Finally, it's here! Thanks so much for all the lovely reviews for the last chapter. This chapter is a bit of a mess and I'm not very happy with it, but I wanted to get something up. So enjoy, sort of, please leave a review letting me know whether you liked it, whether you didn't, any improvements, suggestions, etc...
"This is Sam Nicholls, twenty eight, found collapsed at her home. GCS was ten at the scene, now thirteen, BP one hundred over seventy, she's slightly tachycardic with a pulse of ninety, which seems to be settling, and her resps are twenty. She had a PV bleed, which appears to have stemmed itself, and no other injuries. We've given her a litre of saline and paracetamol," the paramedic announced, wheeling Sam into resus. As they lifted Sam onto the trolley, they added, "We've pushed six units of o-neg in, which seems to have done the trick."
"Thanks guys," Zoe said as they left.
"Hi Sam. You're here early, aren't you?" Zoe joked. "Can you keep everyone out of here, and can we get FBCs and an hCG test," she muttered to Charlie, who nodded, looking at Sam, who was struggling against the straps keeping her to the bed. "How are you feeling?"
"Fine. Please, just let me go now," Sam pleaded. She stopped tugging against the restraints, her strength once again leaving her completely. She was still so weak. Her arms fell by her side, useless.
"You're not fine. The paramedics said you were bleeding. Do you know what could have caused that?"
"No."
"Well you're not going anywhere 'til we find out. If I unstrap you now, do you promise not to bolt?"
Sam rolled her eyes, but nodded. She didn't think she'd make it very far.
"Have you had any pain?"
"My stomach... Hurt. Just cramps though. I thought it was just my period,"
Zoe raised her eyebrow. "Well, we've sent bloods off, and you're stable now, so we're going to move you to cubicles. Just try and think of anything that might give us a clue as to what's caused this," Zoe said as she left resus, just as Charlie entered to take a sample of Sam's blood.
"Zoe!" Tom called, catching sight of her as he shouldered through the doors of the ED ten minutes later. Despite there being no traffic around at this time of night, the pointless traffic lights had been conspiring against him as a taxi drove him to the hospital. "Have you been treating Sam?"
"Er, yes, I have. Were you there? Do you know what happened?"
"No. I just found her and called the ambulance. What's wrong with her? Can I see her?" he asked desperately.
"You know I can't tell you that. You can't see her just yet, but we've stabilised her and we're going to move her to cubicles soon, you can see her then, but she's very tired right now," Zoe informed him. Tom thanked her and went to sit on a chair in reception. He put his elbows on his knees, and his head in his hands. He knew she would never forgive him for this, but he needed to apologise anyway. It might have taken him a while, but he realised now how much she had come to mean to him, even just over the last few months, weeks even. At least it sounded like she was going to be okay. He should have listened to earlier, when she'd said she was feeling rough. What kind of doctor was he, if he couldn't even tell when something was serious? What kind of boyfriend was he, if he neglected his girlfriend for another woman? His mind had been so mixed up with the alcohol, exhaustion, and guilt, that it was a complete mess, but he listed all the possible causes of Sam's condition in his head: infection, cervical polyps, menorrhagia, miscarriage? Miscarriage? Could it be? No. There were so many other explanations. Wouldn't she have told him if she was pregnant? Did she even know?
Tom looked up to see Zoe approaching him. He stood up automatically. "She's asleep," she said.
"Can I see her anyway?" he said, without hesitation.
"I don't think that's the best idea." His face broke. Tears appeared in the corners of his eyes.
"You don't know what I've done. I need to see her. I need to say sorry, even if she can't hear me."
"I don't care what you've done, she's a patient here now, and I don't think it's in her best interests, or yours for that matter, for you to see her. You need to go home and get some sleep - you've got work tomorrow," Zoe told him, as kindly as she could.
"I will go home, but can't I just see her while I wait for a taxi?" he begged.
Zoe sighed. She could see he wasn't going to give in. "Fine, five minutes," she said, leading him to Sam's cubicle. Once Tom had rung the taxi company, he pushed open the curtain to Sam's cubicle gently. She was lying in a ball on the bed, and he had a horrible vision of earlier that evening. She was still pallid, although some colour had returned to her skin.
"Sam, I am so sorry," he whispered, tentatively stroking her arm. "I promise, I'm here for you now, whether or not you want me, and I'm not going to leave you again. Zoe's going to make me leave soon," he said, knowing that had she been awake, he would have been kicked out a long time ago. "But I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am, and how terrible I feel." His phone buzzed, letting him know that his taxi was waiting. "I'm going now, but I'll come and see you in the morning. I love you." He hesitated, thought better of kissing her, and turned his back, pulling the curtains back to their original position, and went outside to meet his taxi.
Sam jerked awake. She had felt the horrible, rippling cramps again, consuming her abdomen, but now she was awake, they were gone. The sleep hadn't really helped; it had been more like a living nightmare, and she was still so tired. She didn't have the energy to go and find Zoe or Charlie, and anyway, she wasn't going to get out of bed in case someone else saw her - it was bad enough with Zoe, Charlie and Tom knowing. Tom. He was the last person she wanted to see right now. But she would have given anything to see him. She was so confused. She wished she wasn't so pathetic. No wonder Tom hadn't come back to her house. But then he had. She turned it over in her shattered mind. Did he deserve her temper? Perhaps not, but did he deserve to be forgiven?
All will be revealed next chapter. Do you think Sam should forgive Tom? Please review! Xx
