You guys are truly amazing, I'm happy about every review and follow and favorite. It's great to see how many of you opened my story in so little time. So here it is, the new chapter and a lot of drama.
The next morning she woke up after a very bad sleep: half of the night she was awake and imagined scenarios in her head about how their date would turn out. The scenarios could only fit into a really wide range, from the one where Sheldon and she are happily married in a big house near to the sea with children and a pet monkey, through the ones where she is a successfull scientist who raises her child alone, and somehow she also becomes beutiful and everyone wants her and Sheldon spends his life in deep regret about leaving her, to the ones where she dies alone and her cats eat her face before anyone will notice her missing.
She tried to clear her head so she took a long shower before getting ready. She drived carefully on her way to Los Robles but the trip seemed so short and the moment quickly came when Sheldon sat in her car next to her. As they agreed on this before he greeted her with a kiss on her cheek. She loved him showing his affections but now she didn't feel the sparks she always did before. She felt completely numb.
As she drove an awkward silence fell on the car. At least Amy felt that it was awkward, so she tried to initiate a conversation. Poorly she only had one thing on her mind.
" So what do you think about Howard and Bernadette having a baby? " she asked but she regretted it the second she said it.
" Well, it was no big surprise for me. Howard kind of told us they were already trying. "
" And you didn't tell? "
" Howard asked us not too. He bought me a shut my mouth gift. You know, the little BB-8 droid I came home with a month ago. He told me to play with it whenever I feel the urge to gossip about him. It helped a lot. "
"This makes sense. " she said, but actually she thought: Oh my God, I'm having a baby from a man who plays with toys.
" So if we are about to gossip, what are you thinking about Howard and Bernadette conceiving? " he asked her.
" Well... " she didn't know how to answer. Bernadette's pregnancy made her feel worthless and miserable. But that was not the answer Sheldon was ready to hear yet. What would she feel if she weren't pregnant?What would she think. "I think it's in time, biologically speaking, I mean they are people in their thirties. " seh answered finally.
" Yes. But we are also people in our thirties. " he said.
" We are. " she agreed.
" Well we should think about the fact that our reproductive organs are aging. " he stated.
" Do you mean by that especially mine, doesn't you? "Amy asked sarcastically.
" Yes, but when the last time I pointed that out, we ended up breaking up so I chose to rephrase it gently"
" Thank you. So what do you suggest? We should make a baby as well? " she was filled with bitter irony.
" Don't be ridiculous. Of course not. My mother would get a heart attack if I had a child out of wedlock. Or as they would referre to it in Game of Thrones, a bastard"
Amy put on the breaks immediately.
" What is it Amy? I can't see any traffic here to make you break. Are you alright? "
" You are an ass, Sheldon. " she said.
" Amy, you never use coarse language. What's your problem? Is my comment on your reproductive organs causing me trouble all over again? "
" Well, it cerainly has to do something with my reproductive organs. " she murmured.
" Fine. I'll drop the subject. "
So the rest of the road was peaceful, they talked about work and they played one of Sheldon's road game. Amy tried to act normal but it was hard. When they arrived she found she shouldn't have to wait for the right moment just tell him, but she still couldn't. As always the aquarium was full of children. Amy was greatly disturbed by their presence. Also she was disturbed by the smell of fish everywhere which she didn't even felt at Thanksgiving. Sheldon didn't notice it, he just held her hand and talked about fun facts about fish. He seemed happy about being together with her and at any other occasion she would felt herself in heaven.
"So would you want to go for a walk outside? " she asked.
" Why not? " he said.
They walked out silently right to the beach. Sheldon didn't like the idea walking on the sand so he grinned but followed her anyway. Amy was looking at the sea. It was a big and endless looking force. She felt small.
" So Amy, what is wrong? You're acting quite unusual"
" Nothing. " she answered automatically.
" Aren't you mad at me? "
" No. " she answered and tried to smile at him. " But there is something I have to tell you."
" What is it? "
" Well, it's kind of a big thing. "
" You can tell me anything. "
" Sheldon, I don't know how to tell you this. It's so hard...We... I... "
" Are you breaking up with me again? " he asked. He looked worried.
" No. Not at all. I... Sheldon... "
" What is it, Amy? Are you dying? Am I dying? Did they cancel the Flash? " he started guessing.
" No. Listen to me! "
" I would if you said anything meaningful but you're just stuttering. "
" Sheldon, I'm pregnant! " she shouted at him. Fortunately no one was near enough to them to hear her.
" What? " he asked.
" I'm pregnant. " she repeated.
" But you said you were on the pill! "
" I am. Do you remember the night when I went out with Bernadette? That night I had a mild food poisoning. I think I vomited out the pill before it worked off. I never told you, because I was afraid you would cancel date night if you suspected I could be sick. And I didn't even know then that you were about to sleep with me. Then I forgot it. Then on my birthday I was super excited and it never came to my mind again. " she said.
" You should have told me. I wouldn't forget it. "
" I know. " her eyes filled with tears.
" So... are you sure? "
" Yes. I took two different tests and went to my gynecologist. "
Sheldon nodded and then just remained silent. Amy started to cry but his boyfriend was just standing there looking to the sea not saying a word. After a several minutes Amy broke the silence. She never felt this nervous her whole life.
" Sheldon, please, say anything. I know this is a lot to take. "
Sheldon shook his head.
" Did you do all this on puprose? " he asked finally.
" What?"
" Did you do all this on purpose?" he repeated his question.
Amy opened her mouth then closed it. This was worse then the wors scenario she could imagine. This was offensive.
" Are you asking me whether I lied to you and got pregnant intentionally? Are you crazy? "
" I'm not crazy, my mother had me tested. " he answered quietly.
" Well you accused me of tricking you into this situation! "
" I'm sorry, Amy. I shouldn't have. It's just so unlikely. It is just too much. "
Her worst fears started to became real as she wanted to make eye-contact with her boyfriend and he avoided it.
" Sheldon, please. Do you believe me that I didn't get pregnant on purpose? "
" I do believe you. But it's so... Amy, I don't know what to say."
" Say how you feel! Say what you're thinking! Say anything just please talk to me! " she said but she was not curious about his feelings nor his thoughts. She just wanted to hear that everything will be all right and he still loves her. She also wanted him to hug her. But these would sound such pathethic and needy things to ask for.
" But Amy, I can't... I can' be a father. I can't even take care of myself, I need my roomate to drive me everywhere and I need him to sleep in my apartment with his wife because I fear of the dark. "
" But you are really improving. You already changed a lot. "
" Amy, I can't deal with this. I just can't. Not now. "
" This is also scary for me. " said Amy crying. " Please, Sheldon, get yourself together!"
" I'm sorry. I really am. But I think I'll need some time to think. "
" So that's what are you planning to do? Run away? " she asked laughing sarcastically with tears on her face.
" I don't know. But yes, I feel like I want to run away right now. "
" Then do it! Leave me here! Walk away! Guess what, I want to run away too. I just can't since this baby is growing inside me!"
" Amy please, try to understand. I... I'm not the kind of man who handles situations like this well. I have a chaos in my head. I just need a little time. "
" So what? Are you really leaving me here? "
" Amy... " he said looking at her painfully. He tried to put his hand on her shoulder but Amy pulled herself away from him.
" Sheldon, please, tell me what is going on in your mind. I can deal with that. We can deal with that. "
" I can't. It's too much. I'm sorry Amy. I just can't take this right now. I don't know. I have a lot of thinking to do. I'll be back, I promise. "
" After forty-five days again?" she asked histerically.
" I love you. Try not to forget that. " he said. Amy didn't answer, but was looking at the sea again crying instead. As she turned around minutes later Sheldon was nowhere anymore.
Five minutes later a phone started to rang in Pasadena.
" Hi! What's up buddy? "
" Leonard, I left Amy on the beach in Santa Monica near to the aquarium. You have to pick her up. "
" Sheldon, what happened? "
" I can't tell you. She probably will. But be kind to her, even if she won't. And please go and find her anyway. Take Penny with you. She is devastated. She really needs someone. "
" Sheldon? What did you do? "
" You have all the right to judge me. "
" Sheldon, did you just leave her there? How could you do that? You should be happy! "
" Wait! You knew?! "
" Yes. She told me on Thursday. She came over to tell you but she was too afraid to do it. She thought you won't be able to handle it. Apparently she was right. "
" She was. Please promise you'll pick her up. She really shouldn't be alone right now. "
" Of course she shouldn't, but you left her alone! You can't do this to her! GO BACK! "
" I'm sorry Leonard, but I can't. As I said earlier you can judge me. Just promise to pick her up."
" I promise, but you really..."
" Now I'm hanging up. " Sheldon cut in. " Maybe I'll be out of town for a few days. Anyway please pick her up. "
" Sheldon I've been your roomate for over a decade, I put up with your schedules, your rules, your agreements, your weird freakouts about buses, meals, haircuts and basically everything. But I never ever wanted to punch you this much in the face. " Leonard said but Sheldon already hung up.
I'm sorry guys, I feel also a little bit of ashamed because of Sheldon's behaviour, but he will be back, I promise and this is not the end at all. Next chapter is already ready by the way, so I'll update fast.