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Warnings: Chapter 1

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I was back in my village, and I knew I could at least see my mother. Or should see her. Villagers were concerned, as always. When the Guard came, it meant that the youth would be taken. We already had five boys and two girls with us.

"Attention! I want all young people aged 18 or more to present themselves!" so said, the villagers fled to their homes. "We do not want to have to do a reprisal then be brave and come out to defend your kingdom!" Two boys came towards us. I could see the fear in the eyes of one of them, but the other kept a more controlled expression. These were the boys who survived.

"Men, look for more boys and bring them here. I have something to do" them, now my soldiers, descended from horses and set off to inspect each house.

I headed towards my house. Mom should be there, as I asked her.

But my house was locked. My heart sank in a feeling not so good. I walked around the yard and waited to find her in the back, taking care of our animals. But instead, five tombstones were in the backyard. Falls to my knees when I saw the name on the last one.

The feeling of pain and loss filled me. Mom had died. The plague had reached the village, and from the day I knew it, I was afraid that something could be happening to her. And as I can see now it happened. But at that time I had no time for tears. This property was still mine, but it was no longer my home. My family had been destroyed in the war and a fatality. It hurt my heart leave everything behind and I thought to declare mourning. But the war front was my home now. I cannot abandon it. And there's a war to be won. Keep at least my kingdom safe.

I would be no celebrations tonight but the boys had to go to the castle. We took them to the castle, the same castle that I had not seen for a long time. But this time, I would enter through the gates as a Commander.

The men who tested me were there, and bowed in reverence. The captain of the guard who had come for me also was on a mission, and I saw the smile on his face. Surely he was proud to have discovered some talent. But I was not about to celebrate. I let my soldiers and young boys in a specific place to rest inside the castle.

My eyes ran through the balconies of the Queen, but I know that today my heart was not willing to see her. Today I could not give in to the game I thought we were playing. I just wanted something to drink.

Not far from the castle there was a tavern that I knew I would find what I needed. My armor was in my room, so I was just a woman with a horse through the city. I hope not arrange some confusion...

The tavern was emptier than usual, more than half of those were in the bloody war or injured by it. But nothing would prevent me from spending much of the night here. A young woman served my table, and I stopped caring about the hours after the fifth shot.

The pain of losing my whole family seemed duller now, tears had no trouble coming out. Even strong as a soldier, I still had feelings and my family meant everything to me, were my life and everything I had valuable. I knew I would lose my line without them and that soon I would have to find another reason to live.

But for now, my only reason was to win the war. A memory sounded in my mind and I remembered the first Queen's smile in the castle courtyard. I took another glass of whatever it was that tavern girl gave me to drink and smiles. At least I still had some illusion to live for.

My vision was getting cloudy and my reflexes were slow. I knew it was time to go back to the castle. I left a bag of silver coins on the table, and the girl who served me waved goodbye when she saw me walk out the door.

I climbed on my horse and a brief trip to the castle passed in a blur before my eyes. The last thing I saw was my bed.

And my last thought was that I could not allow myself to cry anymore, but do the damn creatures pay for taking my parents and brother to me.

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