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W: Wishing

*Erin knows that what happened in her past is what made her who she is today, but sometimes, she wishes things had been different and she could be normal. But in Jay's eyes, normal is boring.

"When we get married one day, where do you want to go for the honeymoon?" Jay questioned. He and Erin were at dinner at a new Italian restaurant that she had been talking about all week. She had smiled so big when he told her where he was taking her for a date and it got him to thinking about all of the things Erin hadn't experienced.

He obviously knew that her childhood hadn't been the greatest and that she had been deprived of a lot of things. It was his goal to try and help her do everything she every had wanted to do.

Erin took a sip of her wine as she thought it over. "I'm not sure. I've never really been outside of Chicago unless it's for work, so there are so many places that I'd like to go."

"Name a few."

"I want to go to a beach, but I'm kind of scared. The ocean is so big, but I think it would be fun. I also want to go to Greece or Italy. I think New York would be fun if we weren't there on a case. I don't know, there are so many places. What about you?"

"Wisconsin." Jay said with a smile.

Erin rolled her eyes. "Of course. Who wouldn't want to spend their honeymoon with a barn full of cows?"

"Hey! There are no cows at my family's cabin." He threw his napkin at her. "One day I'm taking you there whether you like it or not. I know you would love it."

She raised an eyebrow. "We'll see."

"We should make a bucket list."

"Why?"

"Because there are so many things that I want to do, and there are so many things that I know you haven't done that I want to experience with you."

Erin twirled a bite of pasta around her fork. "What would you put on your bucket list?"

"Skydiving."

She laughed. "Absolutely not."

"Come on, babe. You wouldn't jump out of a plane?"

"I think our kids will need at least one parent." She looked up and saw Jay smiling at her. "What? Is there something on my face?"

"I love when you talk about our kids."

Erin just smiled and shook her head. "What else?"

"Disney World. We'll have to wait until the kids are actually old enough to enjoy it because I'm not spending thousands of dollars on a trip they're too little to remember, but I want to take them. When I was a kid, I loved Disney World."

"I wanted to go so bad when I was little. One of Bunny's friends brought me over this hand-me-down Cinderella dress when I was six and I used to wear it every day."

Jay nodded his head. "Then it's settled. We'll take our kids to Disney one day."

Erin put her fork down. "I'm sorry."

He looked at her in confusion. "For what?"

"For always bringing up my past. We were having a nice conversation and…"

"Erin, why are you apologizing? You don't ever have to apologize for talking to me about your past. You know that I like to hear about all of the little pieces who make you the person that I fell in love with."

"I just wish I was normal."

Jay shrugged. "Normal is boring. What's something on your bucket list?"

Erin smiled at how casual he had been. She had definitely fallen in love with the most perfect man in the world. "I want to build our own house. One that we design that is perfect for our family and exactly what we want. Considering our budget right now is a little low, it'll probably be a while, but one day, I would love for that to happen."

"That sounds great."

"I want to be a good mom. I don't ever want our kids to look at me the way I looked at Bunny. I want them to know how much I love them and how they're the most important thing in the world to me."

Jay grabbed her hand. "I don't think that'll be hard at all."

"I want us to have a nice wedding. It doesn't have to be big. I would be fine with just all the guys being there. I just want to marry you in front of the people we love and for us to stay married forever, when we're ready."

"We will." Jay promised. "Nice wedding, build a house, be a good mom. Anything else?"

"I want to go scuba diving."

Jay burst out laughing. "I was not expecting that."

"I also want to go to Hawaii."

"Maybe that's what we'll do for our honeymoon."

"Only if you promise me one thing."

"What's that?"

"You can't make fun of me if I do something stupid." Erin bit her lip.

"Erin Lindsay, are you scared of the ocean?"

"I've only ever seen pictures so maybe it would be different when I was actually there, but it's so big. There are so many things in there that people don't even know about. What if my arm gets bit off by a shark?"

"The chances of that are pretty slim."

"But there is still a chance. I can't shoot a gun with one arm."

Jay gave her a look. "I've seen you do it."

"Alright, I can, but I can't be a cop with one arm. You know what I mean." She took a bite of her pasta. "You would invite Will to our wedding, right?"

"Yeah."

"What about your dad?" she watched him carefully for his reaction. They didn't ever talk about Jay's father. Erin knew that Jay and Will didn't get along with him, but that was pretty much it.

Jay ran a hand over his face. "I honestly don't know. It's been years since I've talked to him. I don't know if he would ever pick up the phone if I called him. Would you want me to invite him?"

"I want you to do whatever makes you comfortable. If you want him there, then I'll go get him myself. If you don't, then we won't call him. Whatever you want, Jay."

"I'll have to think about that. I've thought about it before, but I'm not sure."

Erin decided it was time for a subject change. "Who would you have as your best man?"

"Mouse. What about you? Who would be your maid of honor?"

She thought it over. "I don't know. I don't really have any close girlfriends."

Jay grinned. "Maybe you could talk Antonio into doing it."

"That would actually be perfect." She laughed. "Maybe Burgess? She's the only friend I have that's a girl."

"Or Platt."

"If you don't stop talking, I will have Platt as my maid of honor and you will be the one who is miserable." Erin smiled. "I'll have Hank walk me down the aisle, and Daniel can be our ring bearer. I don't know about a flower girl. We don't know anyone with a little girl."

"Then we won't have a flower girl." Jay said. "We're not exactly traditional people anyway, it's not like we have to have all of the traditional things."

"I guess you're right."

"Unless you want to hurry up and pop out a little girl."

Erin looked at him incredulously. "I'm onto you, Halstead. Trying to secretly get me pregnant."

"Who, me? Never." He took a drink of his wine with a smile. "Trust me. It won't be a secret when I'm trying to get you pregnant."

Erin could feel her cheeks getting red. She turned her attention to her pasta, but the smile didn't leave her face. There was nothing she loved more than talking about her future with the man she was in love with.

"Are you ready for your check? The waiter questioned.

"Yes, please." Jay responded. He looked at her once the woman had walked away. "I liked this place. It was a good choice."

"The food was amazing." Erin agreed. The waiter returned and Jay gave him his card. "Thank you."

"Anything for you, baby." He looked at her from across the table. "Is there anything else you want to add to your bucket list?"

"Not that I can think of. All I want right now is to go home with you."

Jay smiled. "I can definitely make that happen."

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