"Logan?"

"Hm?"

"I know we aren't that close, which I wish we were closer, but I wanna tell you something that you can't tell no one unless it comes to it." Kendall had been thinking about this for a while now. He wanted to tell Carlos but he figured he needed a little bonding with Logan.

"Yeah?" Logan asked, "What is it?" He nibbled on his bottom lip worry and confusion mixing on his face.

"Well, I…" Kendall paused, "I just wanna make sure that if something does happen to me that –"

"Hey, nothing is going to happen to any of us!" Logan exclaimed shock and anger mixing in his voice, or maybe fear?

Kendall turned to look him in the eyes keeping his voice low since everyone else was sleeping and they were supposed to be watching this side of their 'camp.' "No, listen to me, I want you to tell James exactly how I feel about him."

"Haven't or aren't you supposed to be doing that now?" Logan asked pointing to the ground, his chest heaving, though Kendall couldn't figure out what was causing it besides his suspicion of fear.

"Well, yeah. And I am! But please," Kendall took on a pleading posture, "If something happens to me you have to tell him that I love him with everything I have."

Logan sarcastically bowed over his Indian style crossed legs, "Is there anything else I can do for you, dear sir?"

Kendall rolled his eyes and shoved him lightly, "Fuck you!" He laughed lightly before he stopped completely, "Yes, actually, there is one more thing, I have a letter that I wrote to my mom and sister," His heart dropped at the thought of leaving them. "It's in my bag at the very bottom. It's sealed and stamped and everything, you just have to send it to them."

Logan looked at him, his face was almost blank, though it held something, and Kendall just didn't know what, once again guessing, maybe contemplation.

Solemnly the smaller brunette nodded, "Sure, of course." His voice was low, maybe he was thinking of his family back home.

There was silence for a long silence while they both thought of home. Kendall shivered as he felt the cold of the air sink into the empty spots that his family usually held, he was missing them so much.

As he brought his coat tighter to him he spoke quietly, "You know, this place, right here and right now, kinda reminds me of home."

"Yeah? How?"

"I don't know. It's just that it's cold and I can see every star through the bare trees." He paused biting his lip feeling his home sickness sinking even deeper into him, "I just remember home being so peaceful and quiet. I could see every star where I lived."

Logan only nodded.

Kendall wanted to say something but nothing that came to mind sounded good. He wanted to ask if there was something Kendall would want to tell Carlos or James or his family. He thought it would be better to just stay quiet so that he didn't upset the other male.

Soon after two men came up to them and told them to go to bed and that they would have a long day tomorrow when they finally reached the combat area.

"ughf!" Was all that Kendall could let out when he felt the wind being knocked out of him. When he opened his eyes he saw that it was still dark but he could see James sitting up next to him looking off in the distance listening intently for something, then Kendall heard it to, his heart picking up to a rapid pace, gun fire.

Kendall saw as well seeing Carlos begin to stir on the other side of James as he regained his breath, "Hey, babe, its fine. It's far away. You can hear the echo."

James began to breathe again, "Yeah, it just startled me coming out of nowhere."

Kendall and him listened as it continued for a few more moments then went quiet. "Come here," he said as he lay back down and held his arm out to the side for James to rest on his chest, which he did without hesitation. The blonde kissed his forehead brushing his bangs out of his face. He could feel the other boy vibrating, "James…" He paused not knowing what to say before he decided to go with something lame, "It's gonna be ok. We are safe here. Kendall reached out with his right hand to make sure that his gun was still within reaching distance just for good measure.

"I know. I just don't exactly know what to expect." He paused, "I mean. You have been in this situation before," Kendall held back a 'whatever', "I just don't know how I'm gonna do this and not freeze up."

Kendall was now brushing his thumb against James' unshaved cheek, "Hey, we will be fine. We are going into this together and we all have each other's back, ok? No one is going to let anything happen to you."

Though, James knew he was bluffing just as much as he did, he still nodded.

"Let's get some sleep baby, ok?" Kendall kissed his forehead hoping to comfort the brunette as much as possible.

"Do you know what scares me to most?"? James said seemingly ignoring the blonde's request of sleep.

"What?"

"Killing someone," He took in a sharp breath before continuing, "I mean I know that everyone says it's not that hard to do when they shoot at you first, but think about it," No, this is the one thing that Kendall had been trying not to think about, succeeding until now, "they are son's and dad's and a family member just like us, and I'm going to be the one taking him from their children and wives and moms and dads."

Kendall didn't know what to say, feeling the uninvited lump gather in his throat.

After a momentary pause James whispers, "I'm sorry. It has just been eating away at me."

All Kendall could do was nod.

So I know that this is ANOTHER boring chapter but I needed to form some sort of connection between Kendall and Logan, it had been seriously neglected. But please! Review; tell me what you really think! The next chapter is going to have the action.