AN: So a little bit of Rachel after the elections fiasco. I might hate the character but I would hope she'd feel a bit bad about what she did to Kurt. Inspired by lyrics from "When You're Looking Like That" by Westlife
I was sitting in the audience of Sectionals. This didn't feel right. As I watched my teammates preform "ABC 123" I knew I should be up there with them. Up there being the star that I know I am. Yet watching them, I realize that they're going to win this even without me.
It makes me feel sad and a bit humbled. Clearly I'm not as irreplaceable as I thought I was. And as I watch Kurt vault over Blaine the sadness increases. He's shining up there on stage tonight. He's always been the only one I've been scared will outshine me and he's doing it tonight. But Kurt doesn't just shine on stage, he shines in life, even though people overlook it so often.
Kurt and I may have had a rocky start to our friendship, but he's been a great friend the last couple of years - maybe even my best friend. It's a friendship I may have destroyed completely though with my latest actions. Yes, by coming forward about stuffing the ballot box I have cleared his name and kept Kurt from getting suspended but I also caused him to lose the election. I've robbed him of a chance to make a difference in this school and from being able to list class president on his NYADA application.
Kurt hasn't talked to me since he told me and Finn what happened and I can't blame him. I wouldn't want to talk to me either. I can only hope that given enough time Kurt can forgive me. I know if anyone can, it's him because despite everything he's gone through, Kurt still has the biggest heart of anyone I know.