Vampire Academy: A Desperate Cause

Chapter 9 of my Vampire Academy story, enjoy.

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Disclaimer: Vampire Academy belongs to Richelle Mead.

Chapter 9

ROSE POV

I bit my lip, my hands balled into fists in my lap as Dimitri drove onwards; we were heading to the first destination we had been given by Abe, by my father.

'My father...' The words rolled around in my head and I felt almost as if I was suffocating.

I couldn't understand it exactly, at least, not at first. Everything was going too fast; I was trying to process it all; the fact that I had finally met my father, who my father actually was, the fact he had a home so close to the Academy. All those thoughts kept bubbling up to the surface. But I had to keep forcing them down.

After all, I was one a mission. 'A very important mission, I have to, we have to save Lissa and Jill; that needs to be our focus, but...but I can't stop, thinking about this...'

I did my best to suppress a growl of frustration as my emotions continued to bubble inside me. I had to stay focused on what truly mattered, especially with Lissa's life, Jill's life, hanging in the balance.

But the more I held this in, the more I felt like I was going to explode, but what could I do, it wasn't like I could just talk about this, was it. I mean, without sounding utterly ridiculous.

Dimitri must have noticed my inner turmoil however, for he spoke up at that moment.

"Roza, you seem troubled...Is everything alright?" He asked.

I swallowed and tried to keep my tone neutral. "Yeah, yeah sure...I'm fine, I'll be better once we get Lissa and Jill back."

I heard Dimitri sigh, but before I could say anything about it, he replied.

"Well, Ibrahim has helped up, we know places to search now and places to avoid. He's also calling up old contacts all over the search zone. Any one of these people could have seen something, at least one of them must have. No matter how hard they try, it's impossible for anyone to be completely invisible."

I nodded sullenly. "I know, just like I know that this is our only chance, all we have, but I just can't help it."

He raised an eyebrow at that. "Help what?"

"Being frustrated about all this, we've already been to three locations, found nothing, we're running out of time we're already reaching the halfway mark of our deadline, I've yet to figure out anything useful from any visions Lissa sends me...I just feel we're going in circles."

Dimitri did not reply for some time after that and I suppressed another growl; waiting for him to say something.

A short while later, I was surprised when Dimitri suddenly pulled the car over and turned to me.

"Rose, that's not what's really bothering you, I can see that, now please, talk to me, tell me what's going on, what's really got you upset?" He said quickly.

I bit my lip and shook my head. "It doesn't matter, it's personal and, it's just stupid and..."

He reached out and took one of my hands. "Stupid or not; it's eating you up, you need to let it out. Now please...talk to me."

I let out a shuddering breath, this wasn't the time, I wasn't going to, but then I couldn't hold on any more. The dam simply burst.

The words were spat out. "I just can't believe that, I find out like this!"

Dimitri seemed startled, but said nothing.

Taking that as a cue I continued. "I mean, after all these years, I find out who my father is, that. That he was right there, so close...maybe not all the time, but, certainly at least some points over the years! But never once did he bother to make contact with me, I was left all alone!"

I was aware I was hyperventilating now and tried to calm myself, but no such luck, my anger was too strong, I was beginning to realize that I actually felt betrayed. That was the source of my frustration.

It wasn't stopping either as I continued.

"I mean, while I didn't like it, I understood why mom was never around. Oh sure, dad's work is dangerous, I'm a Dhampir, I'm protecting a Princess to a Moroi Royal Family, my whole life is danger! I burst out. "Maybe when I was younger I did need protecting, but what about the last few years...I mean, did I not deserve to know then, did they even care!?"

It sounded spiteful and childish even to my ears, but my emotions just burst out and I couldn't help it.

But I wasn't done and I began ranting again. "I mean, is it too difficult to come and visit, if only to say hello; to let me know who he was...Especially after all the rumours I heard about him."

I was fighting for breath now and tried desperately to calm down, to get my breathing and emotions under control. Dimitri hadn't said a word in all this, simply letting me vent my anger, he squeezed my hand reassuringly, his gaze was sympathetic.

I wasn't sure how long it was, but I did finally calm down, feeling lighter now that I had finally got all that off my chest. I couldn't believe I had actually said all that though, fell all of it.

I thought, after what I went through with Mom the past several months, I would be over any abandonment issues. Clearly that wasn't the case.

Seeing that I was calm once again Dimitri let go of my hand and gently guided me to face him.

"Rose, I know things aren't easy here. I don't blame you for your anger...I know what's it's like, my relationship with my own father...could be better." He replied.

I was a little surprised at how, lightly, he was putting things judging by his tone, but still I listened.

He continued. "But, you still have a chance, don't waste this, you have a chance to fix things. I know it's hard, that you're angry, but who knows, if you take this chance, maybe something good will come out of it."

"Maybe." I replied at last with a heavy sigh.

I knew Dimitri was right. However, before we could say anything else I felt a sharp tug on my mind and blacked out as I experienced another vision.

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