Disclaimer: Sadly, I do NOT own the show "Lost". However, I do own my Original Character ( Kennedy White ), as well as her background, and her plot on the island.
Author's note: I'm so excited! I can't believe I've made it to chapter 14. I am truly in love with this story and KennedyxSawyer. I know that the pairing is really strange and Kennedy isn't the type of person that you'd see Sawyer going after . . . but the story has grown on me and I hope all of my fans feel the same way. I can't wait for you to read this chapter and to get some feedback on really makes my day when fans give me a review telling me how much they enjoy reading this Fic. It makes me so happy you don't even know. So, I really hope you like this chapter guys. Enjoy! :)
{Kennedy's POV}
I opened the door to my new dorm room, while trying to carry three suitcases full of maternity clothes.
"Oh, let me help." A short, blonde girl with an Australian smiled as she jumped off her bed. She took two of my bags and set them next to the unoccupied bed next to the window. I noticed that she had a slim figure, all except for her stomach.
"This was my bed, but when I heard that you were going to be my new roomie, I wanted you to have the window view." The girl was so bubbly. It surprised me given her situation.
"Oh, um, thank you." I forced a smile. I took my teal suitcase and placed it on my new bed.
"Oh, your American! That's so neat." She grinned from ear to ear as she sat in front of me on her bed. "So, is Kennedy your last name?" She wondered, glancing at the name on my suitcase.
"Um, no. It's my first name." I looked down at my feet shyly. Looking back up at my roommate, she had her head slightly cocked to the side.
"That's actually very pretty. My name's Christie." I smiled sheepishly at her comment and I bit my lip a little.
Looking the girl over a little more closely, I noticed a cross necklace around her neck and she wore a WWJD bracelet on her right wrist. That and the fact that her name was Christie gave me the idea that she was a Christian. A pregnant Christian girl who couldn't be over seventeen.
"So, um, how far along are you?" She asked me very politely, smiling at my stomach that now had a clear bulge.
"Uh, twenty weeks. I think?" I answer her uncertainly.
"Really? I'm thirty two weeks." Christie said proudly. "Do you know what you're having?" She asked. I hadn't really thought about that, it didn't really matter to me.
"No. I haven't seen a doctor since I before I left home." I admit honestly. Christie nodded.
"Well, how about we make an appointment to see. The school has its own doctor and all of your ultrasounds are free." My roommate insisted. I wasn't sure if I wanted to know. I didn't feel anything for . . . it. But I guess it couldn't hurt, at least I wouldn't have to call this baby an 'it' anymore.
"Okay." I smile.
xXx
When I woke up, I didn't have that agonizing pain in my chest like before. But the memory did irritate the scar on my heart. I didn't want the chance to fall back to sleep, so I got up. I was amazed at how different morning time looked in the jungle surrounding the cave. It was foggy and darker than the beach since the sun was blocked out by the plant life.
"Hey." Kate greeted me. She seemed much more energetic than I did. "You okay? You look tired."
"Yeah, yeah. I woke up a few times last night." I lied. She bought my story though. "You heading back to the beach?"
"Well, I thought go find some fruit to bring back to everybody first."
"Oh. Well, I can help. The more we can get, the better." I offered, feeling like it was the least I could do.
"You sure?" She asked with a warm smile.
"Mhm. I saw some banana trees on my way here yesterday. I can show you where I found them."
"Okay." The girl added before gathering up her backpack. I was glad that I finally had a job to do and that Kate believed that I was able to do it.
I went over to the spring to refill my water bottle when I saw Jack with Sayid. The dark-skinned man seemed to be bleeding from the back of his head while the doctor was taking a look at it.
"Looks like you crossed the line with somebody." I said to Sayid indifferently while I filled the bottle up with water. The man eyed me, but I turned around and started out of the cave. Sayid deserved it.
xXx
I'd found the bananas again. Kate cut two stems down and we each carried one over our shoulder. It was kinda heavy for me, but I didn't want her thinking that I couldn't do something as simple as getting bananas.
We decided that walking along the beach to camp would be faster than going back through the jungle. It was clearer out here, no fog or trees to block out the sun.
We hadn't walked far before finding a small pile of stuff lying in the sand. When we came upon it, I found that it a pair of clothes, a pack of cigarettes and a lighter, and a book with a rabbit on the cover. Now, who wore boots, smoked, and liked to read? Curiously, Kate picked up the thick paperback and examined it for a moment.
"Hell of a book!" We heard that familiar voice to our left. There, crouched down in the water, was Sawyer. He gave us a smile as he stood up. The water's surface barely came up to his lower waist.
Kate tossed the book down as the man stepped up onto the beach. All the blood rushed to my face when I realized that he was completely naked. I had butterflied in my stomach and I even felt a little dizzy. I quickly looked to my feet, though I'd already gotten a peak. Oh. My. God.
"It's about bunnies." He said as he continued to walk toward us. He didn't seem embarrassed at all, but hell he had no reason to be.
"Must be cold without your trunks." Kate teased him.
"You bet. Might need someone to come over here and warm me up." Sawyer said as he pulled on his pants. I felt that it was safe enough to look at him now.
"You sure know how to make a girl feel special, Sawyer." I saw Kate narrow her eyes as she readjusted the banana stem on her shoulder.
"Oh don't flatter yourself, Freckles." The blonde said after Kate had already started to walk away. He turned to me and winked. Nervously, I lowered my eyes and kept walking. Kate was beautiful so I knew he had to be just teasing me. He was only teasing, right?
xXx
{Jack's POV}
"This is gonna hurt." I warned Sayid before carefully pressing the damp cloth onto the cut in the back of his head. The man didn't have any other scrapes on him that would've suggested him stumbling and landing on a rock.
"Ready to tell me what happened?" I asked.
"We were trying to find the source of the distress call." He started. "I saw the flare from the beach, and then the flare from Sawyer's position in the jungle. I switched on my antenna, activated the transceiver, and then, darkness." He explained.
I paused a moment to try to think through the information I'd just heard.
"However hit me came from behind." The man added. This was meant to be a surprise attack.
"And destroyed the equipment?" I guessed.
"Yes." Sayid nodded. I wasn't exactly positive about who would have done this, but I had my suspicions.
"Listen, we're gonna figure this out, but don't do-"
"I will do what I need to do to find the person responsible." Sayid interrupted as he looked me in the eye very seriously. The way he put his words led me to think that he might have his suspicions too.
"Anyone in particular, you think?" I asked him.
"We were the only ones in the jungle that I know about." He began. I instantly connected the dots.
"And Kate was on her way here, so Sawyer was the closest one to you." I started, but Sayid shook his head.
"That girl, Kennedy, was with them."
"So, Kennedy would have been able to fire the flare and turn on that antenna while Sawyer was on his way to you." I guessed again. Still, Sayid didn't seem convinced with that.
"She went with us when we tried to get a signal on the radio a few days ago, I watched her. The girl can't climb. Whoever was at the third flare had to fire it off and then quickly climb up into the tree to turn on the antenna." The dark-skinned man suggested. I had an idea of what he was getting at, but I wasn't sure.
"What are you saying?" I pressed, hoping he wasn't about to tell me what I thought he was. Instead, he just gave me one of those looks.
"You think Kennedy attacked you?" I couldn't believe it. When he nodded, I only smiled.
"I'm not sure we're talking about the same girl, here. She's a sweetheart, she wouldn't hurt anybody." I said confidently. In the time that I'd spent with Kennedy so far, I'd learned a lot about her. She was very shy and insecure. The sweetest person that I'd met on this island. And to think that she could ever hurt someone was unreal, not only because I believed her to be physically incapable, but I didn't think she had it in her.
"She doesn't like me." He was whispering now. "And there's something going on between her and Sawyer. They were together when they met up with us in the jungle. I've seen the way they look at each other and it's not good, Jack."
All of this stuff that Sayid was telling me was shocking. I knew that Sawyer kept showing up around Kennedy more and more, but I didn't think anything of it before. I figured Sawyer to be a lot of things, but a pedophile wasn't one of them. Until now.
"I believe that if he would try talking her into doing his dirty work for him, she would do it." Sayid whispered to me, confident in every word he spoke.
"Come to think of it, she was talking to Kate last night about having splinters in her hands. She said she'd got them from the jungle but . . ." I trailed off, realizing that it was making a little bit more sense.
"We need some help over here!" I heard a girl's voice. I looked over to see that blonde girl carrying Boone into the cave. His face was a bloody mess. Sayid and I hurried over and set him down.
"What happened?" I asked urgently. The kid looked up at me, still catching his breath.
"Sawyer." That name brought Sayid and I to exchange looks. There had been two occurrences now where Sawyer had been brought up.
xXx
"Jack, it's fine." Boone protested as I started to clean up his face. "It's just a scrape."
"Yeah. Lots of scrapes today." I replied stiffly and continued to doctor the cut. I went back to apply more medicine on the cloth as it there wasn't much on it to begin with. "I'm runnin' out of peroxide." I said mostly to myself.
"It was just Sawyer? No one else?" I added, wondering if Kennedy might have had anything to do with this too.
"No, one else. He just jumped me, man." Boone went on as I knelt in front of him again.
"Why?" I demanded. He hesitated.
"Shannon has asthma."
"Asthma?" I repeated, feeling surprised. I'd never seen her with an inhaler or anything. "I've never seen her have an attack before."
"'Cause she had an inhaler. She sneaks it when no one's looking. She's been embarrassed about it since she was a kid." He explained as I pressed the cloth to his forehead again. "I guess breathing's not cool." He winced. I caught the first words he said.
"Had an inhaler?" I repeated.
"It ran out a couple of days ago. But I had four refills. Should have been enough for a couple months, but she ALWAYS forgets her medication so I put it in my suitcase. Today, I see that jackass reading Watership Down-."
"You're loosing me." I say, trying to figure out what a book about rabbits had to do with Shannon's medicine.
"It was in my bags, the stuff that I checked." Boone informed me quickly. "If he has my book, he has my luggage. If he has the luggage, he has the inhalers."
All of that made perfect sense. We both looked at Shannon who clearly was panicked and seemed uncomfortable.
"Her breathing got really rough today, man. If she has an attack, it's not gonna be good." Boone looked me in the eye desperately.
"What's not gonna be good?" A quiet voice asked. Our eyes darted to a familiar red-haired girl in front of us. I was more surprised than usual about seeing Kennedy. I suppose Sayid's opinion of her made me change my own feelings about her. She quickly threw all of her attention to Boone.
"What happened?" She asked as she sat beside him. Her expression full of concern for the boy as if she were completely clueless, but she really did seem shocked.
"He was looking through Sawyer's private stash trying to find his sister's medicine. Sawyer attacked him." I summarized the whole conversation for her.
"What?!" She turned to me, her eyes wide and alarmed. Although I'd taken into consideration what Sayid has told me, Kennedy didn't act as if she had no idea about any of this.
"Damn, I forgot." Boone started digging into his pockets until he pulled out what appeared to be a wrinkled piece of paper and handed it to the girl. Her nervous fingers carefully unfolded what I discovered was a photograph. Kennedy must have been very familiar with it as I watched the blood drain from her face. I leaned closer to get a better view.
It was a picture of two girls. One was obviously Kennedy, and she had her arm wrapped around the shoulder of a brunette in a white cap and gown that shared her facial features.
"Where did you get this?" Kennedy asked, her blue eyes still staring at the photo.
"I found it in Sawyer's stash. Right next to your suitcase." Boone answered her. Kennedy's breathing hitched, she wasn't able to speak. I wasn't sure if she had anything to do with attacking Sayid, but I knew that she had nothing to do with what happened to Boone.
This made me even more angry at Sawyer. Not only did he have all of Kennedy's stuff, but he also had Shannon's medication which she desperately needed. That son of a bitch!
{Kennedy's POV}
Jack jumped up and stomped out of the cave. I snapped out of my frozen state to watch him leave, I knew exactly where he was going. Still, I was worried about Boone. I knew he was okay, but I couldn't believe Sawyer would do this to him.
"Hey." He smiled at me. "I told you I'd find your stuff."
God love him, he was the sweetest person. Not putting much thought into what I was doing, I pressed my lips to his cheek.
"Thank you." I whispered, the overwhelming feeling of shyness was starting to take over. I got up and started to follow they way that Jack had went.
xXx
I'd managed to keep up with Jack though I kept my distance knowing he was on edge. When he arrived to Sawyer's shelter he didn't hesitate in going through his stuff. I remained a few feet back, watching Sawyer quickly fold up a piece of paper.
"Where is it?" Jack demanded.
"Hey, doc. Long time no see." Sawyer muttered, hiding the paper.
"Where is it?!" Jack repeated, his impatience growing more and more.
"Where's what?"
"The girl's asthma medicine. Shannon, her inhalers. Kennedy's stuff, all of it." The doctor said, walking right up to the blonde.
"Oh that." He wasn't defensive, he didn't even act like he cared. As usual.
"You attacked a kid who was trying to help his sick sister."
"No, I whooped a thief 'cause he was going through my stuff." Sawyer corrected. He kept talking, but Jack was shouting over him. Even when Jack had finished yelling, Sawyer still went on about how he had a right to protect his property. That's what ticked me off. It wasn't his stuff, it was mine!
"Get up." Jack tried to control himself, but I half expected for the two to go at each other right there.
"Why, you wanna see who's taller?" The blonde grumbled sarcastically.
"Get up!" The man in front of him said again.
"You sure you wanna make this your problem, doc?" Sawyer tested.
"Oh yeah. I'm sure." By this point, I wasn't sure if Jack could contain himself anymore. But I knew that I couldn't.
Sawyer had stabbed me in the back and in the worst possible way. I could handle being confused and taunted by him, but taking everything that I had in the world was where I drew the line. As soon as he stood up is where I just lost it completely. I didn't even feel like me anymore as I stomped in front of him, not even giving him time to register what I might do. I threw a closed fist at his face, as hard as I could. I felt my knuckles hit his scruffy chin and I had never felt as good as I did in that split second of watching Sawyer stumble and nearly fall.
{Sawyer's POV}
HOLY FUCKIN' SHIT THAT HURT! Damn girl's got guts.
I turned to Kennedy, she looked like a deer in headlights. I took a second to wipe the blood from the corner of my mouth before I took a step closer to her. I almost tempted to shake her hand and say 'good job' for a punch like that.
"Leave her alone, Sawyer." Jackass stepped in between the two of us as if I was about to snap her neck. The fact that he thought I'd actually hurt her pissed me off more than him accuse me of hoarding a girl's medicine. I had the urge to knock his head off now.
"Hey." Freckles just had to friggin' show up. "What's going on her?"
At that point, Jack let off and stuck his damn tail between his legs. He walked off, taking Kennedy with him. The brunette followed them.I watched them leave, still trying to dismiss the throbbing in my jaw.
{Kennedy's POV}
"I'm gonna kill him." Jack spat as we walked down the beach.
"That's not gonna help get the medicine." Kate reminded him, closely tagging behind us.
"Maybe not, but it'll feel good."
"So what's stopping you?" Kate tested. Jack stopped, his breathing ragged and his eyes fierce.
"We're not savages, Kate. Not yet." He replied, pacing back and forth.
"Let me talk to Sawyer." The brunette insisted.
"What makes you think he's gonna listen to you?" The doctor demanded. "We both know that he's not interested in a damn thing either of us have to say."
"And you have a better idea?" Kate arched her brows, waiting to hear what kind of great idea that he had planned this time. Jack paused before looking at me. Kate and I knew what he was thinking.
"You've got to be kidding me." She spat doubtfully. I took offense to her statement. "No, there's no way I'm letting this happen."
"Call me crazy, Kate, but Kennedy knows Sawyer . . . a hell of a lot better than the rest of us. And we need to get that medicine." Jack told her basically the truth. I knew Sawyer better than she did and I don't think she was happy that someone was actually saying it to her face.
"Yeah, well I know that you're just giving Sawyer what he wants and putting her in danger. I saw what happened, and I saw how he reacted to it." Kate protested.
"Hey, I don't like this any better than you do. But the bottom line is that we have to get Shannon her medication and Kennedy is the only person that has a chance at getting through to Sawyer." Jack said, believing everything he said to be the truth of things. It felt weird having the two of them argue about me, but it was nice to know that Jack thought that I was capable of helping in other ways than searching for bananas. Kate stubbed up for a moment.
"Fine, but I'm going with her." She finally agreed. I knew she'd have to involve herself somehow, but it was a comprise I could live with.
xXx
I found Sawyer farther down the beach away from camp, and he was chopping up dead tree branches with an axe. Oh great! After what had happened not even half an hour ago, confronting Sawyer while he had something in his hand he could kill me with was just peachy.
I stopped at a conveniently placed tree, as if the distance from him made me feel any safer. Just going to have a nice little chat with him about the inhalers. Right.
"Sawyer." I worked up the courage to call to him from behind the safety of the tree. The sweaty man turned around to glance back before bringing his axe down on the helpless piece of wood that I was sure he imagined was me. When I didn't say anything else, Kate took a step forward.
"What do you want?" She asked. The blonde turned around again.
"Excuse me?"
"What do you want, Sawyer?" She repeated, making sure to define each word. I watched the man pause and half turn his body.
"Freckles, I got so many answers to that question I wouldn't even know where to start." Was his reply before returning to his current task.
"What do you want for the inhalers?" The girl beside me questioned. So much for me doing the talking. I mentally laughed at myself. I'm a coward and I know it.
At this, Sawyer paused.
"Ah, good question. Hang on a tick." He said before cutting into the branch again.
I had a bad feeling about what his answer might be.
"What do I want?" He thought aloud. He hesitated, catching his breath. Thinking. "A kiss oughta do it." He answered simply. I felt my stomach drop.
"What?" Kate seemed taken back as well. Sawyer turned around a third time, showing off that little smile of his.
"A kiss." He said again. That's when he turned his attention to me. "From you, right now."
Those words made the butterflies in my stomach go crazy. He wanted me to kiss him? The thought of it made me feel sick, but somehow in a good way. I saw Kate gaze at both of us.
"I don't buy it." She said with her lips formed into a witty smile. Dear God, what was there for her to buy? She really couldn't stand the thought of Sawyer being interested in anyone but her.
"Buy what?" Sawyer asked, going back to chopping the wood again.
"The act. You try too hard, Sawyer. I ask you to help a woman who can't breathe and you want Kennedy to kiss you?" She went on doubtfully. "Nobody's that disgusting."
I felt like Kate was the one stabbing me in the back now. After last night, I thought that she'd have a different attitude, but the jealousy was clear in her voice and she was pathetically trying to cover it up by throwing Sawyer under the bus. She didn't know him at all, and this was her way of trying to earn brownie points?
"I've seen you, ya know." She eyed him carefully.
"Seen me what?" The man asked indifferently.
"With that piece of paper, the one you keep in your pocket. I've seen the expression on your face when you read it. How carefully you fold it up. It means something to you." She spoke slowly, just trying to hit a nerve now. Judging by the way Sawyer brought the axe down on the wood, I'd say she was spot on.
"Kate, stop. Let's just go." I said, hoping that she would leave him alone.
"So you can play games all you want, but I know there's a human being buried down in there somewhere." She finished, all the while completely ignoring what I'd just said. "Give me the medication." She begged.
Again, Sawyer stopped what he was doing and half turned.
"You think you understand me." I could tell how tense he was by the way he spoke. He was getting angry.
"Yeah." Kate answered confidently. "I think I have a-"
"Shut up!" Sawyer growled, glaring at her. Oh God. I took another step further behind the tree as he came towards us. I was a little less afraid when he threw the axe down though.
"You wanna know what kinda human being I am?" He questioned, getting right in Kate's face. She stepped back, feeling intimidated now. The blonde man tore a folded up paper out of his pocked and offered it to her, his eyes filled with so much anger. "Read it."
When Kate didn't respond, he forced the paper into her hand.
"Read it." He growled again. "Out loud, so she can hear it too."
He glanced at me, then quickly back to the other girl. He stared at her as she started to read what the paper said.
"Dear Mr. Sawyer, you don't know who I am, but I know who you are and I know what you've done. You had sex with my mother, and then you stole my dad's money all away. So he got angry and he killed my mother, and then he killed himself too." Kate read before trying to give Sawyer the letter back, but he protested.
"Don't stop now. Gettin' to the good part." His eyes were red and glossy. All I could do now was look at him, I felt frozen. Kate continued to read the note.
"All I know is your name, but one of these days I'm gonna find you and I'm gonna give you this letter so you'll remember what you done to me. You killed my parents, Mr. Sawyer." The last sentence that she read, she sounded like she was choking up.
Sawyer took the paper from her hands and looked at me again. I watched him come closer to me until he was now in my face. I couldn't look him in the eye, so I looked down. I felt like I'd gotten the wind knocked out of me. Feeling him breathing down on me made me uncomfortable now when moments ago I was desperate for it.
"Now, about that kiss." His deep voice made my body shudder uneasily.
My throat was so dry that I couldn't speak, but my answer still might have been yes. His hand came up and slowly moved a few strands of hair out of my face. I shied away from him a little, but only because I was nervous. Noticing the way I flinched at him, Sawyer put his hand down.
"I didn't think so." He whispered before slowly walking away from me. The air around me was instantly not as thick. I sighed, feeling relieved and disappointed all at the same time. Maybe I didn't know Sawyer any better than Kate did.