AN: Just a bit of Kurt's thoughts during the episode "Grilled Cheesus".
Staring at his still form, I feel my world come crashing down around me. Losing mom was hard but as my Dad had taking my hand, I knew I was going to be okay - I had him. We had each other and that would be enough. Dad would make sure it would be enough.
And now I stood here in this sterile environment all alone, the strongest man I know lying still in the hospital bed. Machines echo their steady beep telling me that's it's not over yet. That this living hell that began when Mr. Schuester had pulled me out of class hadn't ended. I thought of everyone's thoughts and prayers. Recalled how I had been pushing them all away. Thought of Finn's words about my Dad being the closest thing he'd come to having a father. He had tried then to rest his hand on my shoulder and I had shrugged him off.
What I wouldn't give for that comforting gesture right now.