~Sorry this took so long to post. I'm getting ready to graduate from college so its hectic. I'll post as I can~

When I woke up in the medical bay a few hours later I didn't have a hangover thanks to the hypospray Bones had stabbed me with. My mind was clear though which made my heart ache as memories of Sulu's betrayal came back in stunning detail. Tears flooded my eyes as I lay in the bio-bed, my heart racing as an almost physical pain consumed my body.

I sobbed quietly, curling up in a ball on the bed. I tried keeping it quiet so I wouldn't alert Bones, who I knew was around somewhere. I also didn't want to bother the people around me, if there was anyone around. My shoulders shook with the force of my sobs.

I didn't notice as Sulu crept towards my bio-bed carefully. He was keeping an eye out for Jim and Bones because they would physically keep him away from me. He was beside my bed before I noticed him, his hand coming down on my shoulder from behind, scaring me.

"Pavel? Are you okay?" Sulu asked quietly. I spun around and stared at him in panic, my heart breaking all over again. I stared at him with wide eyes filled with tears, scrambling away from him. "Pavel, what's wrong?" He reached out towards me, eyes filled with confusion and hurt as I shirked away from him.

I tried to make my voice strong as I told him "Get away from me. Please." My voice shook, tears choking me. "Get away or I'll call Bones." I was pressed against the arm of the bio-bed, as far away from Sulu as I could get.

His expression was one of hurt and confusion as he stopped reaching towards me and pulled his hand back to his side. "Why? What did I do?" He asked as if he didn't know what he had done which only served to make me angry instead of barely holding myself together.

I sat up and stared at him angrily. "What did you do?! You can really ask me that?! You are a cheating, low life, heart breaking, douche bag!" My voice raising as I kept going, his eyes widening at the venom in my voice.

"What do you mean?" He asked me quietly even as Bones and Jim came out of Bones' office at the noise.

"What do I mean?!" I screamed, my voice breaking as a sob built up in my throat. Bones and Jim hurried up to my bed, anger on their faces even as Sulu took a scared step back.

Bones put his hand on my shoulder comfortingly. "It's okay Pavel. Calm down kid." His voice was soothing and quiet even with the anger I knew was radiating through him. Jim stepped between my bed and Sulu.

"If you want to have this discussion you will sit your ass down on the bio-bed over there and not get any closer to Pavel. You take one step towards Pavel and not only will you not get to finish this conversation but you will be off this ship." Jim's voice was filled with venom as he stood protectively in front of me.

I was slightly in awe of how protective he was of me and if my heart wasn't breaking it would have made me smile. Sulu took a few steps and sat on the indicated bio-bed, his eyes showing his slight fear even as he nodded his understanding.

Once Jim was satisfied with where Sulu was he sat down on the bio-bed next to me, wrapping a protective arm around me as Bones does the same on my other side. They glared at Sulu even as they comforted me.

"Now what do you mean 'What did I do'? Are you that much of an idiot or does breaking the heart of the person who loves you mean so little that you can't remember it?" Bones snapped, his hand rubbing soothing circles on my back.

Sulu sat up straight in the bed across from us, his eyes widening. "I didn't do anything!" he yelled.

Jim's arm tightened around me as if to restrain himself from going over there and killing Sulu. "Really?" I asked as my voice cracked. "So you don't consider having sex with someone else while in a relationship anything?"

I was shaking from the amount of pain I was feeling, Bones and Jim both holding me close. Sulu looked shocked by what I said. "I never cheated on you!" Sulu yelled as he stood up. Jim quickly stood up and put himself between Sulu and me again while Bones pulled me closer to him protectively. Sulu quickly sat back down as Jim stepped towards him threateningly.

"So you don't call sleeping with someone else while in a relationship cheating?" I demanded angrily. Jim sat back down beside me, tense with barely contained anger. Sulu just looked confused. "I saw you having sex with someone else. I know it was you too! I saw you."

"I didn't cheat on you!" Sulu yelled, pain seeping into his voice. I couldn't understand why he was doing this to me. Not only had he cheated on me but he didn't have the decency to admit to it when I confronted him about it. Tears welled in my eyes again.

Bones put a hand on my shoulder, his face thoughtful. He stood up and grabbed a tricorder, walking towards Sulu. He scanned Sulu quickly, a curious expression on his face. "That's odd." He muttered as he looked at the scan.

I looked at him curiously, biting my lip nervously. "What is it Bones?" I asked quietly. Jim tightened his arm around me as he rubbed my back.

"There seems to be some sort of pheromone in his system." Bones muttered as he looked thoughtfully at his scanner. "It could cause memory loss after it caused sexual attraction and the need to mate."

I bit my lip nervously, hope blossoming in my chest. "What does that mean?" Jim asked, rubbing circles on my back.

Bones turned to look at me, sympathy shining in his eyes. "It means that what happened wasn't Sulu's doing. It was caused by a pheromone most likely secreted by the person who then slept with him." He explained as he sat back down next to me.

I looked at Bones in shock before turning to look at Sulu. "So… He didn't cheat on me?" I asked worriedly, to scared to hope.

Bones nodded, rubbing my back. "He didn't. That would explain why he didn't remember it either. He didn't mean to hurt you." His voice was soft.

I covered my mouth, tears burning my eyes. "I'm so sorry Hikaru." I sobbed quietly, leaning against Jim a little. Sulu stood up and took a few tentative steps towards me, looking at Jim as if worried he was going to hit him.

He kneeled in front of me and put a hand on me knee. "It's not your fault Pavel. I don't know whose fault it is but it really isn't yours. I just wish you hadn't had to go through that. I hate seeing you hurt." He said as he grabbed my hand, stroking the back gently. "I love you Pavel. I would never do anything to hurt you on purpose."

I slid out from between Jim and Bones to throw my arms around Sulu's neck, pulling him into a tight hug as I cried against his shoulder a little. "I'm so sorry Hikaru. I love you so much."