AN: Just a bit of addition to the episode "Furt". Inspired by lyrics from "Everybody's Fool" by Evanesence
"If you told anyone what?" Sue asks*
I look over at Karofsky as I try to decide how to answer the question. As I try to decide whether to reveal everything that has gone on. To reveal the real reason behind Karofsky's increased bullying as of late.
I can see fear in his eyes as he looks back at me. He's expecting me to reveal the truth I realize. Expects me to out him. To tell our fathers and Sue that he kissed me in the locker room. To tell everyone that he's gay too.
I realize how much easier things would be if I did that. Realize that I would get Karofsky and some of the others off my back because Karofsky would be the newest target. And it's that realization that tells me that I can't do that. I won't be responsible for putting someone else through what I've been through. I won't out Karofsky despite everything he's done to me.
"Just . . . that he was picking on me,"* I reply, hoping that the adults will leave it at that.
Dave gives an audible sigh. "He's making all this stuff up,"* Karofosky insists, clinging to the illusion of the tough guy that he has created for himself.
I can see through the illusion now. Know that he's bullying me because he sees himself in me and he doesn't like himself very much. Despite everything that he has put me through, there is a part of me that feels sorry for him. Maybe if he didn't terrify me so much I'd be willing to reach out and help him. Find a way for him to see himself in a better light.
As things are though, all I want is as much distance between the two of us as I can get. I want to be able to live my life without continually looking over my shoulder and jumping at loud noises.
*Dialogue from "Furt"