a/n I swear I always intend on making these chapters longer... And then they don't get any longer and I feel like a huge disappointment. Thanks to Showni13 for reviewing! This one's for you, gorgeous!

Following The Main Event;

By AliceJericho

Chapter 13: I Love You

"To show pity is felt as a sign of contempt because one has clearly ceased to be an object of fear as soon as one is pitied." Freidrich Nietzsche

Monday, February 22

I didn't remember why I was in Kofi's room for a good while after I had woken. And because he'd gone to the gym – I was unable to ask him.

I woke up to a text from dad telling me I needed to collect Cameron because he was my responsibility. I was beginning to seriously regret making him that promise. He was probably missing some important lessons at school.

I couldn't go collect him, though. Especially considering what I had done. I knew the morning after feeling all too well. Only it had never felt so bad.

There was no chance I was going to hang around and wait for Kofi to return. That was not a conversation I wanted to have with him. Or anyone. I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want to admit that I had cheated on my boyfriend.

The speed at which I picked up all of my clothes and wheeled my suitcases out of the room had to set a new record. I was doing exactly what I had been condemning Ted for.

With my heart pounding in my ears I ran from the room, making sure to have the key to Cody's room ready. I was inside before anyone could have spotted me.

My first step was to lay face first on the bed and cry. I don't think I've ever cried so hard in my life. It was all so stressful.

I knew what I'd done and I knew why I'd been so compelled to. I'd been away from Cody for so long and he wasn't having a great day, so I sent him a few barely clothed pictures to him as a pick-me-up.

Cody must have gone to the gym with Kofi because he didn't come back for almost an hour, but when he opened the door I was still crying.

"Sunday…"

"I'm so, so sorry, Cody. I didn't mean it. I swear." I was sobbing hysterically as I crawled to the edge of the bed. "You have to know how sorry I am. I'd do anything to take it back!"

"What are you talking about?" he worried, taking a step towards me.

"Kofi… I swear, it was an accident."

I watched as the realisation dawned on his face. His worried expression crumbled into one of heartbreak.

"You didn't. With my best friend?" I sucked in a sharp breath as he started to move backwards.

"I was angry, Cody… It meant nothing, I swear to you."

"Angry at what? Something you just assumed?" The tears were pouring down my cheeks faster than they had all morning. "You didn't even talk to me about it, Sun. If you had, we could have worked out what the fuck happened. But, no, you had to be fucking stubborn about. And then you sleep with my best friend."

"It meant nothing!"

"That doesn't change the fact that it happened. I'm out of here." He turned around and walked back to the door.

I don't know if he heard me, but I didn't care. For the first time in the relationship I wasn't afraid to say it out loud, I had to let him know.

"But I love you."

"Come on, slugger." I took hold of Cameron's hand and hauled him into the building. I hadn't spoken to anybody other than Cameron all day. He was still young and naïve enough to believe that I was crying because I hurt my wrist, so I didn't have to explain the whole scenario to him. He was too young to hear about my indiscretions. "You're hanging with me tonight, okay? No going off to find dad. He's busy."

"Can we hang out with Sheamus?" he asked with a hopeful smile. I rose an eyebrow, unsure of when he had even met Sheamus, but shook my head.

"Sorry, bud. He got knocked out last night, so they sent him home."

"Can we hang out with Kofi?"

"He has a match he needs to get ready for." I breathed a sigh of relief that it was the truth. I had done an excellent job avoiding him all day.

"Cody?"

"Kofi, Bourne and Tatsu are facing The Legacy, we can't distract them."

He could tell that something was up given how weird I was being. I had never stopped him from speaking to people who had matches before tonight and he was catching on.

"Santino?"

"Let's go find him, shall we?"

After telling Cam that I was going to look after him, I quickly took the opportunity to leave him with Anthony and go off in search of Victoria. I seriously hoped she would be able to shed some light on the leaking of the pictures.

I was lucky to find her with Steph and Brie in the locker room.

"Aww, babe." Victoria pouted as she saw me step into the locker room. I broke down as soon as she hugged me. I'd managed to keep it together while I was with my brother but I couldn't any more.

"Everyone in this company has seen me naked!" I cried out. "What if Shawn has seen them?" I asked in a sudden panic. "Oh my god!" Blaspheme.

"They're not so bad, Sunday." Steph rubbed my back soothingly. "Honest."

"I can't walk through here without people looking at me like they've seen me naked. They're all judging me."

"Do you think it was Cody?" Steph asked me and I slowly pulled away from Victoria.

"At first… But why would he do it? There's no reason for him, too."

"Just talk to him about it. You'll get to the bottom of it in no time." I shook my head pathetically at Brie. "Why not?"

"I don't want to talk about it." Never. It was never going to be spoken about ever again. "We an argument… I don't know where we stand."

The three girls looked at me sadly. I'd never been on the receiving end of that look before. No one's ever felt sad for me. Most of the time they were angry at me or jealous. They never pitied me.

Let me tell you, it's not a feeling I want to get used to.