Okay… I got this done. Sorry that I ended that I ended the last chapter on such a sad note. Plus, I think that the ending on it probably confused some people as well as made many more cry. It certainly made me cry, again, and again… let's just say I cried myself a river and call it good.

Mailbox Time!

Invader Johnny: Yep, just not in the way some people might think.

. : Yep, I spent a good few hours trying my best to not cry while typing it.

Cb: Thank you, I hope you find this chapter to be good too.

RPGPersona: Dark stuff, always so hard to write. Who says Raven entered the dream? Don't know what I mean? Just read the chapter and you'll see.

JubJub 0250: Hell no! Not after leaving it on such a sad note!

Guest: You have it the wrong way around, Raven needs to save Beast Boy. Also, screw Malchior, I'll never forgive that bastard for breaking Raven's heart.

Santoramon: Yes, it was definitely overkill. Beast Boy had already had feelings for Raven, and that nightmare made him realize when he thought it was too late. Seem familiar?

fangirl4life03: Just know, you were partly right. Trigon was partly responsible for it. I used an image of evil Beast Boy when I described him.

long forgotten kiss: How do you think I felt after writing that chapter. Also, read your profile page, replaced my tears with so many laughs. Thank you.

Bluedog197: Don't worry, I love it when you give the long reviews for me. It lets me know you cared enough to write for awhile to express your feelings. Glad you find this story epic dude. Here's another chapter just for you.

Now, in answer to my question last chapter, the scene was inspired from the Kingdom Hearts series. More specifically, 358 ½ Days. It was based on the last scene between Roxas and Xion (my heart goes out to these two) when Xion disappeared, along with everyone's memories of her, eventually including Roxas himself. It had been so sad the first time I saw it, that I still have tear stains on that DS.

On to Chapter 5!

Disclaimer: I hope to one day say I own Teen Titans. For now, I don't.

Chapter Five: What is a mind?

Set in Beast Boy's mind

Jungle. Dense, jungle... everywhere. For miles, there was thick, green, dense jungle.

'And to think I said that his mind was just an empty hole where his brain should have been. This is even more ridiculous than even Happy's Domain.'

Apparently, Beast Boy's mind was a lot bigger than anyone could have thought. Right now, there wass dense jungle all around for miles in every direction. Beyond the jungle, however, were other different types of environments. To the north, beyond the jungle, was a massive desert. A hot sun scorching the ground there. To the West, there was a great plain of flat grassland, and it looked like there were different kinds of animals feasting on it. To the East, lay a massive ocean that stretched from horizon to horizon, seemingly endless. And to the South, was a mountain range, snow lay on the ground around these mountains. Along with a couple random glaciers peaking from in between them.

This was what a black dot thousands of feet in the air could see as it entered the mind of Beast Boy. And it was only what she could see. 'How the hell us his mindscape so much bigger than mine?' It thought to itself.

It flew down at a fast pace, albeit, not as fast as a certain changeling had before when he had accidentally entered his mind when he fell asleep. As the shadow fell, several birds flew out of a tree in the distance, being to far away for the shadow to see. If you looked closely at one of them though, it'd look like the sun above was making it light up the world around it in a yellow light. This certain bird, caught sight of the falling shadow, and changed it's course.

After about another minute, the black shadow touched down onto the soft, grass/leave covered ground that was the jungle in Beast Boy's mind. It looked around itself to see if anyone or anything was around, and then the shadow changed form.

After a moment, Raven was standing where the shadow used to be, her blue cloak flowing around her. The yellow bird, which was an eagle, perched on a branch up above. 'Okay, I'm in his mind… now what?'

Honestly, the pale empath hadn't really planned that Beast Boy's mindscape would be much bigger than she initially thought. She had at least known that he had a mind after her examination from the outside. But she hadn't thought it would be this big! She was almost a little jealous that his mindscape was so much larger than hers. Luckily, worry was clouding out all the jealousy in her.

'I can't waste any time, I need to find him now! I can't let him suffer from that nightmare any longer!' Raven floated up above the tree line, not even noticing the yellow eagle, and started flying out over the jungle. Using her empathic senses, she reached out to see if she could locate Beast Boy through the thick foliage beneath her.

After barely a second she stopped in shock as she found a faint trace of Beast Boy beneath her. 'At least it was quick.' She thought to herself.

She phased through the foliage beneath her and landed on the ground. Checking her senses again, she saw that it was coming from a tall bush in front of her, and it was near the ground. She got down on her hands and knees, her senses saying that Beast Boy was right in front of her. "Beast Boy?"

She opened the bush, wondering why Beast Boy would be having a nightmare under here. "Beas-" It was then she realized two things. One,the bush was much to small to hold a full grown human underneath it. And two, her face was right in front of a furry, upraised tail that had a light orange mark running down the middle of it.

Raven was hit head on by the defense mechanism of an orange skunk.

At first, her face held a funny look of shock. The orange skunk scurried away, seeming to be giggling as it went.

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… then…

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"BEAST BOYYYYYY(about ten seconds)!"

The skunk had long since fled. A now red four eyed Raven was flattening the jungle around her in a fit of Rage (heh, rage). In the distance, a yellow eagle held a look of shock on it's face. 'Why in hell's name did Rude just piss Raven off in Garfield's own mind!'

Raven phased up through the remaining foliage, intent on more destruction, when she stopped. Her red eyes faded as she saw many green birds of every kind flying away from the area she was currently hovering over. Also, in the jungle below, she saw green monkeys, gorillas, and other jungle animals fleeing the damaged jungle. When she calmed down enough to reach out, she was surprised to find that every animal she found had a trace of Beast Boy on them.

'So… his own animals are part of his landscape, not decorations or something like that?'

A thought came to mind. 'What? You have a floating strawberry in Happy's Domain, so who are you to judge him for that?'

'Point taken, Knowledge.' Raven subconsciously replied back to her emoticlone.

"How am I supposed to find Beast Boy now?" Raven asked herself. Now that her best method of tracking him down would be entirely useless now.

"You can always ask me." Raven jumped as a voice called down from behind her. Turning around, she came face to face with… "Beast Boy?"

It certainly looked like him, except for his entire uniform was yellow and he wore a pair of glasses on him. "Not… exactly." he replied.

Now she was confused, how could Beast Boy be right in front of her, and not be… "You're his Knowledge emoticlone, aren't you?" she asked him.

Knowledge grinned back at Raven. "Yep, didn't know I could even exist in him, did ya?"

'This just keeps on getting weirder and weirder.'

She frowned. "But, I thought I was the only one who had emoticlones inside my mind?"

Knowledge lost his grin as he tried to find the best way to explain. "Well… this is the best way I can tell you… you know how Garfield's DNA is constantly changing… right?" he said in a serious tone.

"Yes… everyone on the team knows that. So why should that matter here?" she asked in a cold tone, surprised to find that she wasn't the only only with a crazy mind.

Knowledge paled a little. "Well… as you have seen… everything Garfield has ever changed to is present in his mind. From that skunk that sprayed you (glare from Raven) to the birds flying in the air." he finished in a smaller voice.

Gritting her teeth "Another thing, I noticed that skunk was orange. Not green like the other animals." she told him, clearly demanding an answer.

"Yeah (sweatdrop) I believe in your mind you'd call him Rude. Lives up to his name, don't you think." Knowledge said, trying to ease the tension. The four eyed glare she sent his way kind of told him he said the wrong thing to her.

"Now… might I ask… how you and… HIM… exist in the first place!?" She said, clearly agitated after learning part of Beast Boy had made her smell worse than the tail of a camel.

Knowledge took a deep breath. 'Well, here goes nothing.'

"Garfield's DNA has once changed to that of a half-demon."

Silence… a shocked look started to come onto Raven's face… anger now clearly forgotten. She was unable to believe it… 'Oh Azar, what was I thinking coming in here?'

Another voice replied. 'You were scared for him, after hearing what he had said.' Her Knowledge replied to her.

Raven finally spoke. "How?" she asked, her monotone, threatening voice gone.

'Okay, she's not angry with you anymore. That's certainly a good sign… right? Crap, she just asked a question! Better answer her before she gets mad again!'

"When Beast Boy faced Trigon… Trigon made a copy of him… a demon of his dark side, you would say. After it was defeated by Cyborg though, it combined back with Garfield. But, since it had been a demon, in the brief time it reconnected with Garfield, his DNA was half human… and half demon… for only a short second." Beast Boy's Knowledge finished a little uncomfortable about the experience.

Raven stayed silent for a few seconds, and then she spoke, "And in that one second… you and Rude were created?" she said in an awed voice.

He started smiling again, glad she at least wasn't angry anymore about him existing. Then his smile widened when he realized something. "It wasn't just me and him who were created Raven."

Raven looked at him confused, then suddenly, as if a signal had called them out, she saw the clearing open around her open up as several different emoticlones appeared around her.

"Rae-Rae is here! Yayyyyy (flying airplanes around her while drawing out the yay part)!" said an emoticlone in an ironic blue uniform (Same color as her cloak).

"Let me guess… happiness." Raven said in a dry tone, being reminded of her over enthusiastic emoticlone. 'Ahhhh, Rae, he's the same as me!' Happy said in her mind.

'SHUT IT!' She angrily replied back.

"What do you know, the girl has a brain after all. To bad it didn't help you earlier." an emoticlone in an orange uniform blurted out before chugging a soda can and releasing the mother of all burps.

"And you must be Rude." she said with some disgust and anger in her voice. 'Oddly enough, I think my Rude and his Rude would get along real well if they met.'

'You got that right you freaking witch!' Rude replied in her mind.

Another emoticlone in a deep green uniform vaulted over the others, landing in front of Raven. "Hey beautiful, you doing anything later?" The emoticlone said in a confident voice.

Raven had to digest what he told her in her mind. 'Did he just say I'm beautiful, and that he wants to date me!' Raven was really glad her hood was up at the moment since her pale face wasn't so pale at the moment. 'Hell yeah, now that's what I'm talking about!' Her Brave said in her mind.

"And you must be Brave." she said, trying to hold her monotone tone as she said it. She was relieved when another emoticlone pushed Brave out of the way. It was Knowledge, and he was visibly sweat dropping again.

"Don't mind him, he tends to be a little brash with what he says." he said, nervously scratching the area behind his neck.

Raven stared at him coldly… his sweating got incredibly more noticeable. 'Oh mother of all things holy, please don't let me die now!'

Finally, Raven let out a sigh. "I don't have time for this Knowledge, I need to find Garfield."

Knowledge was silently grateful that she was changing the subject from the other emoticlones now. "All I can tell you is that he's currently somewhere here in this jungle Raven. Beyond that, I'm not entirely sure."

Sigh 'Of course, it's never easy for me, is it?' "Well, that's something at least. But how can you not tell where he is in this big jungle?"

"Well that is a little complicated to explain…" his face took on a look of fear as Raven's eyes began to turn red again. He started to speak quickly. "All I know is that he's in a such a deep sleep that we can't even pinpoint his location. He's essentially in the subconscious part of his mind where his dreams happen, even though his mind body is still somewhere here in this jungle."

Raven's eyes became normal again. "Okay, I guess that does make some sense. But how do we find him in a jungle this big?"

Relieved that she understood, Knowledge started to grin again. "Well, the last time we were able to see where he was, he had been falling out of the sky, screaming like a little girl." Raven couldn't keep the smirk from off her face as she heard those words.

"So I think that it's most likely that if you find a damaged area in the jungle foliage up above, chances are, Garfield will be on the ground beneath it." Knowledge finished.

Raven's smirk turned into a frown. "Wouldn't he be injured from that impact though?" Raven asked the emoticlone.

"Not really. This is his mind after all, so he can't be hurt unless he allows himself to be." Knowledge replied.

Raven nodded, understanding what he meant, it was after all the same in her mind. She left the small crowd of emoticlones beneath her as she flew up and phased through some of the foliage. Coming out, she flew up high above the trees, preparing to search. That was when she looked down, and saw through small gaps in the foliage that the emoticlones beneath her were shifting into different colored animals beneath her.

A blue hummingbird flew up beside her, gave her a wink, and then it flew off towards the West. A dark green tiger appeared in Brave's spot before it took off into the trees. Behind it, a small gray cheetah followed in pursuit (Yes, that was Timid). Raven was looking at all the different colored animals confused. Then, a yellow eagle perched on a tree below her before it transformed back to Knowledge. He waved her down upon seeing her still floating in the air.

"Why are you still just hovering there Raven?" he asked as she came down.

"How can you all morph into animals?" she replied.

He shrugged his shoulders. "We're able to transform into the forms he uses the most for certain feelings. Like in a battle, when he hovers as an eagle, he's using his brain to find the best way to take down the villain. One of the only times he uses it in an animal form, so that's what I'm mainly limited to. Besides, don't your emotions also have your powers?"

"Well… in a way… yes. But if you ask me, he doesn't use you as much in his human form either." Raven sarcastically replied at the end.

Knowledge smiled, shrugging his shoulders at her. "You'd be surprised about how wrong you are right there."

Before she could reply, he morphed back into an eagle and flew past her high up into the sky. Raven had still been a little curious as to what he had meant, but she put it aside and went back to the task at hand. Searching for the area Beast Boy fell into.

About every few seconds in her search, she saw another emoticlone searching the jungle either above her, beneath her, or to the side of her. The animals ranged from a variety of species and a rainbow of different colors. The blue hummingbird from before. Seeming to be spending more time doing flying stunts than searching for Beast Boy. A now gray Pterodactyl was flying high above the trees, a deep green peregrine falcon flying beneath it.

Then, she started meeting some were she hadn't been introduced to them, yet she did recognize them by both their color and their animal. Like a brown sloth she found lazily moving from tree to tree. 'Wow, his Sloth really lives up to his name.' A light yellow hawk going from tree to tree. 'Wisdom.'

She then saw an orange skunk slinking across the ground through a gap in the foliage underneath. She still remembered the incident from earlier, unfortunately. After a few seconds, Raven flew off again, leaving the struggling orange emoticlone trapped in a thick layer of vines, cussing like a one eyed carpenter.

But then she came across some unfamiliar ones. A black robin, a now light green cheetah, a dark blue dog, and other different ones that almost made her stop and try and figure out what they were. But it wasn't until ten minutes later when she saw something that did make her stop in her tracks. It was a pure white raven, flying just ahead of her, seemingly unaware of her presence. She was curious, she hadn't seen a white uniformed Beast Boy down in the crowd when she had originally arrived.

She saw it look down and suddenly veer from its flight path towards the jungle a few hundred feet below. All the other emoticlones started to converge on the area as the Raven fell. She looked, and at first, she couldn't see what had managed to draw its attention.

And then, she saw the broken branches running down between two trees below the white raven, who was hovering over the spot.

Raven flew down, flying past the raven who she guessed was waiting for the others. She phased through the trees and foliage, looking for Beast Boy. Finally, as she phased through the last few branches about fifteen feet above the ground, she saw him, laying flat on his stomach on the ground.

She landed and rushed over to him, first checking him for injuries just in case Knowledge had been wrong. He hadn't been. He was breathing in and out slowly, as if he was in a deep sleep.

"Beast Boy." She said in his ear. He didn't respond. "Beast Boy." She said a little louder while shaking him gently. Still nothing.

She turned his body around. "Garfield!" she shouted in his face while shaking him violently. He still didn't wake up. And as she watched, his breathing seemed to slow down even more. Raven, along with her emoticlones, were starting to panic at this point.

"What's happening to him! Why won't he wake up!" She shouted. She was grateful at the moment that she wasn't in the outside world, otherwise the emotions she was experiencing at the moment would have destroyed it a million times over by now. She was feeling intense amounts of worry, anger, confusion, fear… you name it.

In the middle of her panic attack, a yellow eagle landed by Raven before turning back into Knowledge. He had a grave look on his face. He hadn't known that what had happened to his host was this serious.

"I'm sorry Raven, but it appears that Garfield is slipping into a coma. And don't ask me why, I don't know." He said in a grave tone to her.

Raven looked up sharply at him. Other emoticlones were landing and morphing around her at this point.

"How the hell can he be slipping into a coma! I thought he was just tired and fell asleep in the air on the way back to the tower! I thought he was just having a nightmare earlier! And now you're telling me that he's slipping even deeper into his mind! (Tears started to fall from her eyes) AND YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY-" she had been screaming in his face at that point when Knowledge did something he didn't normally do… that brought a few gasps and chuckles from the growing crowd of emoticlones...

Knowledge slapped Raven in the face, stopping her in mid rant as a look of surprise came across her face. 'I hope she doesn't kill me for that later.'

"Raven." he said, calmly gripping her shoulders. "Freaking out and setting the blame on me isn't going to help Garfield out." He said in as calm a tone as possible, doing his best to not shake with fear at what he did.

Raven tried to find something to say, but couldn't. So instead, she took a few deep breathes, simultaneously repeating her mantra to herself inside her mind. Finally calm, she looked up again with a blank face and saw all the other emoticlones in the small clearing.

She spoke in a calm voice. "Do you have an idea of what would cause him to go into a coma?"

Knowledge scrunched up his face in thought. "Well, we know that he was deeply tired before he fell asleep. So normally, for him, when he goes into a deep sleep, he goes into his subconscious and has dreams. Depending on what happened that day, he'll either have his paradise dream... or a severe nightmare."

Raven blinked, the same thing usually happened with her, although it was normally more nightmares than paradise since she didn't have many good days. "Okay, but why does that matter?"

He gulped, a little afraid to share this part. "Well, the last couple days, he's been having… nightmares."

Her face showed nothing. "Do you know what happened in them by chance?" her tone was calm, but laced at the ends with impatience.

"Well… yes, I do… but I don't know if you should really know about them or not."

Raven's left eyebrow arched up. "Is it because I'm in those nightmares of his?" Taking a guess since she had heard him saying her name earlier.

Knowledge let out a sigh. "Yes… but not in the way that you might think."

"Well what's going on in them then? What am I doing to him in these nightmares of his?" Raven asked.

"Raven… that is something I'm afraid that I can't tell you."

Raven's calm was slowly being replaced with anger once again. 'I really wish that something would go right.'

"And just why, in Azar's name, can't I know what I'm doing to him in his own nightmares?" She said in a tone teetering between calm and anger.

Before Knowledge could talk, a white uniformed emotion stepped forward. One that had yet to speak or meet her. He gently pulled Knowledge back and faced Raven.

He had a kind, gentle smile on his face that looked nothing like the grin he usually wore. His green eyes held a special warmth to them, and his face, looked so relaxed… Raven found her anger being replaced with a warm feeling inside of her, along with curiosity.

He spoke, in a tone that made her heart flutter in her chest. "Rae, he can't tell you because of what you're doing to him… but rather… what he thinks he has done to you."

She should have been mad. This emoticlone had just used the vile nickname she came to hate so much over the years. But instead, she felt… happy.

"But what do you mean? What could he possibly have in a nightmare that'd involve him doing something to me?" she said in a small voice.

The emoticlone never lost his small smile as he continued. "Raven, if I may ask, what do you think Garfield's biggest fears are?"

Raven thought about what he said to her. 'What he fears… he fears about being rejected… he fears the Beast inside him… what else does he fear though?'

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"I know that he fears he'll never be accepted by anybody, and I know he fears that his primal side will take control and make him hurt other people. But I can't think of anything else that he fears."

The emoticlone's smile seemed to drop a little. "You are right on those two points, and that is mainly what he fears… except you're missing something important in both of them."

'So he does fear those two things… but I think this emoticlone means these fears are specific for something… or someone.'

She decided to take a guess, even though she was afraid to know the answer. "Does he fear being about hurting or being rejected by Terra?"

All the emoticlones around her had different reactions. Some were facepalming themselves, some looked on the verge of tears, while others growled or experienced some other form of anger at the name. The emoticlone's smile was replaced with a small frown.

'Is she really that clueless to how Garfield feels about her?'

He tried to find the right words to say. "Terra... is in the past for Garfield, Raven. So no, it wasn't her who he feared he'd be rejected by, nor was it her who he feared his primal side being unleashed upon."

Raven frowned. "But who else could it be? Who could he possibly care or love more than Terra?"

(Author joins the emoticlones in the clearing that are facepalming themselves)

The emoticlone's smile slowly returned. 'She really doesn't know… even with being an empath.'

"That is something that I'm afraid I can't tell you. That is a question you need to find out for yourself."

Raven looked at the emoticlone skeptically, and was about to speak when Knowledge stepped forward again. "Raven, Garfield's mind is slipping even deeper into his subconscious. I'm afraid that if we don't pull him out soon, we could lose him forever to his subconsciousness mind."

"But what can I do? If he's already in his subconscious mind, I can't follow him in… much less bring him back." Her voice starting to break. She had really wanted to know who Beast Boy really loved.

"Memories." Knowledge said.

"What do you mean?" she asked confused.

"There's a line of memories attached to his subconscious mind to here. A chain, so to speak, still connected to his mind. If you were to travel along them up to his mind, you could pull him out of his coma."

Raven blinked. 'Is it possible… could I still save him from himself… but if I traveled along his past memories… would he ever forgive me for what I could discover?' Raven thought.

She looked at the white uniformed emotion again. He still had the warm, positive look on his face. And then she realized, maybe the answers she was looking for were in his memories. She made a decision.

"Wish me luck." she said to them all.

She turned around and this time knelt in front of Beast Boy on the ground. Her hands gripping the sides of his head. 'I'm going to need it.'

"Azarath… Metrion… Zinthos." She said in a small whisper.

Her body again turned into her soul self… it took one last look around… and then sank down into Beast Boy's body as it absorbed itself into his long chain of memories.

There was a collective silence. Then, one by one, the different emoticlones ran off into the jungle. Some were still in their human forms, while others changed into different colored animals. Finally, Knowledge and the white uniformed emoticlone remained.

"Knowledge, I fear that even if Raven succeeds, it won't stop him from trying to take over his mind."

Sigh "I know… we need to find him… before he has a chance to make this permanent." Knowledge replied.

Knowledge started to walk off, but then noticed the other emoticlone wasn't following. "You coming?" he asked him.

"No… I will stay here… just in case he decides to attack him while you're trying to locate him." he said, a small blush creeping up his face.

A knowing smirk came onto Knowledge's face. "Oh, so it has nothing to do with the fact that you're his emoticlone for love, and that you want to see her first this time when she comes back into his mindscape."

Love sighed, a dreamy look coming onto his face. "Her face was even more beautiful than I could imagine from his memories of her."

'How he fell in love with her, I will never know… But at least he was capable of loving someone after Terra. Even though that someone scares the crap out of me.' Knowledge thought to himself.

He morphed into an eagle, flying high up into the sky. Leaving a lovesick emotion by Garfield's mind body. He was currently thinking about a certain violet haired sorceress and how the sun made her hair shine. 'To be in love…'

Author's Notes:

Let me just say, I had a valid excuse for taking so long with this. It involves a one-shot idea I got from this story that I was working on parallel to this. Now if I'm ever going to publish it remains to be seen. If you're curious and want to read it, let me know and I'll publish it with the next chapter after this.

So Beast Boy had been stuck in a dream. Raven found him just as he was starting to go into a deep coma. Luckily, he has a rope of memories still attached from his mindscape to his actual mind. And shockingly, he had not only animals inside his mind, but emoticlones as well. A small parting gift from Trigon's demon combining with him.

So what will happen now? What parts of his past will Raven uncover? What will she learn about our favorite green changeling along the way? Will she learn about his true feelings? Will she return these feelings? Who is the mysterious enemy those emoticlones were talking about? Will love prevail? Will Raven be able to save our favorite green changeling in time? Will this author ever get out of this seemingly endless pile of Drama and Angst?

Find out... in the next few chapters!

Till Next Time

Allen