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Magnus POV

Magnus's eyes opened slowly and he had to blink a few times to clear his sight, from the pale blue walls and the smell, he could guess that he was in a hospital. He looked around him and saw his mother occupying the left bedside while Jem and Will were on the other side.

He smiled at them, it was really good to wake up to people who care about you.

"Are you okay, sweetie? " his mother asked him the moment he opened his eyes, when he looked at her he felt his heart sank, her face was flushed and her eyes were blood-shot, she was obviously crying and he hated himself for making her cry like that.

"How are you feeling, man?" Will asked next.

Magnus wasn't in any kind of pain, he just felt drowsy probably because of the drugs the nurses gave to him in the ambulance, when he spoke his voice was scratchy like he had woken up from a nice slumber.

"I'm okay" it was a small sentence, but it was enough to reassure them that he was fine and they all smiled at him. However, when he looked at Will he was reminded of Alexander, they both had similar looks.

"How's Alexander? Is he okay?" he asked in a fearful voice, but he couldn't help it when it came to Alec. He looked at each one of them trying to read their faces "Please, tell me what happened after I passed out " he looked at his mother with hope and fear masking his features.

His mother sighed and started to tell him what happened "Almost immediately after you passed out, we heard a pained scream coming from the house, the police rushed inside with paramedics on their tails, and after a few agonizing moments they came out carrying Alec on a stretcher" she explained slowly watching over Magnus to see his reaction. She knew what's coming next will break his heart, but she had to tell him the truth.

She sighed again and said "He was really in a bad shape and he was covered in blood entirely, they took him to one of the ambulances where Jace and Isabelle got in with him and they took off. They brought Eric to the same ambulance you were in, he looked awful too and there was a knife stuck to his cheast." Magnus gasped and she could tell he was holding back the tears, "I don't know if Alec's okay, they refused to tell me what was going on with him, I didn't see Jace or Isabelle either, but I'm sure he's okay, we would have known if he was dead " Magnus felt like he couldn't breathe, his cheast tightened so much that it hurt, maybe Alec was already dead, he started to get up from the bed, but Will and Jem stopped him.

"I need to see him, I need to know if he's alright " Magnus tried to shove them away, but he couldn't, his body felt so numb " Let me go! " He yelled in frustration, why wouldn't they let him go? He needed to make sure that Alec was fine, he won't forgive himself if he died.

"I'll go get the nurse " his mother said as she stood up, she glanced at him one last time before she was out of the room.

"Magnus, for fuck's sake calm down, Alexander wouldn't want you to freak out " his friends were trying to calm him down, but he couldn't, he couldn't stand the idea of losing Alec, he just couldn't. That's when the door opened and the nurse stepped in...

Magnus was wearing a black formal suit for the first time in ages, Maryse, Robert, Jace, Isabelle and Max were sitting on the bench in front of him all of them wearing black formal clothes as well, Clary and Simon were sitting beside him. They were grieving Alec's death even though they didn't know him that well.

Fresh tears streamed down his face as the priest said Amen for the last time. He looked over his lover's coffin expecting him to get up and smile at him anytime now and he would hold him, kiss him and go home with him and just be happy for once, but that couldn't happen. he stood up and walked slowly towards the coffin.

He looked down at Alec and saw how his face was peaceful, he looked so beautiful even in death, he died as soon as he got to the hospital, at least it was a painless death. Magnus bent down and kissed his petal soft lips one last time and some of his tears fell down into Alec's fair cheek.

Robert, Jace and Max came to stand beside him and the four of them carried the coffin, it was feather light as Alec didn't weigh much. The coffin was made of sandalwood, Magnus always washed his hair with that scent now he'd never be able to use it without bringing painful memories.

They carried him out and every step was getting heavier, he was slowly letting go of Alec.

Tear after tear, step after step.

They were on the place where they were supposed to lay him down. All of the men were hesitating, but after Maryse's speech they laid him down.

Maryse was hugging Robert, Isabelle was crying on Simon's shoulder, Jace was holding Clarissa, Max was hugging his girlfriend. Each one of them had their love by thier side just a sour reminder that his own was now gone.

''May we now lay this holy sand on the beloved one?'' the priest asked and gave the shovel to Maryse who started, she also threw in his baby shoes and apologized about anything wrong she had ever done to him, she told him how much she loves him and how she's going to miss him.

Isabelle, Jace, Max and Robert did the same. Isabelle threw in a story book they used to read when they were kids, Jace threw in a little wooden horse they played with in their childhood , Max threw in one of the drawings he had made for Alec when he was a little child. Robert threw nothing in, but he apologized for everything, and told him that he loves him.

And when it was Magnus's turn he took his locket off and threw it in with the sand. There was a little picture of Alec in the locket. He had started to wear it the day he fell in love with Alexander. ''I love you so much, darling. I'm so sorry I didn't reveal my feelings to you sooner, all of this could have been different if I did. I'm so sorry. I'm gonna miss you so much you don't even know. I'd do anything if I could get you back in my arms. I love you.''

Isabelle hugged him after that both of them crying.

''Are you coming to our house? You don't have to be alone.'' Isabelle said to him, she tried to make some kind of smile. But it was hard for her. Of course.

''No thank you. I'll go to my mom's house.'' Magnus said, he hugged her one last time and walked away before the ceremony was even over. He was all alone now... Forever.

Magnus felt someone smack his head harsh, "Stop thinking of the worst and hope for the best, idiot." Jem yelled at him and suddenly he was snapped out of his dark thoughts.

He was still in the hospital room and the nurse was still standing, she smiled at him, " Master Bane, are you feeling better? Do you need another shot of sedation? " she asked him as she placed a white tray over his lab, there were a large bowl of mashed food, orange juice and an apple. He eyed the food for a moment then shoved it away, he lost his appetite after what he had just imagined.

"Aren't you hungry? " she asked and he answered her with a cold 'no'. "How is Alexander Lightwood? I was with him in this thing " he waved his hand not sure how to address the fucked up situation they were in. " I need to know if he's alright, please "

" I was told to inform you, yes he's alive and alright, no major injuries, our doctors operated him and we're going to wake him up in the next few hours " she smiled kindly at him.

" Oh thank god" his mother held his hand " Did you hear this, honey. Isn't it amazing? "his mother was beaming and he was stunned for a moment and he couldn't do anything but to burst into happy tears. His mind was wiping out the horrible images of Alexander's funeral. And it was filling up with happy ones of his feature, their future to be exact. He closed his eyes and let those images flow.

He could picture them making breakfast in his loft, fruit salad with all his favorite fruits and his favorite chocolate chips pancakes, they were throwing flour into each other and laughing like kids, Chariman and Church were playing on the couch. Everything was perfect.

Magnus and Alec were both wearing elegant black suits and they were sitting in a church. Clary was prettier than ever in her white strapless dress, the long creamy veil was sweeping the floor behind her, her firey red curls were pulled up into a cute messy bun and she was holding hands with Jace, he was handsome too the white suit he wore matched really well with his golden hair and fair skin. Both of their families and friends were in the room to witness their marriage. What else could you ask for?

Sometime in the future, this could be his and Alec's wedding. That's what he planned, he wanted to get married, adopt a kid or two and make the happiest family in the world, he wanted to settle down and have some balance in his life. Routines, wake up, have breakfast with his family, drop off the kids to school, have a boring job from 9 to 5, go back to home to find his kids waiting for him, spend time with them then have some alone time with Alec in their bedroom.

Woah, I only kissed him like two times and now I'm planning a whole future with him. What if Alec dosen't want to be with me at all?' he tried to push that thought away because it scared the shit out of him.

After all he has been through, this traumatic event and all, Alec wouldn't trust anyone in relationships for a while, but maybe he would realize that Magnus is nothing like Eric, that he will never hurt him. He had known Magnus for a long time he should trust him, but then again he had also known Eric for a long time... That's a deep shit.

''I want to see him '' Magnus said. The nurse was long gone now and he was with his friends and mother again.

He didn't want to stay in the damn bed when he could spend that time with Alec, they exchanged glares, but no one spoke, "Well, "

He hated this, being in a weak state because of the damn drugs, he should be able to do whatever he wished. He's an adult for crying out loud.

"For fuck's sake speak" he yelled. "Magnus Bane, don't you curse in front of me " his mother said angrily.

"I think you should wait until he wakes up, that will be the best for both of you. "

Magnus laid back and crossed his arms knowing that his mother was right. He sighed and started to remember that kiss he shared with Alec before any of this happened. It was amazing. very passionate and full of emotions and love. And Church was next to them with her kittens. Perfect. He didn't even notice he was smiling now. But when his thought carried him forward his smile faded. He remembered when he went to open the door. He saw it was Eric. He knew he shouldn't have let him in, but he wanted to set things straight with him. And he didn't expect the jerk to hit him in the moment he opened the door. Magnus fell down, but he was still conscious. Then he felt Eric move him and there was a great pain in his head and everything went dark.

All this thinking led him to a row of questions, did he ruin Alec's life? Was all of this his fault?

I hope you liked it!

I was thinking writing about Alec's and Eric's relationship when they met?

Or when Magnus and Alec met each others?

What do you think.

This story doesn't have much chapters anymore.

So I was already thinking another story.

What would you like to read?

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I'll write you soon, I hope!