Kendall was lying on his stomach with his arms curled under his chest when he felt something on his face. He didn't open his eyes but then he felt it again and this time he smelt the sweet minty smell of tooth paste. He opened his eyes to see James' face just inches from his own. He jumped with a high pitched squeal and landed on the floor bringing his blankets with him. Logan jumped out of his own bed and looked down at Kendall who was slowly getting up. It was about 2 in the morning so all the lights were still out. James sat up and looked at Kendall who was just now standing up.
"I forgot that we had put our beds together last night and was NOT expecting to see you when I opened my eyes." Kendall was still trying to calm himself and glared at Carlos when he heard his giggles.
James also laughed and said "Sorry dude."
Logan sat back on his bed, covered up, then whispered to Carlos, "And these are the people we chose to be friends with?" They both laughed once more before setting back into sleep.
Kendall sat back down on his bed that was still connected to James'. "You ok? I mean from last night?" James' small smile left his face as if he had forgotten about why their beds had been together.
"Oh, yeah. I'll be fine. I've got you guys now." He smiled again though Kendall could tell he was still hurting.
"Just think about the life that you are going to have here." Kendall smiled at him and patted him on the back. He then pulled his bed back to where it had originally been. "Good night James. Wake me up if you need anything."
James and Logan headed off to the showers before breakfast while Carlos and Kendall stayed at their beds had showering last night. Kendall thought about James and how their faces had been so close last night. It was kind of weird. Kendall didn't understand his feelings towards the boy but he wanted to always be there for him when he was hurt or needed someone to talk to. Kendall had thought he was being a protective best friend but he felt a strange feeling every time he thought about the brunette boy.
He was shaken from his thoughts when Carlos spoke to him. "Kendall, you ok man? You look a little off?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just hoping that James is going to be ok now that his girlfriend of I guess three years broke it off."
"I know, I heard about that. It must be hard on him. But he should be fine. There are plenty of girls that he can meet here." He looked around the room seeing it filled with all men. "Ok. Maybe not here but we know that there will be women when we go to a hospital."
"Yeah, he is tough. He will make it." Kendall said thinking about James getting another girlfriend and then him spending all of his spare time with her and not with Kendall. He shook his head not wanting to look too much into his weird thoughts.
"Hey, can I ask you something? I mean you don't have to answer if you don't want to but I just want to know…out of curiosity." Kendall eyed him oddly willing the Latino boy to continued, "Well, I mean. I was just wondering….Are you gay?"
Kendall paused. He was not expecting that question at all. He didn't even know how to respond. He didn't think he was. He had had multiple girlfriends, though; none of them had lasted very long. He shook his head and let out a lost, breathy laugh, "No, Carlos. I am not gay." He then felt uncomfortable and wanted to turn the subject "Are you?!"
Carlos looked down at the ground and let out the same kind of laugh, "No, I don't think so." He blushed a little and Kendall just looked at him, "I might be bi, though I'm not really sure. Though, I do know that I do like girls."
Well, this conversation had not been on Kendall's to do list today but he was glad that Carlos hadn't asked him in front of Logan and James….especially James. 'Maybe I'm like Carlos and just Bi. I had never really thought about that before.' Kendall thought to himself.
"Ok, no biggy dude. Nothing to worry about."
Then Carlos jumped up and moved around the bed to sit next to Kendall an almost panicked look on his face. "You know you can't tell anyone. I know that Obama had pulled the 'don't ask, don't tell' rule but we still don't know how people will feel about it in the military."
Kendall shook his head at him, "No, Carlos. They have a right to judge us but they cannot punish us for our sexuality or discharge us anymore. They have to treat us all exactly the same now. Fuck them if they don't like it. We are allowed to be with whoever we want, military or not!"
Carlos thought this over for a second before he responded, "Ok, I guess you're right but you can't tell anyone. At least not yet, not even Logan knows."
"Your secret is safe with me!" Kendall said as he pretended to zip his lips and through away the key.
Just then Logan and James walk up behind them and James asks "What are you two all hushy-hushy about?" He shook his head making little droplets of water go every direction. The other three boys put their hands in front of their faces stopping the water.
"Really…I was standing right next to you." Logan said with a smile as he used his towel to wipe off the left side of his face.
Kendall jumped off the bed and grabbed the towel that was around James' neck and threw it over his head and rubbed his hair tangling it. "Hey, hey! My hair Kendall!" Kendall laughed at the brunette's distress over his hair. James walked over to their shared cabinet and grabbed his comb dragging it through his hair. "Was that necessary?" He asked with a pouting look.
Kendall just laughed again before saying. "Let's go eat. We only have three more days before we leave this place once and for all!"
I'm hoping that things will pick up in the next chapter or next! Please review and tell me if you have any suggestions!