday. You may begin"

With that the room dove into their tests. It wasn't exactly what Kendall was expecting but he thought that he had done ok. He didn't know that there were going to be essay questions but he breezed through them. As he closed his packet and put down his pencil he looked at James, Logan, and Carlos, who were all still writing.

Kendall leaned back and relaxed at his desk letting his head fall back. He looked at the clock that signaled there were only three minutes left. As he watched the second hand he became more and more anxious just wanting to turn this test in so that it can be graded and they find out what their near futures will come to.

"Ok, seal and bring your packets to me immediately." The man stood at the front of the room and waited. Kendall stood and James joined him in the line as they waited.

"How do you think you did?" James' voice sounded indifferent and Kendall immediately felt bad. He knew how much James had studied.

"I think I did ok. Did you know that there were going to be essay questions?" James shook his head to his question as he handed over his test and waited for Kendall to do the same.

"No. I never heard anything about it. Though, I think I did ok on that part." James said his voice perking up a bit. They took their seats again and waited for the teacher to collect all of their papers.

"Ok. Now I expect all of you to come here tonight at 1600 to find a piece of paper attached to the door." He pointed to the door behind them. "It will have the last four digits of your Social Security Number and you will have a P or F next to it signaling if you have passed or failed."

With that they were dismissed for dinner. They talked about how the test went for each of them and to no surprise Logan was the most confident with his work. Dinner was filled with worry as they watched the time closely. It was 7:00 when they had made it back to their beds and James and Carlos decided to take a shower to pass the time while Kendall and Logan stayed at their beds.

After James and Carlos had walked away talking about God knows what Kendall looked over to Logan to find him pulling a book out from under his bed. He wrote in it every night. At first Kendall thought that he was writing letters every night, but EVERY night? No.

"Logan, what are you writing?" Kendall asked as he watched the boy.

"Oh. I know this is gonna sound stupid but I…"He trailed off and looked at me and said "don't judge me….ok?" Kendall nodded "Well, it's kinda like a diary. I just write my last thoughts of the day in it before I go to sleep. Though right now I have a lot of nerves and it helps me to put them on paper so I can leave them behind."

Kendall nodded then said "That isn't something to be ashamed of. I have had times where I can't handle all the thoughts in the head and I have to release them."

"Thanks Ken." Kendall smiled when he heard Logan say that. Almost like giving him a nickname.

"Any time buddy." Kendall leaned back on his bed and asked "Hey, can you wake me up when James and Carlos get back. I just can't think too much about this test."

"Sure." Logan said as he started to scribble.

"Kendall, wake up its 740. We need to get going. Maybe the paper will be up early." Kendall's eyes opened and met Logan's dark ones. He sat up and hung his legs over the side of the bed.

He stood and they all walked out of the room. The walk to the class room in the building next to theirs wasn't long enough. Kendall was so freaked out to find how he had done. Just one little letter could change everything. Maybe not this time around really, but in the close future it could.

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