AN: This was written before Season 4 started so I guess it's an AU good-bye for Burt and Kurt. Hope you enjoy it. Inspired by lyrics from "I Walk The Line" by Johnny Cash
I watched the train pull out of the station, heading toward New York City and taking my boy away from everything he had known for the last eighteen years. I've always know this day would come but now that it has I'm frozen. I know I have my own flight to catch back in D.C. but even as the train pulls out of sight, I continue to stare at the empty tracks.
If it hadn't been for Kurt, I would have given up ten years ago. Staring at the fresh dirt covering Kathleen's casket, all I had wanted to do was collapse on the ground and cry. To stop living myself because I couldn't see how I could go on without her. And then I had remembered the small hand that was gripped protectively in mind. Looking away from the grave I saw the shattered expression of our little boy and I knew that I couldn't give into the emptiness I felt. I had to hold things together and go on for him.
Whether he realizes it or not, Kurt is the reason I went on after Kathleen's death. The reason I bottled up all my grief and kept on with the routine of daily living. Making sure that he was safe and had everything he needed and most of what he wanted became my reason for living. He was my world and if it hadn't been for him introducing me to Carol, I never would have considered opening my heart up to anyone else. It was like he had given me approval to open my heart to someone else.
And having Carole in our lives, as well as Finn, had been good for Kurt too. They were able to give Kurt what I couldn't - a mother figure to help with the emotional downs that I had always felt in over my head dealing with, and a brother to be his ally.
I feel an arm slip through mine, and look down at Carole. I know then that although I'll be there for Kurt whatever he may need, things have changed now. Kurt is ready to stand on his own, or with Blaine by his side if that's what the two of them finally decide upon. Carole is my world now and I find that I'm okay with that. Just like I had provided for Kurt while he was growing up, my little boy has provided me with another reason for living as he steps out of my life to chase his dreams.