AN: Okay, so the next few drabbles are a little arc focusing of Finn. They're all set during "Furt". Hope you enjoy!
Prompt: Meredith: "We deny that we're tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed. And most importantly, we deny that we're in denial. We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces." -'Grey's Anatomy'
"He threatened to kill me."
Even laying on my bed later that night I still heard Kurt's confession to his father. I couldn't get the words out of my head and no matter how much I tried to convince myself that I hadn't realized how bad the situation was, I knew the truth. I had been trying not to acknowledge the fact that the situation was getting worse because I hadn't wanted to face up to it. I didn't want to ruin my reputation by standing up for someone as unpopular as Kurt.
And here I thought I had come so far from the beginning of last year when I had been one of the jocks involved in throwing Kurt in the dumpsters.
The simple truth was, I felt like I was back on top now that I had gotten the quarterback position back and I didn't want to give that up. So, I had been ignoring the situation. It had started out with remaining silent when Puck had made the crack about feathers during our planning session for the mash-off. I had seen Kurt look to me for support but I had remained quiet. Once I had done that, ignoring the insults I overheard directed at Kurt in the hallway or pretending that I didn't see Karofsky shove him into a locker had gotten easier. Then it was pushing the observation that Kurt wasn't smiling much to the back of my mind and trying to forget about it. And when I noticed that he looked thinner, I told myself it was the clothes he was wearing. Not to mention, what was I doing noticing the lost weight in the first place. That was something girls took notice of. Of course watching him move food around on his plate to disguise the fact that he wasn't eating at dinners our families shared probably had something to do with it.
I had gotten so good at kidding myself, that pushing Rachel's fears aside had been easy. It hadn't taken me long to forget her pleas at all.
"He threatened to kill me."
Those five words though were another story altogether. No wonder Kurt had no appetite and didn't smile. I doubted I'd be able to smile with that threat looming over me either.
Not being popular at school was nothing to worry about in light of what Kurt had been facing. Being so concerned about it made me feel small.
"He threatened to kill me."
Those five words had threatened the world of denial that I had been living in and I knew that until I took some kind of action they would continue to haunt me.