I get my boys dressed in their smartest abnegation clothes, this is their last day wearing them. They are almost identical, Leo is slightly taller than Fraser and Fraser has a green patch at the top of his left eye. They are the only ways I have of telling them apart.
I help them down the stairs and get them both some cereal. They are almost 2 now, they can talk a bit and walk a bit but they do need lots of attention from me.
When we are all ready I pick up Fraser and Caleb takes Leo, our parents follow behind us. We get onto a crowded bus and make our way towards the hub, where I will follow my plan and everyone else has a free choice on where to go. We take a seat in the area designated to abnegation. Marcus Eaton, the leader of abnegation stands up and makes a speech. He is Tobias dad, the twins grandad. He reads the names of everyone in my year, everyone who is choosing today, in reverse alphabetical order. I sit back in my chair, there are loads of people who are going to choose before me, I'm fine.
"Caleb Prior." Marcus calls. Caleb gets up and walks down to the centre of the room. He accepts the knife from Marcus and cuts into his hand. He drops his blood down the side of his hand and into a large white bowl of water, Erudite. Then he walks over to them, all dressed in blue with smart shirts and ties.
"Beatrice Prior," Marcus calls. "Leo Eaton and Fraser Eaton." I carry my boys over to the bowls before placing them on the floor and cutting my own hand. The blood drops over onto the black coal, sizzling as it lands. Then I pick up Leo and do the same, though the cut on his hand causes him to cry. I pick up Fraser and he starts crying as well after the bloods drops into the Dauntless bowl. We've waited for this day for two years, now it's time to go.
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I run with one of my boys in each hand, I have no idea why I thought this would work. I run alongside the train door, trying to work out how to climb in.
A girl dressed in candor black and white reaches out and takes Leo from me, puts him next to her, on the side furthest from the door and then takes Fraser. I scramble into the train just before the platform ends, just in time.
"Good job." The candor girl smiles to me.
"Thanks for taking them, we'd be factionless without you."
"It's no problem, I'm Christina." She smiles and reaches her hand out for me to shake. I awkwardly take her hand.
"I'm Beatrice." I say, though Beatrice doesn't sound right anymore.
"And what are their names?" She asks, pointing to the twins.
"That's Leo and this is Fraser."
We sit in silence for a while, not quite believing that we just jumped onto a moving train.
"Ready initiate, time to jump!" An older man calls from the other side of the carriage. I look at Christina in shock. We're jumping off the train.
"I'll take one of them." She says picking up Fraser. He starts crying. I pick up Leo and try to calm Fraser.
"Ready?" Christina asks, I nod. "3, 2, 1!" We both run towards the edge of the train and jump.
We have a bit of a wobbly landing but manage to remain on our feet. I take Fraser back before walking over to where the other initiates have gathered.
"The only way into the Dauntless compound is to jump. If you are too scared to jump, you don't belong here." Someone says, he's quite short with black hair and a small beard. "Someone's got to go first." He says. "Who's it going to be?"
"Me." I say stepping forwards. I climb onto the small wall and turn around. "Would someone send my boys down after me?" I ask, Christina nods so I turn around again, take a deep breath and jump.