AN: Inspired by lyrics from "Hit Or Miss" by New Found Glory
I stared down on the smooth grey gravestone, the familiar words I had chosen to have etched in the stone over eight years ago. The marble was clean and fresh flowers graced the vase in front of it - Kurt had started making sure there were always fresh flowers ever since he started high school. It was one of those things that I knew about him, that I chose to keep to myself. Like how I had known he was gay long before he admitted it.
"You'd be so proud of our little boy, Kathleen," I said softly, knowing in my heart that she was aware of what I was saying. "He's the one that showed me how lonely we've been and maybe it wasn't his exact intentions but he found two other people who have been just as lonely. Oh, I know things aren't going to be smooth sailing just because I say the words "I do", my time with you showed me that but the four of us will find ways to enrich each others lives. How to live my life for others is something else that you showed me how to do. I'll never forget our time together - from the moment I showed you the heart with our names in it that I had carved on the bridge in the park to the day I held your hand and whispered a tearful good-bye. I love Carole, Kathleen, but she'll never replace what I felt for you. You were my first love."
Reaching up, I wiped away the few tear drops that were slipping from my eyes. It was time that I let go of the time I had shared with Kathleen and moved on. I couldn't live my life for her anymore but I still had my son to live for. He deserved a true family again as did Finn.
Turning away, I walked across the cemetery to the gate. This wasn't good-bye. I knew I would be back again soon, and perhaps next time my new wife would be at my side.