AN: So getting into Blaine's head again. This time from the graduation episode. Inspired by lyrics from "Straight From The Heart" by S Club
As I sit there listening to Kurt comparing the end of his life to The Notebook, I try to follow where he is going with it. His upcoming graduation scares me because I'm so afraid I'm going to lose him. I changed schools to follow him last time and I can only wish that the solution would be that easy this time. It isn't though. Kurt's graduating and I'm going to be stuck at McKinley one more year. I can't follow him and after everything we've gone through this year I'm so afraid that we won't be able to survive the upcoming separation. Every time I think about losing Kurt, my chest tightens and it's doing that now.
"So, we're going to be alright?"
I ask the question because I need a concrete answer not one of Kurt's flamboyant, round about replies.
"Yes, we're going to be alright," Kurt says, sounding slightly exasperated. "I told you, I'm never saying good-bye to you. We'll figure out this whole long distance thing. I promise."
"Okay," I tell him and the tightens starts to ease up. Kurt doesn't make promises that he doesn't mean.
For the first time since the reality of Kurt leaving started sinking in, I start to feel relieved. For Kurt this should be a time of celebration and I want to celebrate with him. But even more I want to be able to celebrate all the future accomplishments that lie down the road with him to. I want this love, my first love, to be the one to last forever and apparently Kurt wants that too. Perhaps that's enough for the two of us to be one of those high school couples who beats the odds and stays together.
The one thing that I am sure of is that only time will tell.
*All dialogue from "Good-bye"