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"Bonnie" He smiled to me.
He gripped my hand. I smile from the comfort of his touch he glanced down for a second as I squeezed back a frown fall onto his face for a moment and he took his hand from mine into his lap from my sight. I sigh but I'm in no mood to address his self-steam problem.
"How ya feeling?" he asks. "You need something?"
"No, thank you" I shake my head.
I felt a little dizzy from my moments I rub my forehead trying to rid of my dizziness.
"You really need to stop scaring me, Bonnie" he laughed meaning it fully. "Second time this week" he noted.
"Sorry" I laugh.
I must be putting this boy throw hell with all the worrying I'm causing him.
Images of the clowns of his dark laugh and the saw that was going to cut me in two flashed throw my head. I look up to him keeping my smile I didn't want to worry him anymore, making him think I couldn't get over this or that I wasn't already. The least I could do is not act like a basket-case and make him think he has to take more care of me then he already has.
"What happened, Jimmy?" I question. "Are those kids alright?"
"Oh, yeah, there fine you got them out" he smiles to me like I was a brave hero.
I felt proud of myself, I could have given up but I pushed through and even though I did give up on that tree I didn't when it mattered most when others needed my help. However, I should have gone back for Jimmy what if something did happen? I would have just been the girl who laid down and died while he needed my help.
"And the psycho's?"
He sighed. "One's dead the other…" he trailed off. "I'm sure he's out of town by now the police are looking for him up state"
I nod. He looked to me waiting for something, I don't know a little girl to come out and sob, maybe.
"I'm okay, Jimmy" I tell him.
"I know that" he laughed. "You tough, I don't think there's anything that could break you down" he comments.
I smile to him. I don't care if he only saying that it felt so good and so much better it was him saying it.
"That means a lot, Jimmy"
He smiles and nods to me.
"Ya know I think we're pretty similar" I tell him my thoughts. "I don't think there's really anything that can break us, especially, when we're together" I add.
He smiled big and went to speak but we both turn when the doctor walks in. he grabbed my chart smiling to me. I smile back. He's an older man hair white and a grin that seems stuck on his face forever.
"Well good evening, Miss. Tall" he greeted me happy. "I'm Dr. Keller"
"Hello" I say softly.
"I'm just going to do a quick check up see how everything healing, test some eye moment and all that fun stuff" he explains. "How's that sound?"
"Perfect" I smile.
"Do you mind just waiting in the hall?" he looked to Jimmy.
He nodded and stood from his seat, I notice he was still in clothes from Halloween dirt covering some of his pants and shirt. As he walked out I saw that Dr. Keller made sure not to touch him and even looked like he didn't breathe as he past. He's not contagious; I wanted to snap but kept my mouth shut instead.
"I'll be right outside" Jimmy tells me.
He walked over to me after shutting the door he had me sit up I felt woozy but nowhere near passing out. He looked at my stitches on the back of my head saying that looked fine then shined a light in my eyes.
"Fallow it" he asked.
I did perfectly. I blink once the light was gone it left me feeling a bit nauseas but nothing that would bring me to throw up. He continued to check a few others things like it was a normal check up with little small talk.
"You were very brave" he tells me listening to my heart.
"Thank you"
"You're a really pretty girl" he seemed blow away by the fact.
I laugh. "Yes, yes I am" I chuckle a bit.
"So-…" he dragged out the O' in the word. "What is it you do, if you don't mind me asking?" he asks. "I look through your chart trying to find the answer without asking, and you know what?" he laughed. "Couldn't find a thing"
"Nothing to find" I confess in my soft voice.
He narrowed his eyes at me.
"Well what do you do?" he asks. "I've seen your friends and there a colorfully bunch" he snorted.
I just look down not ashamed of them just of his arrogance.
"If you're so invested in finding out buy a ticket to the show" I tell him.
"Ah now I see where you come in handy" he laughed. "Sells"
"Am I all good Doctor?" I ask changing the subject.
"Yes darling you are" he said writing something in my chart. He went to the door but then turned with a frown on his face I thought couldn't stop smiling. "You have a really pretty face, any man would be lucky to have you waiting at home you need to wake up soon and get yourself out of the night life before it's too late. A girl like you could get anyone, heck if I was twenty years younger I'd offer you to stay with me but I don't think my wife would like that much, you've got to much personality and too much face. Get out while you can darling" he tells me. "If you need anything the nurses are right outside, get some rest" and on that note he left before I could say anything.
I looked down, yeah I may want all those pretty things in life but what are they worth if you don't like who's giving them to you. I don't need someone who's pretty to have a nice life and have the prettiest babies with, I need someone who will love me stay faithful and someone I know who would love his kids weather oddity or not.
Damn I never want my kids to have a father who waiting for them to amaze him like mine always waited for me till one day he gave up waiting. And I've seen Jimmy who it broke him down how the world sees him, he to afraid to touch my hand, to pick up a glass in a room with someone 'normal'. Normal, what a joke no one's normal, it's just an impossible stander that was set and no one can really reach everyone just tries to and pertains to, once Jimmy understands that he'll finally understand it doesn't matter what they think there the fools trying to be something they'll never be, Perfect.
I sigh.
"Yer know he's right" a deep accent voice tells me.
I look up to see Ethel walking in the doorway.
"Girl like you, heck he'd probably leave his wife fer yer right now, that Docter" she says sitting beside me.
"No thank you" I laughed.
"I'm not joking girly, I'm being serious here" she snapped at me.
Dropping my smiling, failing at making this light hearted. I just sigh feeling another life changing talk come on from another old person that thinks they even understand what I'm thinking. Don't get me wrong I respect Ethel but I don't wanna hear another you're so pretty go get a rich guy speech.
"With respect, Ethel please I'm not in the mood" I tell her.
She seemed to take offences though.
"Now you listen here, Bonnie" she said stern. "Jimmy taken with you and I don't need you breaking his heart when you do finally come to your senses and get out of this dump" she stood from her seat. "Now the worlds done enough to him he doesn't need you adding to it, so if you really care just stop now and go home"
"Get out" I command her lowly with rage burning me inside. "Get out" I repeat myself.
She left with a smug look on her face shaking her head to me like I was some common criminal.
She has no right to talk to me like that, she thinks me life is so easy? Everyone has problems, she not the only one, her carnie friends aren't the only ones! I get it its tough and I'm sure all have a million and more over my problems but it doesn't make mine any less to me. She just like everyone that stares and laughs at her, she mocks me tells me I'm terrible person for having a life near her poor carnies because I have a pretty face!
Either way she meant it its terrible, either she meant I'm to pretty so I'll never understand them or fit in and I must be a girl that will choice glitter over actually human compassion because I'm pretty, or she meant I'm too good for her world and her son which just makes her terrible mother and only makes since why Jimmy can't hold his head up high because all his life she basically told him he's not worth anything.
There's no winning in what she just told me that was awful! I care, I want love over looks I want compassion not judgment and I thought people who have been judge all there life would understand but I guess not.
I sigh I've worked myself up to exhaustion, I rub my hand on my head I can't be this mad at Jimmy's mom it'll make it awkward between us, I mean hell he just saved my life I can't be giving his mom stink eye.
Rest I need rest. I reminded myself.
I can't believe her to say I'm gonna be a vain person and chose a pretty boy over Jimmy or to say he's not wroth me it doesn't matter that was wrong.
Stop, rest! I commanded my thoughts away. I laid in that bed for a long while trying to get control on this anger and I finally did.
…
"I thought you said you'd stay with her?!" I heard arguing outside my door.
Hushed voices I knew well, Ethel and Jimmy.
I look up groggy eyed I rub them and yawn. I saw through the crack of my door Jimmy standing there scolding his mother than being scolding by her.
"Are you drinking again?" He questioned her.
"She gonna run off with the first bow that gives her a shinny gift" she says ignoring his question.
"You don't know that, she different, Ma" Jimmy protested.
I smile at least he knew me.
She just laughed at him.
"Ha- different till a rich pretty boy comes along, I've seen her type Jimmy and girls like her and boys like you don't last long" she pleaded for him to understand her craziness.
"She cares, Ma about me, about us! How don't you see that?" his wide round eyes begged her to listen to him, listen for once.
"Yer to innocent, Jimmy, w-why yer wanna learn the hard way about this girl?" she studier sadly.
"You're wrong, Ma!" he said and look to the room.
I blinked wide eyes; I've been caught over listening, shit. He sighed and walked away from Ethel, I finally felt a little bad for his mother, no matter how wrong she sees me she is only trying to protect him and I can't stay mad at her for that… well not as mad as before.
He walked in the room smiling lightly. I smile back half heartedly. He was in new clothes and his hair was done.
"She's wrong" he huffed.
"About what" I give him an out.
He just sighed and nodded clearly taking it.
He placed a bag down on the chair.
"They said you can go home" he smiled.
But both of us knew why. They were tiered of Jimmy and Ethel lingering around these halls.
"I brought you some clothes" he said gesturing to the bag. "Your sister picked them out"
"Sarah, how is she?" I ask worried about her.
"She's okay, she happy your coming home" he tells me. "She wanted to come but I wouldn't have room to drive us all back" he explained her absence.
"That's okay I love her but I'm in no mood to comfort her" I laugh.
"Yeah she kind of took everything that happened to you worse then you did" he laughed. "When ma told her she said she cried herself to sleep on your bed, ma said she was gonna bring her up with herself but didn't want to wake her"
"It's okay, Jimmy" I smile.
He just nodded and smiled.
"Well I'll let you get dressed. Ma filled out all your paperwork by the way"
"Tell her thanks will ya?"
He just nodded and walked out the door.
I sat up shaky holding back my dizziness. I leaned for the bag gripping it, it felt like it weigh a ton I struggled to put it on the foot of the bed. Opening it I strip off my gown and put on a pair of pink Carpi pants, a light pink polo and matching cardigan I hold the bed for support and slip on my white flats. I always thought Sarah thought I was a square in this outfit I guess she was just playing the mean sister part. I smile touching the cotton maybe she not a bad girl all the time, just playing the part on occasion.
I look into the bag again seeing my hairbrush. I brushed out my day old curls pouting as I hit a few rat nests. When I finished there was a knock at the door.
"Come in" I tell whoever it is.
In walked Dr. Keller his smile large.
"Just wanted to check up on you before you leave" he tells me.
I smile and nodded sitting down on the bed.
He walked closer moving my hair out of the way to see the stitches.
"Still wonderful"
"Great" I smile. "Well I'll be leaving then"
He nodded and told me to be careful I only nodded and he left the room as Jimmy was walking in. He avoided Jimmy like the pelage it was too obvious and rude, even nice people are horrible.
"You ready?" Jimmy asks.
"Yeah"
"Wait, Jimmy is it?" Dr. Keller asks turning around back to the room.
"Yeah?" Jimmy answers defense.
Dr. Keller sighed. "That little boy who was kidnapped he's my patient" he tells Jimmy. "He told me what happened that you saved him with help from this pretty young lady" he smiled to me. "He was on his last few days out there, well what I guess I'm trying to say is… is thank you" he patted Jimmy's back.
He put his hand in his pocket afterwards wiping it inside his pocket but still that's more than I ever thought someone would care.
And after that Dr. Keller walked out. I looked to Jimmy wide eyed, blown away by that mans compassion.
"Huh" Jimmy seemed confused and touched by the doctor. "Ready?' he asks big grin on his face.
I nodded smiling back to him. "I'm ready hero" I laugh.
He just blushed.
…
We pulled up to the entice of the freak show in the begging of the morning. After the fresh air and long ride I got to hold on to Jimmy I was feeling better. I got off the back careful looking to him and his big innocent eyes.
I sway and smile to him seeing a prefect future in this man in front of me.
"Spend the morning with me?" I ask him.
"Yeah" he answered softly smiling back to me.
"I'm gonna go check up on Sarah I'll be right back" I say I went to walk off then I turned back to him the hero of my world lately.
I placed my hand on his shoulder and kissed his cheek than quickly skipped off to my room where I thought Sarah would be. I opened the door quietly and placed the bag down by the door, I walked in more to see Sarah asleep on my bed. I smile and leave the trailer not wanting to wake her.
I heard some people gathering at the main tent outside. What the heck do they want now? I wonder thinking it was cops maybe wanted to ask more questions. A lot of people beat me to see what was going on, I walked up to see towns people thanking and hugging everyone here for Jimmy saving their kids. I moved to the right so Dot and Bette wouldn't block my view of Jimmy shaking hands with these people he thought he wasn't good enough for.
I smile feeling so beyond happy for him, everything he ever wanted he's getting right now. I held my hand up in a small wave as he looked my way, he just smiled in return with a 'this is crazy' face on. I could stand here forever and watch him. Jimmy Darling local hero of Jupiter, I smile at the thought.
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