Prompt - Franking Maddox - "I'm such a fool. For five minutes there, I thought he was the one." - 'Frankie'
Pulling the shirt on over my head, I analyzed the empty feeling inside me. It may have felt good while it was happening but that feeling had left quickly. It wasn't like it was after being with Kurt. With Kurt, we had always lingered in one another's arms, talking softly and just enjoying the closeness of one another. With Eli, it was just over.
What had I been thinking? There was no chemistry between me and Eli. We had only talked on Facebook before this. What was I doing hooking up with him? Why had I allowed myself to even entertain the idea that he was the one, even for five minutes?
Because I was lonely. Kurt was busy in New York, and yes he had an important job now, I understood that, but I had needed some human contact. Contact that I had found in Eli but now that things were over I felt worse than I had before. Only months ago I had made a big deal about Kurt texting Chandler and now I went and did this. I had done some stupid things in my life, but this was by far the stupidest.
"Are you okay?" Eli asked.
I couldn't even turn to face him. How could have I've had so little self-respect? So little respect for Kurt and what the two of us shared?
"I've got to go," I said hurriedly, heading for the doorway of his room. I only wished that escaping the memory of what I had done would be so easy.
Kurt was the only one for me and I was a fool to have ever doubted that.