AN: Inspired by lyrics from "It sucks To Be Me" by Avenue Q. Just a little of Kurt's thoughts during the Warbler meeting in "Silly Love Songs".
"The guy I like is an assistant manager there."*
And with that statement I felt myself deflate like a balloon. Here I was dreaming that Blaine was talking about me and apparently my latest crush had his eye on someone else. I felt so humiliated! Here I had thought Blaine liked me, that this time I had a crush on someone who would return those feelings. Looking at Blaine's happy face, I realized I was wrong.
What was wrong with me? My looks might not be page-turner quality but I wasn't ugly. I was a good student and good at thinking on my feet most of the time. My style, though perhaps over the heads of most of the people living in Ohio, was quite fashionable. I could sing just as well as anyone else in the Warblers, or New Directions. And I cared about people in general. Could anyone really blame me for not caring about people who treated me like some abomination of nature because of my sexual orientation?
Apparently none of that mattered though, because once again someone else had won the guy.
Suddenly all I wanted was for this meeting to be over with and able to escape to Mercedes or Rachel's house. At least those two understood me.
*Dialogue from "Silly Love Songs"