Guys, I'm really flattered by the reviews and all the love I get here. I could have never guessed you'll like the story this much. So here it is, our forth chapter, with some Penny backstory and Sheldon's POV. I hope you enjoy.

" Honey, what happened? Was this Sheldon? You sounded really angry " Penny asked Leonard after she heard his phone call. She was about to polish her toenails on her own couch while Leonard was reading something on his Ipad before he got up to answer his phone.

" We are leaving. Right now. Come with me!"

" What is it? " she asked again.

" Amy is pregnant. She told Sheldon today and Sheldon left her alone in Santa Monica. "

" WHAT? " Penny dropped the nail polish and it got spilled on the couch but she didn' care. She was unable to close her mouth.

" Amy is pregnant and Sheldon is the biggest coward in the world. We have to go find her. She can't be alone right now. "

" But how could she got pregnant? " she asked as she put on her shoes.

" Well, you know, the birds and the bees... " he tried to be playful.

" I mean didn't they use protection? "

" I don't know the details. She told me they did but something went wrong with it. " Leonard explained.

" She? Wasn't it Sheldon who called? " she asked as Leonard locked the door.

" It was. Amy told me earlier she was pregnant. " he said as they walked down the stairs.

" She told you? Why? " Penny started to feel she doesn't understand anything at all.

" Because I ran into her on Thursday evening here in the stairway. She was about to tell Sheldon but she was so afraid. I gave her a ride home and we talked a little. I told her to tell you but she wanted to tell Sheldon first. "

" Oh my God. And did Sheldon just leave her? "

" Yes, he did. " Leonard admitted feeling ashamed of what his friend just did.

" I'll kill him. " Penny said with great anger.

" I'll help you. " Leonard promised.

" I hope so. Oh my God. Yesterday could have been rough for Amy. "

Lonard nodded as they were about to leave the Los Robles.

They didn't find Amy on the beach but they found her in the parking lot in her car crying. Penny opened the door and sat right next to her and hugged her really tightly. For minutes they were just sitting there as Amy cried.

" I'm so sorry, sweetie. But he'll come back. It will be all right. " said Penny stroking Amy's head.

Amy started to smile to through her tears.

" I always knew you were the kind of man I dreamed of. "

Penny also smiled.

" How did you get here? " Amy finally asked after blowing her nose.

" Sheldon called Leonard to pick you up and he asked me to come too. "

Amy nodded.

" But why didn't you call me? " Penny asked with a little reproach in her tone.

" I wanted to but I was just too ashamed and sad. I felt like I can't think straight. "

" It's understandable. But don't worry I'll get you home. Can I let Leonard in? "

" Of course. " Amy nodded. She still felt this was her worst day ever, but Penny's presence calmed her a little bit.

" Hi Amy. I'm sorry Sheldon is being a jerk. I think I'll go look for him. " Leonard said.

" You really don't have to. "

" I want to. And if I find him I'll slap some sense into him, I promise. " he seemed determined.

" Good luck with that. " said Amy.

When Penny and Amy arriced into Amy's apartment, Penny sent Amy to take a shower, meanwhile she made her a tea and ordered italian food. After that Penny couldn't help herself but ask all the questions she was curious about.

Amy told her how she realised she was pregnant and the last two days which she spent being afraid of Sheldon's reaction. As she reached the point in her story where she told Sheldon she started to cry again.

" I'm sorry. This is just so hard. " she explained herself.

" I know. So what did he say? "

" He said it is too much for him and he needed time to think. He also said he loved me and I shouldn't forget that. "

" Oh my God, I'm so gonna kick him in the balls, that is the worst anyone could ever say in a situation like this. Or the second worst. " She added the last sentence whispering.

" Penny, I don't know what to do. ."

" You don't have to do anything. I think he'll come back as soon as he finally notices what a jerk he's been to you. "

" Probably he will, but I still can't believe he just did that to me. How can I trust him after that? I'm scared Penny, and I told him I'm scared. I wanted support not being left alone. "

" Amy, you're tough. You'll be okay, I know. "

" No, I'm not. Please don't tell anyone but I already thought about getting an abortion. " said Amy with teardrops in her eyes.

" Really? I mean I assumed you wanted to keep it anyway. " she sounded surprised.

" Well I don't know. I always wanted to have children. And I'm not getting any younger. But I think I would make a really bad mother. And Sheldon... Maybe it were for the best. "

" I'm not judging. I think it's all up to you. And I'll support you whatever decision you make. "

" Really? " she said relieved.

" Yes. I know this is extremely hard. "

" It is. " Amy admitted. Penny was an amazing best friend. All the effort she put into this relationship was more than worth it.

Penny took a deep a breath.

" I had an abortion. " she told quietly.

" What? When? " Amy was so sad she never thought that she could feel any other emotion, but she apparently was still able.

"I was nineteen. Back in Omaha. We were tohether just once, and I was drunk of course. We did it in a bedroom full of jackets at a party. He ripped the condom putting it up. He didn't have an other. He said that's a risk we can take. I got pregnant. When I tried to tell him he first pretended that he doesn't even racognize me. Than he said awful things, that I'm stupid and easy, and how could he be sure that he is the father since I sleep with basically anyone, as I slept with him. "

" Oh, Penny, I didn't know. I'm so sorry. "

" Well, it was a long time ago. And I wasn't ready to become a mother. My parents were furious when I told them, so we decided this was the best option. After the surgery I moved to California. I couldn't stay there. And I thought if I wasted an other life I should accomplish something big in mine to make all this meaningful and worth, so that was the first time I took acting seriously not just as a childhood dream. "

" Oh. " Amy didn't know what to say. Penny's story was a shock for her but it made her understand her friend in a deeper way. She thought that she was in a bad situation now, but she is not nineteen anymore, and Sheldon was acting like an ass, but not even close to this man. Penny, who she was always jealous of, seemed to have a harder history than anything she had to face until now.

" I think that's why it's so hard to let it go. I really enjoy my work in sales but now everything seems so ordinary. " Penny admitted.

" Did you regret it? " Amy asked finally thinking about herself again.

" No. I was an out of control teenager then. It was the right decision. But sometimes I still wonder what my life wold be... If I had an eleven year old child in Omaha.

" Well, it seems like you're the tough one. But we all knew that already. " Amy said.

" Yeah, I am. But I'm also the secretive one. I never told Leonard. "

" Why not? " she asked. Based on her experiences of the past two days Leonard was really empathic and accepting.

"When I met him and when we started dating he just seemed too... innocent to hear a story like this. And after we've known each other for more than six years I thought it would make him mad that I kept it a secret. " she explained.

" I won't tell him. But I think you should. He is a great guy and you're lucky to have him. "

" I know. "

...

After calling Leonard he called himself a cab and went to the airport. He wanted to get away as far as possible so he bought himself a ticket to a plane departing in one and a half hour to Salt Laky City. He thought it would be as good as anything else would. He didn't plan further, he thought abot getting a room in one of the hotels there. As he sat there with no bags and no future plans he couldn't resist but checked his phone. There were three missed calls, all of them from Leonard. He was worried, two hours have passe since she left Amy. What if Leonard did not find her and that's why he called? Otherwise he didn't want to talk to Leonard right now but he had to find that out. His head was basically burning from all the thought and memories, like someone just pushed a button when Amy announced her pregnancy and everything became blurry and overwhelming but beyond all, he still felt concerned about Amy.

" Leonard? Why did you call three times? " he asked as soon as he picked up.

" Where are you? " Leonard seemed really angry.

" That doesn't matter. Did you find Amy? " he asked.

" First you tell me, where are you? " Leonard inquired.

" Did you find Amy?" he asked again.

" Where are you? " Leonard insisted.

" I'm at the Municial Airport, but did you find Amy? "

" I did. She is with Penny. And I'm going there. "

Sheldon sighed with relief. " My flight is off soon, so you won't find me here. Is she all right? "

" Physically no harm happened to her. Oherwise she is constantly crying, do you consider that as being all right? " said Leonard bitterly.

Sheldon gulped. " No. "

" Where are you going? " Leonard asked.

" I can't tell you. I'll be back. I need some alone time."

" I'll call your mother if you don't come back now.! " Leonard tried to threated him.

" You can call whomever you want. I need some time alone. Goodbye Leonard. "

Sheldon hung up. He wanted to organise his thoughts but there were too many of them. And the feelings... Feelings were always tricky to him. First of all he felt worried about Amy that was one thing he recognised. And there was something else, something worse that came with that thought. Is he really going to be a father? What were the odds? Amy is a 32 year old woman, he is a 34 year old man. Based on statistics the chances of them conceiving for the first try were about 3 per cent. They engaged in coitus presumably before her ovulation which splits that chance in half. So one point five percent it is or would be if they didn't use protection at all. But they did, just not correctly. The pills are a great anti-concieving method and they are 99 percent sure, and missing one makes it less by only 5 per cent, but the math is not made with the number of coituses but the number of woman using them. So if we try to re-calculate that and derive than their 1.5 per cent chance with it here they go, they had 0.002, only one in two thousand chance to get pregnant. But they still did. Doing the maths was fun but made him angry.

If he and Amy had coitus under the exact same circusmtances in two thousand paralell universes, Amy is only pregnant in this one.

Amy... He finally recognised the guilt he was feeling. He left her alone. He had to leave her. He can't think straight not even right now, he would have surely said or done something even worse to her.

And their careers... She was in a serious project, he changed his field not so lately... What will happen to all that? Can he ever hope for a Nobel ever again if he never got properly rested and had to go home as soon as possible? What will happen to Amy? She was not the stay-at-home-mommy type at all. Will she hate her? Does she hate her now for running away?

First of all does she want to keep the child at all? He didn't even ask. The chaos was too much.

If they keep the child he could teach him to read comic books and they could watch science fiction together. That sure would be fun. But what if it's a she? He was no expert about girls.

Than there were the memories... Her Meemaw telling him she is pleasured to give him her ring, as she wants to meet his great-grandchildren. Sheldon shook his head then and told her: Amy and he didn't plan to have kids yet and maybe he is not a great parent material at all. Her Meemaw went against him smiling. But now here he is: a mess. Her Meemaw always thought so highly about him and he never deserved it.

A kid... He didn't know what it would be like to have one. First of all she and Amy should move in together. Well, that was a huge step. He wanted to live with Amy but he didn't know how she will be able to accept him and his quirks. He was not easy to live with and he was really grateful for Leonard, but he was different. In front of Amy he was ashamed about himself and never wanted to drive her crazy. She was already fed up with him half a year ago and they were not even close to living together. What if Amy gets fed up again and leaves him for ever? What if he will be unable to make compromises and would feel miserable all the time? There he was freaking out about moving in together... How could he not freak out having a baby?

A baby makes everything just so... real. It will be an other human being and it's wellbeing will be his responsibility. Well, his tamagotchi was still alive, but he feared a real child is more complicated. It has been pointed out to him that he often acts cold-hearted. If his tamagotchi were really alive wouldn't he complain about not being loved enough? Will his child complain?

He was impressed by the methods of Beverly Hofstadter, but are those methods really good? Will his child feel as miserable about him as Leonard does about his mother? Will they have the same, distant relationship?

He felt like everything was ruined. He was finally back with Amy, and he have never felt this happy his whole life. He finally found an amazing field which made work fascinating and he was planning to propose.

What if Amy thinks the same? What if she wants an abortion? Amy can be quite rational too. That's one of those things he adored so much about her.

The last time they spoke about children was five years ago. That time they wanted to have an intellectually superior, benign overlord only as friends. But for now, does he really wanted to have an intellectually superior, benign overlord? What if it turns out to be just a normal kid? How would that make him feel? And back then, they wanted to do it with fertility experts in a lab with petri dishes. Now they did it very different. What change does the circumstances of concieving make?

Will Amy ever forgive her running away? As he arrived into Salt Lake Ctiy he felt the urge to get on a bus and go back to Glendale to tell her... What? That he doesn't know whether he wants a child or not because he fears that it would make him miserable and also he would make a bad father and he has serious psychological issues he tried to ignore his entire life? He didn't thought this would be a great idea. He wanted to make up his mind first of all.

The morning when he left home was only 6 hours ago but it felt like it happened eons ago. Freaking Albert was so right about relativity.

All this was so unfair, because he didn't do anything in his whole life but stay in his spot, stay the same, waiting the world to adapt to him and his schedules, his phobias. But now he was moving. It was slow and it were baby-steps (oh the irony) but he was changing. He was living in peace within his own little world for years and now he was trying and it seemed like it was not enough.

So please leave a review if you like or even if you don't. I wanted to write Sheldon not entirely selfish but not entirely a romantic. Next chapter is in the making and it will have some kind of Shamy interaction again :)