So thank you for your support again and again and again. :) I feel like I can't stop writing this story.
" Sheldon... " Amy had tears in her eyes. Sheldon really didn't deserve her forgiveness but he maybe deserved the truth. " Sheldon, I have to tell you something... Again. "
" What is it Amy? Is everything all right? " Sheldon was worried. What could have happened to his poor woman again?
" Yes. Well, before I tell you, you have to promise not to run away again. "
" I promise. " Sheldon said quickly. He felt so much regret running away, he would be willing to make a vow not to do that ever again.
" Sheldon, please don't be upset, because I haven't told you but I didn't do it. "
" What didn't you do? "
" I didn't get an abortion. I changed my mind. I canceled my appointment. So basically I'm still pregnant. "
Sheldon took a deep breath. Was there still hope? His baby was still alive? His stomach flipped. He didn't know what to say. He wanted not just to hug Amy but lift her up then kiss her everywhere. But he still feared what her reactions would be to an emotional outburst after what he had done.
" Sheldon, will you finally tell me your opinion about us having a child? " she asked.
" Of course. Amy, I'm happy. I'm really happy and relieved. I want that baby. I... "
" Are you really happy or are you just trying to impress me? "
" I am truly happy, Amy, but I would lie if I said it has nothing to do with you. I'm happy because when I learned about your plans to abort the baby, I felt there was no more hope for me and defintely none for us. I knew that after that, you would always hate me, because you had to make this decision party bacause I acted like a coward, and I would always make you remember that, so basically you would never want to see me again. But I'm also happy because of the baby too. I think I'll like little Cooper. Really much. "
" You do realise that I don't want to go back to you, don't you? "
" Why not, Amy? Don't you love me anymore? " he asked. He thought he knew the answer but after all how could he be sure.
" That's not a fair question. You know the answer. " Amy said looking at the floor.
" I know I made a mistake. A big one. But for the child's sake...? " he was trying.
" You stop this right now. You won't blackmail me into anything 'for the child's sake'." she stated.
" Fine. Then let me rephrase it. I love you and you love me. I think it will be very difficult for us to be just parents together. " he said.
" That's a good point, I already thought about it as well. I don't know the answer to that. "
" What if the only possible solution is to get back together? " Sheldon asked.
" What if the other possible solution is that I move back to Boston to work in Harvard with our child and you'll only see him or her twice a year and you can do nothing about it? " she asked provocatively.
" That's not a solution. That's the avoidance of the problem, but I'd still move after you. "
" Sheldon... What if I told you I'm fine with it and let's go back together? Are you ready to live with me, to be with me like, you know, for real? Like normal couples do. "
" Wait. " he told and he started to delve in his pocket. Than he finally found the ring. He kneeled down as he opened the little box and said: " Amy Farrah Fowler, will you marry me? "
Amy seemed to be in complete shock.
" What is it? Why do you have a ring in your pocket? "
" I wanted to ask you to marry me a several times before. They all ended up catastrophic. The first time was on our fifth anniversary, when you walked out on me then asked for a break. The second time was when you were on a date with an other men and I saw you kiss him, so I didn't do anything. The third time was a week ago when I came back from Texas to tell you that I want you and I want this baby. "
Amy shook her head a several times.
" So all this time... I was feeling insecure whether you still care about me, I was feeling lonely and unwanted... I was feeling you'll never get ready for the things I desired... And you had an engagement ring in your freaking pocket? " she asked with anger.
" Well, I kept it in a safe at my apartment for a while, but basically yes. "
" I want to punch you in the face. But I also want to kiss you. " she admitted finally.
" You can do both, as long as you keep that order. "
Amy shook her head again and insted of doing any of those things he simply hugged Sheldon. Sheldon felt like he was the luckiest man alive after all as he put his hand on Amys shoulder and back, immediately caressing her. Amy's head was snuggled up to his chest and as he looked down on her he gave her a gentle kiss on her forehead. He was a little surprised to see that Amy was crying.
" What's wrong, Amy? "
" It's just too much. I missed you. I was so lonely. And now here you are and I can't be mad at you anymore because I'm weak and needy. "
" That's not true. " he said and tried to lift her face by holding her chin. He looked into her eyes with a look of an asking for permission. She slightly nodded, but Sheldon didn't need more, he finally kissed him on the lips. It was a really slow kiss which started out careful basically giving small pecks on Amy's lips then he really gave in and opened his mouth to let the kiss deeper. Amy kissed him back, which made him hold her even tighter.
As they stopped he smiled at her before asking . " So what's your answer? "
" To what question? "
" To will you be my wife? "
" I really don't want to be a killjoy here, but my answer is no. "
" Why? " he asked. Now he was really puzzled.
" Because I always wanted a dreamy proposal somewhere romantic, then a huge princess themed wedding. I know you'd hate both. And I never wanted to get asked on my own couch on a day I almost had an abortion, just because I'm knocked up. And I hope you were listening to me when I told you, you won't be able to blackmail me into anything with the 'just for the child's sake' kind of reasoning. "
" Well. I think we reached the point where the word counter-proposal really makes sense. " he smiled witty. Amy laughed. " So counter-proposal: you accept my ring, move in with me, then we can have a wedding when the baby is born. And we choose the wedding theme from a list by common assent. I'll warn you, I'll have so many rational reasons for the Star Wars theme. First of them will be that our child was being concieved the night of the premiere.
Amy sighed.
" Counter-proposal: I move in with you after you got that elevator repaired and Leonard moved out completely. You propose to me on a different day in the following three months, and you'll make it as romantic as you can. Then we will have a wedding after the baby is born. Theme list is okay, but no sci-fi, fantasy and superhero themes are allowed from TV shows, books, movies, comic books or games. And you can't say a word in Klingon. "
" JIlajneS. QaparHa'qu'. "
" Sheldon! "
" You told me I can't say a word in Klingon at the wedding. We are not at the wedding. And I just told you I'll accept your proposal about accepting my proposal later. I also told you I loved you. "
" Good to know. " she said reproachfully but she was still smiling. Sheldon's hand was still on her side gently stroking her. " So what happened to your revulsion against constant physical contact? "
" Amy, you are with my child. You have my genes in you. I don't feel anything bad about touching you. "
" So when our baby is born, you'll hate touching me again. "
" No. I actually never hated touching you. It just made me uncomfortable since I never knew what will that make me do. Or make me want to do. "
" So, if we are about to make big steps in our relationship, do you want to spend the night here? " she asked.
" Sure I want. " he answered.
" But you don't have your pijamas with you or your dressing case. "
" What would it make you feel, if I told you that I kind of hid some packages in your apartment after the night we spent in our fort and realised I wanted to be as prepared as you? "
" It makes me feel that we are both sick people and we may have made a big mistake when we thought we could be parents. But also I still find it romantic in a non-usual and let's say it out: creepy way."
After that they went to the bathroom separately and changed to their sleepwears. When Sheldon went to the bedroom she found Amy already under the covers with a wondering expression. He layed next to her.
" What are you wondering about? "
" That how did I end up with you again? " she asked.
" You love me. " he stated smiling.
" I figured out this much from myself already... Sheldon, I didn't forget what you did. And I won't forget it for a long time. " she was being serious.
" I won't forget it either. I have eidetic memory. And also if I could forget it, I wouldn't. I want to remember it, not to do that ever again. "
" That was a perfect answer. " she said.
" Good, because I have a question too. If you already canceled your appointment why was Penny still worried about you in the afternoon? " he inquired.
" I didn't tell her either. She was... supporting me so much, I thought it's weird that I changed my mind so quickly. " she answered.
" I see. Amy, what made you change your mind? "
" I... " Amy was blushing. " I started talking to it. To the baby. And I think I got attached to it. "
Sheldon felt surprised. Then he was wondering what would be the best thing to tell his child.
" Will you show it to me? " he asked.
Amy looked a little embarrassed.
" Please. "
Then she grabbed his hand and put it on her belly. They shared look.
" So what should I say? " Sheldon asked. " What do you usually say? "
" Well I just speak about my day. And about the future. And about the possible state of it's nervous system's development. "
" I don't know if I'm okay with that. You kind of started raising a biologist... But will you show me? "
" Fine. " Amy said. She still had her hand in the top of Sheldon's. She started speaking.
" So hello there. As you may feel, I'm back together with your father, so no single parent thing for you. I hope you're as happy as I am. I think you're heart is already beting now. Maybe we could go and sneak in to some human research lab so I could actually hear it. That would be fun, don't you think? I hope you're okay, little monkey, now your father wants to speak to you. "
" Can I tell you something first? " Sheldon asked.
" Sure. "
" Well, first, you are going to be an amazing mother. Second, I would like to be part of any sneaking in research laboratories type of adventure. And third: no one calls the heir of dr. Sheldon Cooper little monkey. No one. Not even you. "
" Well, I like monkeys. " she said.
" And I like trains, and still I don't want to call our baby Electro Motive Diesel SD70. Or thinking about it, maybe I do. "
" No way! " Amy disagreed immediately.
" Okay. What if we find a nickname together? "
" Any ideas? " she asked.
Sheldon was thinking then the idea struck him.
" What if I gave our baby my nickname? " he asked looking excited.
" If you mean Smelly Shelly, then I don't approve. "
" No. I meant Moonpie. I don't think Meemaw will ever call me Moonpie again anyway. We got into a huge fight. And I think I am maybe too old to be called Moonpie. So, what's your opinion? "
" Moonpie is great. " she smiled.
" So hi, little Moonpie. " Sheldon said but looked back at Amy's face for future reinforcement. She smiled. " So, little Moonpie, it's weird to say that name out loud, since it used to be mine. But I'll give it to you gladly. I'll try to be a good father to you, I promise. I'll read to you all my fascinating work in theoretical physics. You'll sure find them interesting after hearing so much about biology. "
" Sheldon! I don't want our child to be in a loyalty conflict, at least not before being born."
" Fine. So you'll enjoy my work as much as your mother's. You know how lucky you are being concieved on the night of the Force Awakens premiere? Well as soon as you'll be able to watch a movie, you will, I promise. "
Sheldon looked back at Amy who was still smiling. She gave him a gentle kiss on his cheek.
" I maybe should call Penny after all. " she said.
" And I have to call Meemaw. Will you lend me your phone? "
" What happened to yours? "
" I threw it out of the window. " he admitted.
" You're crazy. " she giggled.
" I'm not. My mother... "
" Yes, yes, i know, she had you tested. " she finished.
Sheldon kissed her.
" Maybe tomorrow we'll call them. " he said and kissed Amy again.
So we have our Shamy back together. To tell you the truth I wanted to wait with that another chapter, but I couldn't resist writing them together.
I also have to tell you, that I decided not to go M rated for next chapter, because this story is not like that. But i may write a one-shot of what happened after this scene :)
Any thoughts on my kind of Shamy-chemistry? I think it turned out quite well, at least I enjoy it :) Your reviews are always welcome.