Abbey's POV
I close my door and turn around to look at Benny.
"I know you're confused," Benny admits. "I know that I've made everything harder for you and I know that I probably shouldn't have kissed you like that."
"I didn't ask for an apology," I answer.
"But I'm giving you one," he replies. "Because you deserve it."
"No," I object. "I don't. If anyone deserves an apology, it's you."
"What?" Benny asks confused.
"I've been leading you on and I'm sorry," I apologize. "I know it was wrong and I shouldn't have done it."
"Why did you?" he questions.
"Because I care for you and I'm stupid enough not to tell you how I really feel."
"How do you feel?" I asks.
I didn't wanna do this, but I knew that I had to.
"I love you," I whisper.
I look up at him and he has a weird look on his face.
"But it doesn't change anything," Benny doesn't say it like a question.
"I don't think so," I look down at my feet, avoiding his eyes.
I had to let him go. It was agonizing for both of us. We were both hoping that we felt the same way, even if we didn't realize it until now.
I could feel my eyes starting to fill up with tears.
"I should probably go," Benny says, moving towards the door.
"Okay," I say, my voice getting thick.
Before he leaves, he turns and looks at me.
"Abbey, I'll always love you," he whispers.
And then he was gone.
The tears started streaming down my face, making everything blurry.
I walk over to the door and close it, locking it and then run and jump on my bed, continuing to cry.
Letting him go was turning out to be the hardest thing that I'd ever done. How could you love someone so much that it felt like your heart was going to explode? I truly knew that I loved him, but was a coward to do anything about it.
This was the last time that he would break my heart. We always found our way back to each other somehow, but I knew that wouldn't happen anymore.
I wasn't right for him. I wasn't human. I couldn't stand the fact that I would stay seventeen and he would age. And if it came to that, I wouldn't ask him to turn. I wouldn't take his humanity away from him.
Truth be told, I loved being a vampire, but I would give anything to be human again.
"I find myself at your door,
Just like all those times before.
I'm not sure how I got there,
All roads,
They lead me here.
I imagine you are home,
In your room,
All alone.
And you open your eyes into mine,
And everything feels better.
And right before your eyes,
I'm breaking.
No past,
No reasons why,
Just you and me…
This is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list.
This is the last time I'm asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.
You find yourself at my door,
Just like all those times before,
You wear your best apology,
But I was there to watch you leave.
And all the times I let you in,
Just for you to go again.
Disappear when you come back.
Everything is better.
And right before your eyes,
I'm aching.
No past,
Nowhere to hide.
Just you and me…
This is the last time I'm asking you this,
Put my name at the top of your list.
This is the last time I'm asking you why,
You break my heart in the blink of an eye.
This is the last time you tell me I've got it wrong.
This is the last time I say, 'it's been you all along.'
This is the last time I let you in my door.
This is the last time I won't hurt you anymore."
Even though we were never officially together, we always somehow managed to break each other's hearts. Maybe if things had been different. Maybe if I hadn't been turned. Benny deserved better than me. He deserved someone who would age with him, someone he could get married to and have kids with.
I'd never given much thought to having kids, which I guessed was a good thing. I couldn't mourn something that I'd never really thought about.
I just hoped that he would move on and forget all about me. Maybe after the wedding, Jesse and I could move far away from Whitechapel. Unfortunately, I knew he would never do that because he had been reinstated on the Vampire Council.
The wedding was in two days, and I was an absolute mess.
I knew that I shouldn't be crying over someone who was never mine in the first place, but I couldn't help it. I loved Benny and I was getting married to Jesse. I wasn't sure if I wanted to get married anymore.
I looked down at my left hand, where the ring rested, gleaming beautifully on my third finger and instead of feeling love like I should've, I felt nothing.
I then realized that I had been having second thoughts about the marriage the whole time. Starting that night when it was just me and Benny.
I did love Jesse, but not the way I should.
I was still laying on my bed, contemplating on what to do, when there was a knock at the door.
"It's open!" I say loudly.
The door slowly opens and Jesse comes in, closing the door behind him. He walks over to my bed and lays down beside me.
"You've been crying," he notes softly, noticing my red eyes.
"Yeah," I whisper.
"Why?" Jesse questions.
"Benny."
"I know."
"What?" I ask, amazed.
"I see the way he looks at you," he explains. "You look at him the same way."
"You're not mad," I don't say it like a question.
"No, I'm not," Jesse says. "I can't help but think that you think have to be with me because I was the one who turned you."
"Maybe a little," I admit.
"It doesn't have to be like that," he says calmly. "I turned Sarah and she's with Ethan. I know you love Benny."
I don't meet his eyes. Everything he was saying was true.
"But I'm not right for him," I whisper. "I'm not human. He deserves someone he can grow old with."
"Ethan and Sarah don't seem to care about that," Jesse points out.
"I'd give anything to be human again," I sigh.
"I never did apologize for taking away your humanity," he says indifferently. "At the time I didn't care about anything except getting my revenge on Whitechapel. But you opened my eyes and you changed me. Even if you don't want to spend the rest of eternity with me, I promise that I'll stay like this."
I smile at him weakly.
I slip the ring off of my finger and present it to Jesse.
"I'm sorry," I say softly.
He takes the ring gently from my hand and puts it in his pocket.
"I can't believe you're letting me go this easy."
"I don't want to complicate things for you and I'm sure everybody's going to be relieved."
"Don't think like that," I object.
"You know it's true," Jesse points out. "Your mother doesn't even like me."
He leans over and kisses my head.
"Goodbye, Abbey," he whispers and gets off the bed, vanishing in a matter of seconds.
I knew it was hard for him to let me go that easily.
I had had enough goodbyes for one day, so I pulled my covers over my head, letting sleep take me away from all of the mental and emotional stress that had gone on for the past few weeks.
Benny's POV
Nothing could sum up the way Benny felt. It was over. The thing that him and Abbey had going was over. She finally admitted that she loved him, but it didn't change anything.
He was numb, he couldn't feel anything except a dull ache inside his chest.
He was beyond noticing anything except how he felt. He kept replaying what had happened in Abbey's room in his head.
"I love you," she had said, but it didn't change anything.
He didn't notice when someone was calling his name until they were snapping their fingers in front of his face.
He blinked and snapped out of his reverie.
"What?" he asked confused.
"I said, 'how are you feeling?'" Ethan answered.
Benny remembered where he was. He was at a diner in downtown Whitechapel with Ethan and Sarah.
"Fine," he lied, looking down at his half-eaten burger and barely touched fries.
Ethan and Sarah both exchanged worried looks that he ignored.
It wasn't until he noticed the song that was playing that he really began to think about Abbey.
"I hung up the phone tonight,
Something happened for the first time.
Deep inside,
There's a rush,
What a rush.
'Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me,
Is just too much,
Just too much.
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you.
You got me hypnotized,
So mesmerized,
And I just got to know…
Do you ever think when you're all alone,
All that we could be?
Where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?
Do you catch your breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
'Cause I'm trying,
Trying to walk away.
But I know this crush ain't going away,
Going away…"
Before Benny knew it, he was walking out the door of the diner oblivious to the looks Ethan and Sarah were giving him, and completely uncertain of where his feet were going to lead him.
The first song was The Last Time by Taylor Swift feat. Gary Lightbody and the last one was Crush by David Archuleta. I hope you enjoyed!
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