AN: It's amazing how many drabbles I managed to write off the episode "Furt". Here is yet another one. Inspired by lyrics by "Untitled" by Simple Plan
As I watch him walk out of the choir room, I know that I'm a part of why he is leaving. Part of the reason there were tears in his eyes as he turned away and all I want to do is make things right but it's too late now. It's clear that there will be no changing Kurt's mind - he's convinced that Dalton is the only place he'll feel safe, and perhaps he's right. Despite his defense of me this week, how can Kurt feel safe in a school where his own stepbrother had been a part of the bullying.
It wasn't just not standing up for him either. I was guilty of bullying him. It wasn't that I really wanted to. I had felt bad about throwing pee balloons at him and tossing him into the dumpster but I had given into peer pressure. I went along with those things because I wanted to be cool. Even now, I had done the same thing. I wouldn't stand up to Karofsky because I was afraid my teammate would make me look bad on the field.
When had I become that kind of person. When had popularity become so important to me. I missed the days when I was younger where I'd just come to school, do my schoolwork, have fun with my friends and go home. Maybe we pulled a girl's braid to get her attention or hid a friends school book when he wasn't looking, but back then I would never have thought of myself as a bully - we were just having fun. It had been meant for laugh and not to hurt someone.
But somewhere along the line, that had changed. I had started caring more about what the 'cool' kids thought of me and less about the type of person that I was. I couldn't change the last few years, but I could change myself. I had made a promise to Kurt at our parents' wedding, and it was time I started living up to it. Having his back didn't just mean standing up for him in the hallways, it meant supporting him through the hard decisions and leaving McKinley couldn't be easy for him. Instead of continuing to question that decision, when I got home tonight I planned on asking what I could do to make that transition easier on him.