Prompt: J.D. - "I tried to convince myself the reason I didn't come earlier was because of you coming in to work drunk, but that's not it. I was scared. I guess after all this time I still think of you as like this superhero that'll help me out in any situation I'm in. I needed that." - 'Scrubs'
Still feeling a little stunned and relieved at Rachel's reaction, I did the only thing I could do - I stood in line waiting for Blaine to return. We hadn't really talked since are argument her a few days ago, not even during rehearsal, which made for some long rehearsals for me. Not to mention the curious, and sympathetic looks on Wes' part, sent my way.
Now was as good a time as any to remedy the situation.
"Where's Rachel?" Blaine asked, a cool edge to his voice as he stepped into line beside me.
"She ran off to work on a song. Apparently she finds kissing a gay guy inspirational," I replied, as the person ahead of us moves off to the side.
Blaine didn't reply as he stepped up to the counter and placed his coffee order. As we stepped off to the side to wait for his coffee I took a deep breath, trying to gather up my courage to apologize. Though his words and accusations had hurt, I knew there was some truth in them and he had been right about one thing - I should have supported him.
"Look, I'm sorry about the other day. I should have supported you and not criticized you because you were searching for who you really are. I guess it just took me by surprise and scared me."
"Scared you?" Blaine asked incredulously, as he reached for his coffee that had been placed on the counter. "I'm the one soul searching and it scares you?"
I shrug, leading the way to the table Rachel and I had been sitting at, wondering if I should even bother explaining. After everything that had been said between us already maybe the less said the better.
But doesn't Blaine at least deserve an explanation.
"I guess because I look up to you. Like I said, I look up to you. You've always seemed so put together and confident about who you are. I guess it gives me strength to be myself as well. That I don't need to change to fit in. Not to mention, I never would have gotten through these last few months without you. Whenever I've needed you, you've been there and I know your sexual orientation wouldn't change that, but I guess I'm afraid of losing that support system," I tell him, looking down at my coffee cup during the entire speech.
When Blaine's hand covers one of the hands I'm gripping the cup with, I finally venture to look up relieved not to see anger.
"I'm always going to be there for you, Kurt. Nothing will change that."
I nod, relieved that things between Blaine and I are going to be fine.