After admiring and being in love with Sulu from afar for so long it was amazing to finally be able to touch him and to kiss him outside of my imagination. I wanted to take things slow but that didn't make it any less enjoyable to be able to kiss him gently at the end of a long day or to feel his arms wrap around me gently in a hug for no reason in particular. I loved everything about our new relationship.

After being together for almost two months everyone on the ship knew we were together. We were still moving slow, never moving past a heavy makeout session because I wanted to be sure before we went farther. I knew I loved him but not only did I want to be sure that he felt the same I was also warned by Kirk and McCoy that we should move slow in case things changed. They went into a huge explanation on how feeling sometimes changed and how they wanted me to be sure so I didn't regret anything.

I respected them enough that I listened and waited. Sulu and I had just passed our two month mark of dating when I decided we had waited long enough. We were currently docked at a starstation and would be over the weekend as repairs were done to the Enterprise. I thought it was fitting seeing as we had gotten together because of being docked at a starstation.

Sulu and I were both off and had been for the past two days we had been docked at the starstation. I had thought we would have spent time together over the past two days but I had barely seen Sulu. I didn't let that get me down though. I threw myself into getting things ready for the time we finally had sex. I wanted nothing more than to make it special for the both of us.

I spent the day running around and getting the things I thought we would need; candles, condoms, lube, wine, and some of Sulu's favorite chocolates. As the day wore on and got closer to night I finished gathering the supplies, trying to steadfastly avoid Kirk and McCoy because I didn't want the 'talk' from them.

At seven o'clock I sent a message to Sulu, asking him to come over to my room at seven thirty. I hoped that he finished whatever had been keeping him so busy lately and was able to come. I worried a little when I got no reply saying whether or not he was coming but I just shrugged it off and put my trust in him.

Seven thirty passed by with no sign of Sulu and no message to tell me he wasn't coming. I felt slightly hurt about that but I simply shrugged it off again thinking it he maybe got distracted in the botany lab on a project or something similar. As eight o'clock rolled by I decided to go find him, to figure out if he was going to come at all or not.

I went off searching for my boyfriend with a smile, slightly excited to find him. I waved happily at the crewmembers I passed as I made my way towards the botany lab. I was excited to find Sulu and to tell him I was ready to take our relationship to the next step. He had been so patient with me about it and I was finally ready. I knew he would be happy though he never once complained.

I was practically skipping when I reached the botany lab and went inside. My heart fell slightly when I went in and he wasn't in there. It fell even more when I was told that he had not been in at all the two days we had been off in fact. I couldn't think of what else would keep him away completely for two days. If he was sick McCoy would tell me, if he was assigned to something Kirk would tell me, if he was off ship I would also be informed. This was the only thing that had made sense.

I gave a sigh as I made my way to his room, hoping that everything was okay. I knocked on his door quietly before walking in. We were at that point in our relationship where we simply walked into each other's rooms without waiting for an invitation.

I regretted just walking in instantly when I saw my boyfriend, the man I loved in bed with someone. They were both naked and in the middle of the very thing I had planned for Sulu and me.

Tears stung my eyes as I felt my heart break. Sulu was cheating on me. I thought he loved me as much as I loved him but I had caught him cheating on me. I stood there watching for a moment, my mind not quite believing what I was seeing before it set in and I turned and ran, tears in my eyes.

The tears flowed easily and quickly down my face as my heart broke. I couldn't believe the person I loved more than anything in the universe had done this to me. I thought things had been going good between us. I couldn't believe I had been so naïve.

Arms wrapped around me, halting my mad dash down the hall towards my room. "Whoa there kiddo," McCoy said a laugh in his voice before he noticed the tears. "Are you okay Pavel? What happened?" His voice turned to one of pure concern as he studied me, checking for wounds.

I threw my arms around the man I considered to be like a father, sobbing against his shoulder. I felt him stiffen a little before his arms wrapped around me, one hand rubbing my back soothingly. "Easy there, I've got you. Come on, lets go to Kirk's quarters and talk about what happened." He said as he started leading me in the direction of the captain's quarters. I knew that it was actually both of their quarters now, McCoy having moved in a month ago.

I nodded weakly as I followed behind him, dazedly doing as he told me once we reached their quarters and sitting down while he got me a tumbler of whiskey. As he did that he also called Kirk though I didn't register what he said.

I blinked in surprise when Kirk came bursting into his quarters, a worried look on his face. "What happened?" He asked as he sat down next to me, pulling me into a hug. If I wasn't so heartbroken from Sulu's betrayal I would have smiled at their love for me.

I rubbed at the tears flowing from my eyes, trying to stem the flow as I began to tell them what happened. "I went to go find Sulu and when he wasn't in the botany lab I went to check his room. I haven't seen him these past two days so I thought he had been in the lab, just getting lost in his work like he does sometimes. I wish that had been what happened." I started to sob so much I missed the glance McCoy and Kirk shared over my head while Kirk held me protectively against him while McCoy rubbed my back gently. "I found him in his room and… he was cheating on me. He was having sex with someone. I walked in and saw it."I buried my face in my hands as I cried.

"I'm going to kill him." Kirk growled as he stood up, storming towards the door.

~Please, please don't hate me. This killed me to write. I hated hurting Chekov. Please R and R or I'll kill everyone off. This is a hostage situation!~