~Sorry this is so short. I will try to write more next time. Let me know what you think.~
I lay curled up in my bed as I sobbed before deciding to dip into my stash of real Russian Vodka. I wanted nothing more than to make the pain go away. The first sip of the vodka burned as it went down but it was a good pain. It heated me up when at first all I felt was numb and cold.
I downed the first tumbler of it with ease, enjoying the warmth that was spreading through my body and fighting back the cold of heartbreak. The next tumbler I threw back just as quickly to try and wash away the memory of the man I loved having sex with someone else. I was relieved I didn't see who the other person was or what sex they were. I couldn't help but think that the sex of the person would make it hurt all the more.
The next tumbler went down with ease, not even burning this time. I sighed sadly and downed another tumbler before giving up on it completely and drinking out of the bottle itself. I leaned back against the wall as I drank directly from the bottle. I had a good tolerance to alcohol so I was grateful for my supply of Russian Vodka. The alcohol percent was high enough that by the time I was halfway done with the bottle I was well on my way to being drunk. I wasn't feeling anymore pain as the alcohol soothed it all away.
It was because of the lack of pain that I left my room, stumbling down the hall with the half-empty bottle in my hand. I didn't know where I was going as I stumbled along the halls of the ship. I wasn't feeling any pain as I walked around and started singing 'Look It Up' at the top of my lungs. I was oblivious to the looks I was getting from the crew members. If I had noticed those looks I would have known they were going to call Jim or Bones.
I was drinking from the bottle as I walked, swaying unsteadily when I was found by Bones. "What the hell are you doing kid?!" the doctor snapped, yanking the bottle from my hands.
I reached for the bottle half heartedly. "'imme that. 's mine." I slurred as I tried to get the bottle back. Bones studded me for a moment before grabbing my arm.
"How much did you drink Pavel?" He asked, concerned. I leaned against him heavily as I followed where he was leading. I was so out of it that I didn't notice we were heading towards the medical bay.
"'twas only 'alf da bottle." I slurred with a giggle.
Of course that made Bones swear quite colorfully. "Dammit kid. You can get alcohol poisoning from that!" I blinked at him, startled. I stumbled back a step. He rubbed the back of his neck with his free hand as he half-carried me to the medical bay. "I'm sorry kid. I just don't want you getting alcohol poisoning. You won't like getting your stomach pumped and I don't want to do it to you, not after the day you're having."
His voice was kind and I relaxed, leaning against him with a smile. "Ты мне нравишься костей." I didn't notice I had switched to talking in Russian as I told Bones I liked him. He looked at me concerned as we entered the Medical Bay.
As we entered Jim quickly stands up and yanks the curtain around one of the bio-beds, blocking the person in the bed from my sight. He came over to where Bones was holding me up, wrapping his arm around my waist to help get me to a bio-bed. "I got him if you want to get to doctoring." He said to his boyfriend.
Bones went to get a hypospray that will counteract the effects of the alcohol rushing through my system. As Jim sets me down on a bio-bed I start singing again, at the top of my lungs. "The vord iz faithful, look it up! It don't mean sneakin' around behind my back like you ain't getting' enough! How 'bout forever, just look it up. It means through thick and thin and pitchin' in even vhen the times get tough!"
Jim looked at me worried as I sprawled out on the bio-bed. I was giggling and singing, the alcohol finally making me forget my pain. He patted my arm gently, soothingly. He tensed up a little as he heard the curtain he had closed opening.
"Pavel?" Sulu's voice cut right through the numbness of the alcohol causing the pain to flair back up. Tears filled my eyes as I looked at Jim in a panic. He put himself between the man who broke my heart and me.
"Lieutenant Sulu. I recommend you return to your bio-bed." Jim's voice was ice cold with anger. I chanced a glance at Sulu, noticing he was beat up with a certain amount of glee. I grabbed onto Jim's hand to ground myself.
"What happened to Pavel? Are you okay honey?" He asked as he took another step forward, I tightened my grip on Jim's hand as if that could protect me from the pain. The term of endearment cut deep, making a sob escape my throat.
"Return to your bio-bed Lieutenant!" Jim snarled as Bones hurried to return to where we all were gathered. I was clinging onto Jim's hand for all I was worth, choked sobs escaping my mouth.
"Not until someone tells me what's wrong with Pavel!" Sulu yelled as he took another step forward. Bones stepped in front of him, grabbing a hypospray and jabbing it into his neck. Sulu collapsed to the ground in a heap.
Bones turned to me, a worried look on his face. "It's okay Pavel." He came over to my side with another hypospray. "This will counteract the effects of the alcohol and help you sleep." His voice was kind as he gently gave me the hypospray. Jim stroked the back of my hand gently.
"Thank you." I muttered, starting to feel the effects of the hypospray. Doziness started to consume my mind and body before I was drifting off to sleep peacefully. As I drifted off to sleep Bones had a few nurses take Sulu back to his bio-bed.
~The song is 'Look it Up' by Ashton Shepherd~