Prompt: Marshall Mann - "No, it isn't after the kind of ordeal you went through, happy is wrong, this is how you're supposed to feel, your brains all jumbled up trying to sort things out, try to roll with it, let it do what it needs to do, just let it flow like a river." -'In Plain Sight'
As Karofsky followed his father out of the office I felt a sense of relief. No longer would I have to spend my school day terrified of turning corners, or jumping when lockers slammed. I wouldn't have to worry about being in the locker room or bathroom alone when Karofsky found me and worry about him trying to kiss me again. Perhaps now my bruises would be able to heal as I would be pushed into lockers anywhere from five to ten times a day.
I felt as though I should be happy with the outcome but all I felt a sense of guilt of the fact that Karofsky had been expelled because of me. I never wanted that. All I wanted was for him to leave me alone, not be kicked out of school. The whole situation just didn't feel right.
Beside me, my father got to his feet. I followed suit and just like Karofsky, followed my father out of the principal office. The hallways were practically empty now that first period was in session.
"You going to be okay?" my father asked me, stopping outside the office and turning to me.
Adjusting the strap of my bag on my shoulder I nodded my consent, hoping the gesture would be enough of an answer for him. It wasn't.
"What's wrong, Kurt?"
"I just don't understand my feelings about what just happened. I mean after everything that Karofsky has done, I should be happy he's gone, right? And I do feel relieved but at the same time I feel bad for him. I mean, getting expelled from high school could ruin someone's life."
"It's because you have a good heart, Kurt, just like your mother. Most people, me included, would just be happy that the kid got what he deserved and that he's gone, but you care about other people and their futures. It's an admirable trait but don't let people walk over you because of it. It's okay to have mix feelings about everything, but don't lose track that what he did was wrong and you had the right to stand up for yourself."
I nodded, though I didn't really want to sort through everything right now. I needed time to process everything and sort through my feelings.
"I'll see you tonight," I told my father.
With a nod, he briefly rest his hand on my shoulder and then headed for the main entrance. Trying to put everything out of my mind for now, I headed toward my first period class with a feeling that this wasn't all behind me yet. For today though I would enjoy going to my classes without getting shoved into any lockers. I'd start trying to sort through things tonight, in the privacy of my home and maybe with the help of Blaine.