AN: Thank you everyone for the reviews :) We reached 100 reviews! Yay. I want to thank my 100th reviewer Kadiem02 and of course all of you who reviewed :) Now I know a lot of you are mad at me for what I did to Dimitri. But he is not dead. I am not killing him. You all know his body was not found so they are possibilities that he is alive ;) ok so enough of me talking and here is another chapter for you all and finally a sooner update :) I hope you all enjoy!

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Chapter 12

It has been a week since Dimitri's been gone. Nothing is the same anymore. All of us are barely holding on. We all miss him so much. Adrian is ruder and all I want to do is take a sword and plunge it in his heart. He is starting to annoy me so much now.

He has been flirting with Sydney and Viktoria and also has approached them to come into his tent so he can have his way. He thinks that they wouldn't tell me, but they do. Eddie was almost going to kill him. It really disgusts me. All of us stick together and try to ignore Adrian. But he always finds a way to annoy us.

Sasha and Ashford are really annoyed by him. He sits in their carriage and annoys them to death. They told me how hard it is for them to not kill him. Eddie has been trying to stay close to us girls so Adrian doesn't try anything. But Adrian tries to get him distracted.

I have been trying really hard to show that it doesn't bother me that Dimitri is gone and look at him just like another guard. I have made Eddie the Captain now. He didn't want to take the position. But said he would, until Dimitri comes back. He tells me Dimitri is dead, but deep down he knows that Dimitri is going to come back.

I know Dimitri is not dead. I don't know why, but I know he is alive. I can feel it. He promised me and he never breaks his promises. He will come back. We have to raise our baby together. I will never allow that dream to come true. It cannot come true because Adrian is a ** and in that dream he looked sweet and caring.

All I want more than anything is for Dimitri to return. I want him to come back so we can all leave. I don't care at this point what will happen with my kingdom. I just want to be with Dimitri. I want to live my life. Live it just like a normal person who doesn't have to worry about the kingdom and war.

I want to just be a housewife and have kids. I want to be just like other wives who would wait for their husband to come home and spend time with him and the kids. I can just imagine Dimitri coming home to a very pregnant me and four other kids running around, making me go crazy. He comes and helps me with the kids.

This thought just brings tears to my eyes. I am missing him so much and I want him to come back to me soon. I don't know how long I am going to be able to handle Adrian's torture.

I don't think I would be able to go with seeing Adrian everyday. He gets on my nerves and always makes very inappropriate comments. He thinks about woman like they are under his shoes. He thinks that women can't do anything and they should only be in men's bed, nothing more. I wanted to punch him when he was saying all this to Eddie, Sasha, and Ashford. Sydney, Viktoria and I were there and it just ** me off.

I get that women should be home, cook, and take care of the family. But whatever Adrian thinks is just so low. I want to just beat the ** out of him until his head can get out of his **. Or rather I want to go and beat his mother and put some sense into her, telling her what a monster she has created. I know if Tatiana didn't raise him he would have been a great man. Sometimes I can see some sadness in his eyes, like whatever he is doing he doesn't like it.

This pregnancy is killing me. I get so moody and my back is just killing me. I know now why you should not travel when you are pregnant. It is so not a good idea and the food just sucks. I get weird mood swings.

Viktoria and Sydney say that I am maybe three or four months along. I can't be two months along. They both noticed that I have a little bump. It's not really noticeable, but if you look close, you can tell I am pregnant. I am just so excited for my little one.

I just want him or her to look like Dimitri. It doesn't really matter if we have a boy or a girl. I would love him or her the same. After this baby I want to have more, more with Dimitri. No one else. I am just praying he returns soon.

Sydney, Viktoria, and I took a shower and ate. Now we are waiting to leave. Adrian wanted to come with us in our carriage, but I refused saying that the captain needs to stay with me in the carriage and I am not willing to send my ladies in the men's carriage all alone.

"Rose, thank you so much for not letting the king sit in here with us." Viktoria said.

"I agree. All I want to do is kick him in between his legs." Sydney said and all of burst out laughing.

"Of course. I would have never allowed that douche to sit with us. Not after his nice comments towards us and we all know what he wants." I said.

"I just want to slit his throat." Eddie said. He has always been calm. But now he gets so angry. I have never seen him angry. They say the calm one is always the one who looses it. I just don't want him to sense something wrong that would put his life at charge.

I fear for him. He has been like a brother and I love him a lot. I can just never see any of them getting hurt. Sasha and Ashford have not been that close, but being on this journey with them, I look at them as my brothers now. They are so overprotective of me and never leave my side.

They said that they have never seen a Royal being so nice and friendly with anyone. They said that they look at me like a sister now. I was really happy. I gained two new brothers.

More the days are passing the more I fear. I don't know why, but I feel like there will be no way out at the end. I want to just return to Turkey now. I don't care about anything anymore. It's just really hard.

I don't care about the kingdom at this point. Adrian wants to take it, he can have it. I would love just to have a little home and live happily in there. I think I am going to talk to Adrian and tell him to take the kingdom and leave me alone.

I mean when he gets the kingdom, my people would not suffer. I don't know, but he is so evil that I don't want to see that option. Even if I did, would he spare us? Would he let all of us return to Turkey? Or would he have us killed?

I don't know; there are so many possibilities. But I am not looking to marry him. There is no way I am going to do that. I am praying and hoping that Dimitri returns. He would be able to get us all out of here with no problem.

I know we all rely on him so much because he compares to fifty guards. If you put fifty guards together you get Dimitri. I just want a sign. Something that would changes everything. Maybe we should look for Olena Ivashkov's older son, the true heir for the throne.

When he returns, Adrian would have to leave the position as king and give it to him. I wonder what he looked like? Was there a birthmark? He should look like Nathan and Olena Ivashkov, right? I think so.

I have never personally met Nathan or Olena. I think I want to go to Russia more now. We can really pull this off. Maybe if we find out that the baby had a mark on his body we could have Eddie play a role.

I can have him act everything out. He could be a king. Oh god! I am turning evil like Adrian. But everything is fair in love and war. So I can maybe pull this of. Maybe I can just have someone from Russia come to the castle and tell that Eddie is the long lost son of Olena Ivashkov.

I know he is two years younger then the real son but we can always hide that. Come on, who knows Eddie's birth date rather then all of us? Even people in Turkey would not say anything. Eddie's parents are dead so no one really knows who he is.

I think this would work. But I would have to see Olena because Eddie does not look like Adrian. Dimitri did. Oh shit! What if Dimitri is the long lost son? He is from Russia. He looks just like Adrian, almost.

They both have the same personality. They get really angry. They act like each other. I wish I had seen Olena. Things would have been so easier. I know Adrian looks like Tatiana, because I have met the bitch.

There are so many holes and everything is leading me to Olena and Tatiana. Did Olena know something about her son's disappearance?

I mean she was all alone in the room. No ladies or anyone with her, except the baby. The baby was only five days old. She was the queen, so her room should have been guarded. Even outside the windows there should have been guards, unless the guards were involved.

How in the world could a son of a king can be stolen? How can a royal child be stolen from the biggest kingdom in the world? Things that I have heard about the royal castle of Russia are that it is so impossible to get out from there without being noticed. They have five hundred guards only to guard the castle. There are at least thirty guards lurking out side the king and Queens's room. Then how was the son stolen?

I had so many questions and there is no answer to any of them. Nathan Ivashkov should have suspected something. I mean his son was stolen from a highly guarded place, where he knew everything about. Olena should have known something. It was daytime when he was taken. In the night it would have been hard since there are not a lot of people in the castle. But in the daylight it was easier because the castle being full with people.

I am just so curious now that I want to know. I have a feeling that the long lost son is Dimitri. I don't know why. But since I have seen Dimitri and Adrian standing together I could see all the profanities and features. I could even say they almost looked like twins.

Oh god! All these thoughts will kill me. I have other things on my plate and I am adding another one. But this one I think is the biggest. I am going to have Eddie pretend to be the long lost son. But the question is: What if Dimitri is the long lost son?

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