Forbidden Feelings
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Chapter Eleven
Hermione
The next morning, Hermione got up early to go down to the hall, hoping to catch Malfoy on his way out. Sure enough, when she was walking down the stairs, she saw him walking towards the portrait, on his way out.
"Malfoy! Wait!" She said.
He looked round, and she glimpsed fear in his eyes as he looked at her. "What is it Granger?" He sneered.
Hermione was taken aback by the way he spoke to her. "Ummm, well, I was hoping we could talk... about last night." She stammered.
"What about last night? There's nothing to say. Nothing happened."
Hermione let out a frustrated cry. "Yes, yes there is! We kissed, Malfoy! Again!"
"Now you listen here." He walked over to her, grabbing her arm. "Nothing happened. Nothing ever will, nothing ever can. Now you forget about last night, and the other time. You will never bring this up again. Get it?" He snarled.
Hermione pulled her arm away, feeling her eyes well up with tears. "O,okay." She said shakily.
He gave her one last look, and walked out of the portrait.
Hermione sank down onto one of the sofas. What the hell was he playing at? She knew that it was against everything he was brought up to believe in, and she was nothing but a Mudblood to his family, an enemy. But she needed to talk about it with him. She knew it could never happen again, no matter how strong her feelings were, she just needed to talk to him.
She got up, taking her bag and walking to the main hall. She groaned, realising how awkward it was going to be today with Ron. She hadn't told Harry or Ginny either, which meant that he would, which meant they would get his side of the story. She sighed, hoping they wouldn't hate her. She knew it was the right thing to do though.
When she got to the main hall however, she found Harry and Ginny were there, but no Ron. They had their heads close, and were talking quietly. Hermione suddenly felt very awkward, and cleared her throat.
"Hey guys." She said.
"Hey Hermione." Harry said and Ginny smiled. Hermione smiled back, and sat down, feeling very relieved.
"So. We heard about you and Ron. How are you doing?" Harry asked gently.
"I'm okay. It was difficult, and I hated hurting him, but it was the right thing to do. We weren't going well, and I juts don't feel the same about him as I used to."
"We understand. You didn't seem happy." Ginny said.
"Thanks guys. I was really worried you'd hate me."
"Aww, 'Mione, we'd never hate you!" Ginny squeezed her arm.
She smiled. "So where is he?"
"In the dormitory. Hiding away. I think he felt today would be awkward, and he says he's hurting. He's not going to lessons today."
"What? It's our last year! He can't not go to lessons! What about exams? Oh my God, I've messed up his year for him!"
"Hermione! Calm down! He'll be fine. It'll probably only be today he misses. Don't blame yourself." Harry said.
"Okay. God, I feel terrible."
"Don't Hermione. It's fine. You did the right thing." Ginny said.
"He just looked so hurt when I told him."
"He would though. But he'll get over it. It'll take time, but he will."
"Okay."
"Oh, that's what I was gonna ask. Are you free tonight? I was wondering if I could come up to your dorm. I wanna talk to you."
"Yeah, that's fine. What about?"
"We'll talk about it later."
"And where's my invite?" Harry said, smiling.
"You don't have one." Ginny poked her tongue out.
"Ohh, I get it. It's gonna be one of those girly talks, right?"
"Yes. So totally is. But don't worry Harry, I'll make it up to you later..."
Ginny leaned in and kissed him. Hermione felt awkward again, and got up, saying. "Right, well I'm off to potions!"
Not sure whether they heard her or not, Hermione set off down the hall. Feeling eyes on her, she glanced over at the Slytherin table, and sure enough, met the eyes of Draco Malfoy. He looked away quickly, muttering something to Goyle, who laughed. She sighed, and walked out of the hall to the dungeons.
"Now, Miss Granger, I'm going to pair you up with Mr Malfoy here, no repeats of last time though, please!" Hermione was horrified as Slughorn put a cauldron on the desk in front of her, and gestured for at Malfoy to join her.
"Sir, do I have to go with Granger?" Malfoy groaned.
"Yes. Yes you do."
"But Sir-"
"No buts. Now, Mr Potter, lets have you and Mr Longbottom together." Slughorn walked away, and Hermione jumped as Malfoy slammed his bag onto the table.
"Now really Malfoy, do you have to be so childish?" She snapped.
"Really Granger, do you have to be such a Mudblood?" He snarled back.
Hermione winced. She felt so stupid, such an idiot for thinking he was maybe different. Had maybe changed his attitude towards her. But she also felt hurt, and had to swallow hard to stop the tears from falling.
"For God's sake, Malfoy, why don't you just listen to me?" Hermione screamed in exasperation, as the potion hissed and smelt strongly like burning, instead of being cool and calm.
"Have you ever thought that maybe, just maybe, no one wants to listen to you Granger?" He sneered, stirring the potion faster.
"No! It says stir slow! Not fast! ARGH give it here!" Hermione tried to snatch it from him, but he held on.
"NO!" He shouted back.
"Malfoy, just give it to me!" She tried to grab it from his hands.
"Get the hell off of me you filthy Mudblood!" He let go, and the potion spilt all over Hermione.
"OWWWW!" She screamed, as she felt the potion soaking through her robes, and burning her skin.
Malfoy didn't do anything, just stared, as she felt tears spilling down her face from the pain.
"What is going on here?" Slughorn came waddling over, followed by Harry and Neville.
"Malfoy burnt Hermione! I saw him!" Harry said, angrily.
"Oh yeah, Potter? Prove it." Malfoy smirked.
"Enough! Is this true Mr Malfoy?" Slughorn asked.
"No." He said.
"Miss Granger?"
Hermione looked at Malfoy through her tears. "No. No, we were arguing, and I spilt it on myself."
Malfoy looked shocked, and Harry looked incredulous. "But 'Mione-"
"Silence! Now Mr Malfoy, you can take Miss Granger to the hospital wing."
"Okay." Malfoy replied.
They walked in silence to the hospital wing.
"Thank you." Hermione said to him when they were outside the door.
He turned to face her. "I'm sorry." He whispered.
Hermione looked at him, surprised. "It's okay."
"But you're hurt."
"I'll be okay."
"Okay. Well I guess I'll see you later."
"Yes. See you later.."
Hermione watched him walk down the stairs, in a daze. Did that actually just happen? There it was again. The sensitive, gentle side of him she'd seen before. She shook her head, turning towards the door, trying to get him out of her head.
Draco
"Drakie? You're very quiet."
Draco looked up at Pansy. "I'm fine."
"Hmm. Now I know what would cheer you up..."
"Ohh, not tonight Pansy."
"Are you joking? When has Draco Malfoy never been in the mood?"
"Not tonight."
"Oh, pleeease Draco? I want you soooo bad.."
He looked up at her, considering it. He didn't want her, he really didn't. But if it could help him get the filthy thoughts about Granger out of his head...
"Okay. Fine." He smirked as her face lit up, and stood up. "Come on."
Hermione
"I still don't get it 'Mione. Why the hell did you not tell Slughorn it was Malfoy that burnt you?" Harry asked.
Hermione sighed. "I already told you, it was not just his fault it was mine too."
"But you didn't have to tell Slughorn that!"
"Harry, please it's fine. Plus I don't want McGonagall finding out we've been fighting. She said she'd take our badges away."
Harry sighed. "Fine. Have you noticed him doing anything unusual lately?"
"No. No, I haven't, now come on Ginny. Lets have this chat." Hermione stood up, smiling at Ginny.
Ginny kissed Harry, and followed Hermione out of the hall. As she was walking out, Hermione couldn't help but notice Pansy Parkinson clinging onto a very uninterested looking Malfoy.
They went up to Hermione's room, sitting on her bed.
"Now. What is it Ginny?" Hermione asked.
"Well. I should really be kicking your ass for dumping my brother. But as I said earlier, I understand why you did it. Me and Harry had both noticed you hadn't looked happy for months."
"Yeah... I feel awful I really do."
"Well don't. He'll be fine. But this isn't about Ron."
"What is it then?"
"It's about you, 'Mione. What's going on? You've been really quiet for weeks now. Like somethings been on your mind."
"Oh. Well nothings wrong, I'm fine. Just getting worried about exams."
"Riight. Somehow, I don't believe you."
"It's true. Seriously."
"There's someone else isn't there."
"What?" Hermione suddenly felt scared.
"You heard me. You like someone don't you."
"Oh Ginny, don't be stupid. Of coarse I don't. I've just broken up with Ron!"
"You liked him while you were with Ron, didn't you."
"What? Now you're being stupid. Of coarse I didn't!"
"Hermione. I've known you for a while now. And I know when somethings up. And so does Harry. I know there's someone else. And I know you're probably not ready to tell me who he is. But when you are, I promise, I will be there."
"Ginny, thank you."
"So there is?"
Hermione took a deep breath. "Yes. Yes there is. But I don't know what's going on. At all. And nothing will ever happen."
"How do you know that?"
"Because I know."
"Do I know him?"
Hermione took a deep breath again. "No. No, you don't." She looked down at her hands. She hated herself for lying, she really did. But no one could know. Not even Ginny would understand.
They spent time talking, then Hermione walked Ginny back to the Gryffindor common room. She hugged her goodbye, then said. "Ginny?"
"Yes?"
"Can you do something for me?"
"Of coarse. What is it?"
"Make sure Ron's okay."
"Of coarse."
"I'll see you tomorrow then."
"Night, 'Mione."
Hermione walked back to her dorm. "Flobberworms." She said to the portrait, and walked in. She stopped when she saw the scene in front of her. One of the lamps had had been knocked over, and there was a bra lying on the floor in front of her. There were robes on the floor next to it, and she heard giggling. She jumped as Malfoy's door opened, and Malfoy came down the stairs. He stopped when he saw her. They stared at each other for a moment, Hermione once again willing the tears not to spill.
"What is this?" She whispered.
"I, ummm..." He looked lost for words.
"Drakie? Hurry up, I want my clothes!" Hermione looked up the stairs where the voice was coming from.
Malfoy picked up the clothes, not saying a word.
"Get that slut out." Hermione snarled.
"Why should I?" Malfoy had seemed to regain himself, and smirked.
"JUST DO IT!" Hermione shouted.
He went back upstairs, and moments later, he reappeared, with Pansy.
"What is she doing here?" Pansy sneered.
"I live here. I knew you weren't bright, but I thought you would've guessed that by now." Hermione snapped.
"Don't talk to her like that." Malfoy snarled.
"I'm so out of here. Are you coming Drakie?" Pansy said.
"No. I'm tired." He replied.
"Okay. I'll see you tomorrow." Hermione looked away as she kissed him and walked out of the dorm.
"What the hell was that?" Malfoy looked furious as he turned to Hermione.
"I told you I don't like you bringing her up here!" Hermione shouted back.
"Why? You brought the Weasel up here all the time and I never complained!"
"Don't you dare bring Ron into this."
"Why? Does is still hurt Granger? I thought you'd be glad to be rid of him. He never really fitted into your... standards." He raised an eyebrow.
"JUST SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT HIM!" Hermione screamed.
"Oooh, I've touched a nerve, haven't I. Well don't worry Granger, I'm sure you'll find someone else."
"Why the hell do you have to be like this to me? One minute I'm thinking maybe your different to what I thought, maybe deep down, your a sweet, loving person. Then your sneering at me and being an absolute bastard!" Hermione couldn't help it, the words came out before she'd thought about it.
"You wanna know why, Granger? You really wanna know why? Well I can't be this 'sweet, loving person!' I can't let myself be nice to you and possibly fall for you even more then I already have!"
Hermione put a hand over her mouth, shocked. So he'd been feeling the same as she had too...
A tear rolled down her cheek. "M,Malfoy."
"No. it's too late now." He said, and again, Hermione noticed the fear in his eyes as she got closer.
"Malfoy. It's not. It's gonna be okay."
"No! Stop saying that! It won't be okay! It never will be okay! I can't do this!"
"You can, you can." She took his hand.
"I can't. It's so wrong. What would everyone say? I'd be disowned."
"You have me. You always have me, Draco." His eyes widened as she said his name.
"No, but I can't have you! Don't you understand? It's wrong, not allowed!"
"Yes, it's wrong when your family and Slytherin are involved. But think about me. Just you and me. No one else. Does it feel so wrong then?"
He closed his eyes. "No..." He whispered.
"See." She whispered back, and brought her lips to his. He kissed her back with as much longing as she had for him.
He broke away. "No... we can't."
"We can, Draco, we can. Let us get away with this tonight."
"I want you so much... more then anyone in the world." He whispered.
"I want you too..."
He kissed her again, and she broke away, burying her face in his chest, feeling the tears run down her cheeks.
She felt his hand under her chin, pulling her head up so she was facing him.
"I can't believe this is happening..." He murmured.
"Neither can I." She whispered in reply.
"I've wanted this for so long..."
"I have too."
He kissed her again, this time with more passion then before. It felt so different to when she was kissing Ron. So much better, so much more right.
He took her hand, glancing at his room. She knew what he was asking.
"Yes.." Was all she could say, as he led her up to his room, going against everything his family had ever told him.
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