It was weird.
After Ai returned they barely saw each other, which wasn't a surprise as he was a famous idol that disappeared for a long time, so now he had a lot of interviews and news offers of jobs.
… And that was why it was weird, because today is the first day that they finally had a time for themselves.
She was nervous.
"Hum… "
"What are we going to do?"
"W-well, I didn't plan anything, because I was very busy with my work as composer so…"
"I thought about this possibility", he said taking a paper; "I made a list of what we could do."
"That's… A big list", she said sweatdropping while reading it when something got her attention, "Eating Marine Jelly?"
"I don't remember the taste, but in my memories I said that I liked it"
"Hum… Yes, we could try that"
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"The color and the texture are good… I suppose it's to my taste", he said taking a spoon of it.
"You know, I didn't think of this because that time I didn't knew you were a robot but… Can you really taste food?"
"Yes, I was programmed to be able to taste food", he replied, "Even if I don't need to eat food."
"Oh… Interesting…", she said deep in thought.
"What you did to make me fall in love with you?"
"Huh?"
"If we do the same things that we did back then maybe I would be able to feel again"
"Oh… That's…"
'So that was why he made that big list?'
Haruka closed her eyes, trying to remember all the time they spent together, but even if she tried to think hard she didn't know the reason of why he felt in love with her…
… To be truly honest, she, herself, didn't remember when she started to like him too, she couldn't tell apart what made her fall for him, because of her love, every memory was precious to her.
"… I don't know, I think that only you would be able to know that"
"… I can't", he replied, "I said before that I can't feel right? And that extends to my memories too, I have them but they are like a movie, I can see them but it doesn't hold any feelings."
"Oh…"
"… How did you fall in love in love with me?", he asked suddenly.
"I don't know, all of my memories with you are dear to me", she replied, "I can't pinpoint mine's either…"
"So… Love is something hard to notice…", Ai said in deep thought, "If I ever feel love how I'm suppose to know that?"
"It's a precious feeling", she said smiling softly, "It may sound complicated but… Loving someone makes you appreciate a lot of things, make you suffer, but in the end it's worth it, when you know the feeling you just feel like a complete puzzle."
"A complete puzzle…"
That's why he felt empty? Like there was something missing? He knew that he loved her once, his memories were perfectly clear… So his need to learn again… Was it meant to be a reflection of missing this part of himself?
'I want to live…'
'I wish I could stay with her a bit more…'
"Ai… Why do you want so much to recover your feelings?", she asked.
"… Because of my last memory", he replied, "Before I shut down, I can hear my screams… It wasn't said with my voice, but with my mind… They sounded pained… At least I can tell that"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes… To be truly honest, the reason that I wish to discover my feelings for you was because this memory makes me so"
"Your last memory…"
"… But sometimes I wonder about the reason of not being able to love you now", he said, "Perhaps I'm not the same person that you love, after all, differently from you, I can feel nothing from my memories."
She felt her chest hurt with that words, hearing him say that the time they spent together was nothing to him now…
… But what he said made her think deeply, what if she was just loving someone that could never return? What if she wanted to believe that the person in front of her was the same person that she loved back then?
"You're crying again"
"I-I can't help it… It pains me too much…"
She looked miserable, even if he was there and there was others people around it felt as if she was crying alone.
He felt a strange thing inside of him, not noticing when his hand reached her face, which made the girl in front of him stop, looking surprised.
"Huh?"
"… What was that?", he asked himself while taking back his hand and staring at it with a puzzled expression, "… I didn't even notice when I did this"
He was a bit confused, why he reacted like that? Why seeing her crying made him reach to her and try to stop her crying?
Could it be…
The first sign of emotion?
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THAT'S THE SHORTEST CHAPTER I EVER WROTE!
OH, BTW, I will change the title of this fic because I doesn't want two fics that sound similar(and by similar I mean the word 'again'), it will be called from now on "The Feelings that I didn't know"
Believe me, usually my chapter tends to be way longer than that, but you don't need to worry, I love drama and all, but I love to write fluff shit way more than that, he will get nicer with time and I promise my best selection of corny XD*Headshot*
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But of course I will be glad to make drama just to rip your poor hearts and laugh as everyone cries*headshot*
Ahem,
Now, let's go to the reviews!
Kawaii Dream- Yes, I loved his story, and dear me! It's the first time that I am writing him and I hope that the development goes right =_=
It will take a time for that, and meanwhile cute things will happen heheheh!
MikageHime- Thanks, I'm glad that you like both fics, and I will try my best to make this story as fluff as the other!
Cure Noble0- Yep, there will be more chapters!I know that this isn't my best, but be sure that it will get better XD
EdwardElricsFan4Ever- I know right? I was smiling like a dork, his ending is the best of all of the Uta Pri guys! Even better than Otoya's(and I love Otoya, he's my favorite character).
