Ally's POV

For once since my mom passed away, I actually slept peacefully throughout the night. No nightmares, and especially no dreams about a certain blonde. I curled my hand around something rock sold, "What is that?…" I wondered groggily, opening my eyes I realized it wasn't a what. It was a who. "Ah!" I screamed, bolting upright. Ryder jumped at my scream and looked around frantically, "What's wrong, are you hurt?" he asked concerned. I stared at him wide eyed, "What are you doing in my bed?" I asked him, quickly glancing down at myself.

A deep chuckle brought me back up to Ryder's figure, he was hysterically laughing at me. How can he find this funny? I raised an eyebrow at him, waiting for an explanation. He stopped short when he realized I wasn't kidding. He scooted closer to me, leaned in and whispered into my ear, "You don't remember last night? That's such a shame, I had a lot of fun myself." he was smirking. I swatted at him, it was only then that I realized I was the one who invited him into my house.

I pushed him backwards away from me, "Okay, okay. I remember now, but I've never had anyone over without my dads permission. Let alone a boy." I said quietly, blushing. Ryder's eyes were full of surprise, "Seriously?" I nodded my head at him, "I've never done anything reckless, whether it's sneaking out or being physically active." "Ugh! Why did I just tell him that?! Now he's not gonna want to help me. He probably only offered to try and get with me. I mean after all he did tell me he thought I was pretty…"

"By physically active you mean sex?" Ryder prompted, raising an eyebrow and smirking at me. I blushed, and scooted away from him. "Stop that!" I said, getting off the bed and putting as much distance as I could between us. "Think of Austin… Anything to stop from looking at that oh so perfect face… Austin's face is perfect too…"

"Stop what?" he asked confused, taking on an innocent look. "That! That right there. You're confusing me!" I said frantically, backing up towards my bedroom door. "Mi Amor, how am I confusing you?" Ryder smirked at me, stepping towards me as I backed away.

"Because you're you. Mr. Sex God and I'm me! A pitiful girl who's chasing after a guy who probably doesn't and never will feel the same way about her as she does for him. And yet, she's confused by her emotions because she can't tell what she's feeling anymore. Because when the guy she thought she liked is off with another girl, a different guy swooped in and saved her from an anxiety attack. He's kind, sweet and makes sure I'm okay. And yet, I still want to try with the douchebag because he's all I've known, but it's not fair to the other guy just because I'm scared. I'm scared of rejection, I'm scared of giving someone my heart and it being torn into shreds and stomped on the ground like it never even mattered!" tears were streaming down my face, the pounding in my head was back and I felt as if I couldn't breathe.

I hadn't realized I had started to hyperventilate until Ryder was right in front of me, his own tears trickling down his face. "I'll make it go away Ally." he whispered, wiping my tears before he leaned in and kissed me once again…

Neither of us moved, it was as if time had frozen. Our lips were molded together, his hands slowly came to cup my cheek. I pulled away slowly, my heart still racing."Why?" I asked breathlessly. He gave me a sad smile, "I read online that if you hold your breath during a anxiety attack, it can help slow the hyperventilation down… So when I kissed you, you held your breath."

"I did?" I asked him confused, wiping away any stray tears. He nodded his head, and brought me into his arms. I rested my head against his chest, "Ryder, can I ask you a question?" I looked up to see his face. He looked at down at me, and ran his thumb over my cheek. "Of course, Mi Amor."

"Is that why you did it last night, too?" I asked him, climbing out of his lap. Kneeling before him, I waited for his response. He looked away from me as a blush crept onto his cheeks, "Yes." he mumbled. I gasped at his reaction. "I wonder what it'd actually be like to have a real kiss…" "Earth to Ally?" Ryder snapped his fingers in front of my face, I stared at him, making up my mind. My body buzzed immediately with confidence at this decision. I leaned forward and snaked my arm around his neck, moving in closer. "What are you doing…" I didn't respond to him, instead I closed the gap between us and took his lips between my own.

Ryder groaned into my mouth, his arms snaking around my body and pulling me flush against him. "His lips are so soft…" Ryder trailed kisses down my jaw to my neck. I gasped at the new found feeling that swept over me. I shivered as his breath tickled my neck. I didn't want him to stop…

"Ally, tell me to stop… Tell me to leave." Ryder's breath fanned across my exposed neck, I shivered. I shook my head, "I- I don't wan you to stop… Please don't leave." It's like he injected himself into my veins and sent me floating sky high. He groaned, pulling me closer into him. His lips brushed against my neck once again, I arched my neck towards his direction. His teeth slipped out and nipped at the skin there, I gasped as a shiver went down my spine. "Do that again." I whispered eagerly. Ryder's teeth nipped at me again, sucking in the process. Only this time he didn't stop and I wasn't complaining…

I pushed Ryder back some, his hazel eyes darker than before. I kissed down his jaw to his neck and mimicked the motions he'd done to me. His hand rested on my hip while the other found it's way into my hair. He groaned softly.

"Allison Renee Dawson!" that wasn't Ryder's voice…

A/N: Two chapters in one day! Woohoo. I hope ya'll like it.

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