AN: Set during the episode "Never Been Kissed" and inspired by lyrics from "Sadness" by New Found Glory
Looking across the table at our terrible spy, I saw myself mirrored in his expression. The feeling of being alone in a world who hated who you are without even getting to know you. I saw the longing in his eyes to be in a place that accepted him and the disbelief that he could find it. It was something that Wes and David wouldn't be able to identify let alone understand because they hadn't been there. They were at Dalton because their fathers wanted the best possible education for them, not because they were running from a past that they wanted to forget.
In that instant I shoved the love at first sight feeling I'd had when I saw Kurt away because the timing wasn't right. More than anything, the well dressed, pale teenager across from me needed an ally. Someone who could understand what he was going through, whatever those details may be, and help him through it. A empathetic friend to show him that there was nothing wrong with him and that he wasn't alone.
I hadn't faced all my demons from my past. In coming to Dalton I had chosen to leave them behind instead of confronting the situation. That knowledge was like a thorn forever piercing the persona that I showed to my peers here at Dalton. I had found a place that I was accepted for who I was though I knew that outside these walls there was no guarantee of the haven I had found. Still, the friendships I had made here had bolstered my courage to face the hate out there in the real world even if it hadn't healed all the scars.
Perhaps it was time I imparted some of that courage onto someone like me.
"Could you guys excuse us?"* I asked Wes and David, instinctively knowing that Kurt would never open up in front of the other two guys.
*Dialogue from "Never Been Kissed"