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Ezra's POV
There is no emotion, there is peace...
Is there...?
Peace is a lie, there is only passion...
No... Kanan wouldn't ever agree...
There is no ignorance, there is only knowledge...
But I feel the ignorance...
Through passion, I gain strength...
Yes... I feel the passion-must hide all feeling...
There is no passion, there is serenity...
But there is too much passion, too much feeling within me...
Through strength I gain power...
Stronger... More powerful... Yes, far stronger, far stronger, far...
My eyes snap open and I breathe heavily, quoting the sith code in my mind.
Peace is a lie, there is a lie, there is only passion
Through passion, I gain strength
Through strength I gain power
Through power I gain victory
Through victory my chains are broken
The Force will free me
I feel something stir inside me and gulp. I can feel something growing within me, something dark and dangerous, something uncontrollable. I will never forget my one mistake, my one drawback, my one regret. My trust in Maul, my ignorance, my craving for power and strength. But does that make me as bad as him? As bad the inquisitors? As bad as the sith? Yes, I got the sith holocron, and yes, I agreed to their code without second thoughts, without hesitation. But then does that make me one of them?
I can't help but to think back to the outcomes of my actions. It cost Kanan's eyes, and Ahsoka...
I shake my head, biting my lip. Everything is so difficult, too difficult for me. My decisions always will be and always have been, brash and unsafe. My past contains traumas, my present contains regrets and my future contains horrors. This is my life. This is what I have to live for. Getting up, I slip my hand into my pocket and take out three pills. Three pills that can make all the difference. In my head I think of the Jedi code, which I have always been certain didn't reflect or explain me.
There is no emotion, there is peace
There is no ignorance, there is knowledge
There is no passion, there is serenity
There is no chaos, there is harmony
There is no death, there is the FORCE.
Finally, I may be able to be at peace, be able to follow the Jedi code correctly. I might even die as a Jedi.
I close my eyes and breathe in slowly. I bring the pills to my mouth.
"Stop." I gasp.
The pills in my hand drop to the ground. I'm rooted into the ground with fear. Kanan. Amidst my thoughts I'd almost forgotten to raise my shields and block him out.
Slowly, with my heart racing and my head pounding I turn around.
And there he is, his blinded eyes still covered by a prominent white bandage, but his mouth twisted into a sad frown. "Ezra, I didn't know you were this depressed." He said, in a strangled whisper. I look down at my feet, hanging my head, even though I know he can't see me. "I just can't live knowing that I have so much regrets. So much to hate." I whisper back. And then suddenly, my mind goes back to the first time I was accepted as a crew member on the Ghost, and what Kanan had told me.
"A rebel never regrets what he did. He knows that everything that is done is meant to be done. A rebel has no room for regrets."
Then maybe I'm not a rebel.
Yesssss, cliffhanger! I hope everyone enjoyed this; it took me so long to write! Please give me some nice comments, requests are open to all, and I should update soon. I'm sorry if you didn't like this, but no hate-comments please.
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-Fear-