Okay, I'm going to post this chapter up real quick then take a three-hour nap. Sorry folks, but dorm rooms are drafty. It was so cold I had to wear a jacket to bed, but I still couldn't sleep. I'm beyond tired and need to rest, so before I do...ta-da! Big chapter here, because a lot comes out! This is for my sister Shani and my friend Kames all the way, thank you so much for giving all your positive critique and input! I appreciate it so much! Wow, I have so much energy for someone who's about to fall dead asleep. Oh well, on to the new chapter! Disclaimer: I don't own Big Time Rush! I just put up a new wallpaper for my phone of them, but no way I own Big Time Rush! I just own the plot of this story! Enjoy, people of the universe! Some flashback in this at the beginning here, all in italics!
The next morning Kendall was out the door as soon as he was all showered and dressed.
He had to talk to Jett. The brown-eyed blonde knew the truth, everything behind all this chaos. Sure he felt bad for accusing him of being James' other lover, but he knew that if he wanted to get back together with James and find out what has made him so cold he would have to face his mistake. He would have to put aside his often annoying pride, put it all aside for the truth; he owed James this, because it took Kendall a whole MONTH to realize he made a mistake.
James did not cheat on him. James has shown him through the years time and time again he loved him, he was the one who ruined everything not the brunette. Whatever secret he had, the reason he hid it was to protect Kendall, this the dirty blonde was sure of.
To most people James seemed selfish but to those closest to him knew that he was willing to risk it all, even his own well-being to put those he loved before himself. And Kendall had a feeling that is exactly what he did, put himself on the line to protect his ex-fiancee.
James could be obnoxious sometimes, but the words he said to Kendall were no lies.
"For you, I would do anything. You know me better than I know myself and I love you, Kendall. Without you...my whole life is meaningless."
'I shouldn't have left him! Now whatever's haunting him can take him over! H-he could turn cold and distant permanently.' Kendall thought with a shiver, heart pounding.
He couldn't let that happen, period.
So he had to talk to Jett. Now.
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Kendall first tried the Diamond household; Jett lived with James and his parents, something about a change in hotel plans of the sort. He's been living with them since he arrived; he was like part of the family now, went to the same school and everything. It didn't look like he was going back to Cali anytime soon, and he seemed really attached to James now and vice-versa.
James and Jett were close, like brothers...
The house was empty; after a few knocks Kendall reached this conclusion.
Brooke was probably out at work, Griffin too. James, Kendall had no idea where he could be right now, and Jett usually was with him so he had to try somewhere else.
Or maybe not.
"Kendall?" Said blonde turned to see Jett with a bag of groceries in one hand, his free hand laced with another guy, a guy who wasn't James.
He was tall, about the same height as Jett himself, but maybe a year or two older. He had a runner's built, with lightly tanned skin and spiky brown hair, eyes more golden than dark green in certain lights. He was dressed in a pair of jeans and a sweater like Jett, just that his was blue while Jett's red.
'T-that must be his...!'
"Kendall, what are you doing here?" Jett didn't sound rude, just plain confused. Why would the blonde be here? He and James' relationship has been off for a month now; he couldn't think of a reason as to why the shorter boy was here at James' house.
Kendall's eyes darted between Jett and his brown-haired companion before he took a deep breath, a pleading expression on his abnormally pale face. "J-Jett, we need to talk please. It's about James; I-I didn't mean to end our relationship, I was just upset and confused and hurt b-but I regret it now! I know can't turn back time and fix everything but please, please help me! I need to save James, I know you've seen how he's been lately, he's not the same! Something is really wrong with him, and I-I still love him! I still love him and want to help him but please, you have to tell me what's really going on! P-please, I'm begging you..." He choked out, tears close to streaming down his cheeks.
Jett looked at Kendall blankly for a few minutes then turned to the other man, sighing with a sad smile.
"Well it's a good thing I haven't told you yet, huh? Now, both of you...can learn the truth. Let's get inside though, we don't want anyone overhearing us and I have to make a call real quick..."
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Once Jett called Lucy and she came over, he had Dak and Kendall take seats in the living room. He gave them each a glass of water, sighed to prepare himself, then started from the beginning.
He told them everything, with Lucy adding in some details from time to time.
He told them about when he, Lucy and James were thirteen that Griffin began experimenting on them. He told them about how he had some powerful wonder drug made, the wonder drug he talked about to Lucy and James a month ago, and how that started changing them. He told them about how the drug made them more violent, animalistic even, and how Griffin used them, began training them to become mercenaries. He told them about how Griffin threatened them to keep their other lives a secret, or he'd have everyone they love killed (that making Dak and Kendall gasp) and frame them for the murders. He told them about how each and every kill ate at the three, how it completely scarred them to the core. He told Kendall about how traumatized James was deep down and why he always had to listen to Griffin, do his 'jobs' or risk his mom's safety. He told Dak why he had to be disguised for so long, only to be found by Griffin once again and roped back to the secret he wanted to bury forever. He told both Dak and Kendall about Camille, Lucy's missing girlfriend, and how Griffin's had her MIA for years now that Lucy wasn't sure if she was still alive.
Jett told them about Gustavo's death and Mercedes, how the sick bastard that was James' step-father forced him to kill his own sister and unborn niece. He told them about how Lucy, James and him had to pretend they didn't know each other, so not to arose suspicion in public. He told them about how Griffin planned for Jett to become a wedge between James and Kendall, to have the younger boy doubt the brunette enough to leave him. He told them about how James, with Kendall gone, has went off the edge and became Griffin's pet, following every sick order without a word back.
Jett went into full detail about James' lack of sanity, since Kendall begged to know everything.
He told him how James completely lost himself. He had nothing to hold him back from killing; the one person who could have saved him left him and so he took it out on anyone who was doomed the moment they crossed paths. He told Kendall about James probably suffering from Multiple Personality Disorder now, thanks to the drug usage over the years and his own guilt eating away at him. It was like he was two completely different people in one body: one person that loves and another that kills.
He went into more detail until Kendall nodded, silently saying he heard enough and understood it all.
The guilt-ridden expression crossing the younger boy's face now nearly brought Jett to tears, Lucy too.
Their secret was out now, it wasn't so secret anymore...
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"So you hate me now, don't you?" Jett asked, he and Dak in the kitchen while Lucy talked to Kendall in the living room.
The blonde was looking down, shoulders shaking as tears finally left him.
Now Dak was going to leave him; he knew just how sick, disgusting and monstrous his boyfriend of seven years really is. Now he was going to leave him forever, forget about him or call the police to have him arrested. Arrested or sent to a mental asylum.
A fist connecting with the kitchen counter made Jett jump, his light brown eyes meeting Dak's wet golden-green ones.
'W-wait, why is he crying?'
"Why the hell are you asking me that?! You think I'm leaving you, you think I'm going to let that bastard get away with hurting the love of my life!" Dak demanded, looking torn between breaking down and losing his temper.
"Love of your l-life?" Jett choked out, suddenly feeling dizzy; Dak's eyes soften as he was quick to catch Jett before he fell, arms tight around the blonde's waist. He sighed, reaching to caress Jett's face with one hand.
"What, y-you think I don't love you anymore? Jett, you were forced! This isn't your fault, you're not a monster! Griffin took advantage of you, of you and Lucy and James. You three are v-victims, not the criminals here! He forced you, he knew you wouldn't r-risk me so you did it, you killed a lot of innocent people but it's NOT your fault, Jett! You're still the one I love, my husband and my best friend!
Jett began to shake his head, unable to believe what he was hearing, but Dak cupped his chin so their eyes met again. Dak's golden-green eyes were smoldering, burning with intense emotion.
"Believe me, I still love you. You're the only one I think about, you're my whole life! Jett, I don't c-care what you've done, you're not to blame! You d-did it to protect me and I'll make damn sure the prick pays, he'll pay! He'll pay for taking your childhood away, for hurting you AND me! I promise but don't think I've stopped loving you!
Dak shortened the distance between them, lips inches apart.
"I love you, Jett Stetson and nothing will change that." Jett gave him a watery smile as their lips met in a passionate yet gentle kiss, he gripping at Dak's soft brown hair with both pale, trembling fists.
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"I-I can't believe I left him like that. He never cheated, he was just p-protecting me from Griffin." Kendall choked out, tugging at his hair and sobbing into his knees.
Lucy frowned and sat down beside him, wrapping an arm around his shoulders. "Stop blaming yourself, James...James only cared about what was best for you, and he wanted to tell you but me and Jett convinced him not to. It's our fault, not yours or his." She began but Kendall shook his head.
"No L-Lucy, it IS my fault. I doubted him, I made him believe that I...I thought him capable of cheating. He loved me, so much and I took it for granted. And now, Griffin can use him as a puppet and I have do something fast or James could possibly lose his life...!" Lucy sighed.
"Well we're on a blank on that, Kendall. Griffin has made sure that me and Jett don't get a clue to the latest job he has for James tonight. I can tell you something though, it's not something sitting well with James. He looks really torn...as if he's fighting with himself. He's torn on taking the job or not." She said, sighing sadly again when Kendall began sobbing harder.
She held him tight in a hug, stroking the younger boy's hair to calm him down but deep down, she knew he wouldn't calm down until he knew James was safe.
If he was safe, and sane.
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"N-no, stop! No stop, stop i-it!" James begged, flinching when the syringe entered his arm.
"Stop fighting it, boy. Like it or not, you're killing the Knight brat tonight." Griffin growled, the misty white liquid half way through the brunette's skin.
James tried to fight back, but the restraints only dug more into his wrists. A lone tear left his eye before the drug fully kicked in; a feral growl left him, teeth clenched as his pupils dilated.
"AH!"
"That's it, such a good boy."