AN: Inspired by lyrics from "Maybe" by The Clarks. The Kurt/Burt scene in the garage at the end of "Wheels" chokes me up every time. This is my attempt to get into Kurt's head during that.

I walked slowly toward the garage, dreading what I had to do. After what my Dad did to give me the chance to audition I know he's going to be disappointed in me throwing the audition. Of walking away from the solo that I wanted. My only hope was that I could make him understand my reasons.

Finally reaching the garage I walk in. Dad immediately looks up from the car he's working on and asks how the audition went.

"They gave the part to Rachel,"* I tell him, hoping that I can leave it at that. Hoping that he'll give me some parental line about how we can't win everything and there is always next time.

It's not to be though.

"I knew they were going to rig it. I'm going down to that school and I'm talking to Schuester."*

As I watch him forcefully put the drill down I know I have to come clean. That I have to admit to my Dad that I purposefully gave up the part. I've accepted that I'm never going to fit in here in Lima Ohio and have decided that it isn't a weakness but a strength. My individuality is what makes me stand out and is what will get me out of this place.

That's not Dad though. It never has been. He's quite content here in Lima. Happy with fitting in and being part of the community. As much as he's done for me, just this once I can give up something to make things easier for him.

"I blew the note. I wanted to lose."*

"Kurt, I stick my neck out for you and you go and throw the game."*

As he sits down in the chair behind at the nearby table I can see the disappointment on his face. He doesn't understand the bigger picture. Doesn't understand that this whole situation is more than just winning a solo in a high school Glee Club. Signing that song in front of an audience would only invite more phone calls like the one he just received, and as accepting and understanding as my Dad has been since I came out to him, I know that he's not ready for that.

Now, I need to make him see that.

*Dialogue from the episode "Wheels"