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Chapter Twenty-Eight.
The next day I was sat waiting for the doctor to come and give me the all clear, I knew I needed to get away from here for a while but with Reid needing someone there for him and Hotch opening up to me last night… Well let's say I'm so bloody confused. I rubbed my fingers through my hair, careful not to press too hard on the tender areas. Physically I was a little bloody and bruised, mentally? That's a whole different ball park and that's why I feel that I need my own space to try and piece myself back together again.
"Miss Davis?" The doctor walked in and I raised my eyes from the pale blue blanket on my lap.
"Yes?" I asked, still slightly lost in my own thoughts.
"We've checked all your bloods and scan results, you seem to be doing incredibly well." He took a step towards me and took out his little torch light from his pocket, checking my pupil reaction. "I think we'd have no cause to keep you any longer."
I smiled at him, blinking repeatedly to get my eyes to readjust. "That's great, thank you for all your help."
He smiled down at me and shook my hand. "No problem, I'll get the nurse to come in and help you prepare for discharge." He turned and walked away, leaving me sat there in silence again, listening to the back and forth decision battle that seemed to go on in my head. I let out a little growl in frustration, bringing the blanket up to muffle most of the sound. Why can't this be easy, why did I have to bond with people – why did I have to have a crazy psychopathic serial killer abduct me. I shook my head into the blanket until I heard a small cough, the blanket in my hands dropping to see Morgan and Prentiss standing at the end of the bed.
"Everything okay Red?" Morgan asked, slight concern on his face.
"Oh, just great." I replied sarcastically, wanting to pull out my own hair. "How's Reid…?"
"You haven't spoken to him?" Prentiss said as she placed a bag of my things on the end of the bed.
"Not since he found out I might be going back to England…" I paused, looking at the bag. "Thanks for picking this up for me." I smiled at Prentiss and she ignored that and raised her eyebrows.
"You're leaving?"
I looked at her, my mouth slightly agape as I tried to think what was best to say next - I would've thought Hotch might have spread the word by now. Morgan took this opportunity of silence to speak.
"Red you can't leave, We've just got you back."
"Okay you two aren't making this decision for me any easier. I just need some time away from all this, I need time to piece together whatever state my mind is right now…" I looked down sadly and they remained quiet. "I don't want to go but I also don't think I can do what I need to do here, there are too many reminders…"
Prentiss took my hand and squeezed as I shuddered, my eyes lifting to look at her face. "Clara, you know we will support whatever decision you make. We will just miss having you around that's all."
"Yeah Red, as much as I'd hate to see you go…" he wrapped his arm around me and kissed he top of my head. "I'll be right here whenever you get back."
I looked up and him and smiled, trying to hold back my tears. I think I just made up my mind.
I was now back at my flat, my eyes scanning my living room as I dropped my bag on the floor. Hotch followed up with organising the flight back to England and I'm going tomorrow. I'm going to be away for a couple of months and Strauss has agreed to let me keep my job until I come back.
I switched on some lights and starting to tidy up a little bit, packing things away and that the forensic team left out, my tummy rumbling as hunger kicked in. I know my fridge would be a no go, being away from the flat for sometime makes me think that the food is past it's date of consumption. My deduction was of course made correct when I opened the fridge and the foul smell seeped out of it, causing me to cover my mouth and nose in disgust.
"That is nasty…" I fought past the urge to gag and grabbed a black bag, stuffing the whole contents of my fridge into it and tying it firmly shut, I then went on to light some scented candles to help diffuse the smell.
"Take-away it is."
I took my mobile out my pocket and I heard knocking at my door, causing me to freeze up. Images flashed through my head again and I took several deep breaths before approaching the door, looking through the peep hole to see Reid. Immediately I unlocked the door, seeing him stood there looking slightly awkward.
"Hey…" He said, looking at me – his hands in his pockets.
"Hey…" I smiled softly at him, standing to the side. "Would you like to come in?"
He stood there for a moment as if he was contemplating the idea. "Sure." He walked in and I closed and locked the door behind him, turning around to see him stood in the doorway to the living room, looking slightly deflated.
"You tidied up." He stayed as he looked around my flat.
"Yeah…" I paused, walking over to stand in the doorway opposite him. "Are you going to tip toe around me all night or are you going to say what you came here to say…" I crossed my arms, looking up at him as he avoided looking at me. "Doc come on…"
He sighed and shuffled slightly on the spot, we were both quite close, only a foot of space between us.
"I don't…" He moved his hand to tuck his hair behind his ear. "I don't want you to go…"
I just watched the sadness on his face and my heart shattered into a million tiny pieces. "Spencer…"
"I don't have many people in my life that I care about and then you came along…"
I bit my lip, my gaze still locked on his face. "Don't…" I whispered, my hands beginning to feel clammy.
"I like seeing you everyday. If you go back to England, I won't be able to do that."
I dipped my head, a deep sigh escaping me. "You know I need to do this, you of all people should understand."
"I don't understand Clara, you're leaving everyone who cares about you. You're going to be thousands of miles away." He turned away from me now, walking to stand by my balcony window.
"You're saying that like it's easy decision for me." I stayed where I was, watching him. "It isn't. I don't want to be so far away from everyone… From you…"
Reid turned around and looked at me, his eyes studying me. "Then don't go."
I groaned in frustration, turning away and walking into the kitchen – my hands pressed against the cold counter top as I took more deep breaths.
"Clara…"
I shook my head, the emotions taking control of me as I just burst into tears.
"Please don't cry… I'm sorry I just wanted you to know…" He moved to stand beside me and wrapped an arm around my shoulders, pulling me into an embrace.
"I'm sorry too… I just have to do this, if I don't then I think I won't be the girl you care about anymore." He squeezed me a little tighter after I said that, leaning his chin down on the top of my head.
"You're strong, I believe you'll get back to how you were." He rubbed circles on my back, his warmth, smell and touch calming me down.
"I'll be back and you can visit anytime. You'd love it…" I paused, lifting my head to look at him, "And I'd love it too."
He smiled down at me and we just looked at each other before I heard my door knock again.
"Who could that be…?"
Reid shrugged and walked out to the door with me, my eye looking through the peep hole and grinning widely, quickly wiping away my tears before opening the door.
"You didn't think we'd leave you alone on your last night did you Red?" Morgan stood there with his hands full of pizza boxes.
"You're all here…" I said in utter shock, looking at all the members of my team.
"Of course, we are, we're a team." JJ said and I grinned again, stepping to the side.
"Well I think you should all come in then. That pizza smells amazing."
They all walked in and Hotch was the last one to enter, lingering beside me while my flat was filled with conversation and laughter.
"I'm so grateful for everything. I'm going to miss you all so much." I said, looking up at him.
"We will all miss you too. Your position will be here for whenever you return." He paused looking down at me, showing me that smile that turned his face handsome. "But for now, let's just enjoy our last night together."
I nodded and he walked into my living room, sitting down with the team as I moved to stand in the doorway – I definitely cannot leave this behind. After I've got myself back to fighting fit, I'll be returning back to this team and my friends and I'll be a better and stronger person than I ever was before.