AN: Inspired by lyrics from "Reasons" by New Found Glory
I reach up and wipe away the tear drops that are falling, wondering why I'm so upset. Sure they've all banded around me the last couple of weeks, but where were they before that. Where were they last year when Karofsky and Azimio started their bullying. Finn had stood up for me briefly and I thought things would get better but when those two started in again, Finn was nowhere to be found. Puck might not have been tossing me into dumpsters but he didn't stop the other jocks from doing so. Where were they when Karofsky threatened to kill me. Even Mr. Schuester and the other teachers hadn't done much to protect me. Instead of disciplining those doing the bullying I get a lecture about how my attitude is changing.
Perhaps if they had to live in fear of getting beat up everyday, of being called names simply because of who you are they wouldn't criticize my attitude. Perhaps they would understand that the sarcasm is my only shield in a world where so many people hate who you are. Would understand the loneliness of being overlooked and underappreciated.
Maybe they were finally starting to accept me for me but it was too late. Finally getting a competition solo now was too late. For so long the only thing about me that had been recognized was my talent, but I was so much more than just an unique vocal range.
Perhaps that would be recognized at Dalton or maybe I would just blend in with the rest of the other uniform clad teens. Either way, at least I wouldn't have to live in fear of rounding a corner. Live in fear of the threats turning physical. Wouldn't have to remember to bring a change of clothes in case I ended up in a dumpster or had a slushy thrown in my face.
For so long I have struggled to take the high road. To try to see the good in all those around me. Struggled to hold my head up high despite never feeling like I belong and I'm tired of it. Perhaps I'm running away but so be it. Dalton is a new opportunity for me, and I'm going to have the courage to explore it.