*Spoilers for "First Time"
AN: inspired by lyrics from "Can't Stop, Got A Date With Hate" by Lostprophets. So we get to see Kurt watch Blaine's performance and Blaine compliments Kurt's performance but I thought I would do a little of Blaine's thought process during the West-Side Story performance.
I stood in the wings watching his Kurt's scene. I knew not getting the lead had disappointed him but he had clearly gotten past that and threw himself into the role of Sgt. Krupke. A quick glance at the audience told me that they were enjoying his efforts. It was one of the things I loved about Kurt - he gave everything to anything that he did.
Which meant of course he put everything into our relationship, which meant that if things didn't go well he would be hurt. I could see now, with a little distance and a clear head, how much me talking to Sebastian bothered him. That Sebastian's interest in me was making Kurt jealous though I couldn't understand why. Kurt was the only one I loved. Just because I talked to other guys didn't mean I cared for them the way I cared for Kurt.
I knew I had to make him see that. Apologize for my actions last night. I just wasn't sure how. Right now I would settle for watching him on stage, something I knew I would never get tired of. Later tonight I would think about how to make things right again.