LIV'S POV
it had been a month since we had got back from Alaska, since things were finally starting to feel normal. I wasn't stressed out all the time, i was happy.
"Madame First lady" The white house doctor said after Emmy had her check up. "Did you need a check up too?"
"Please call me Liv"
"Liv" she nodded "i uh,-"
"Anything you say is confidential ma'am, even from your husband" she was an older woman, probably older than Fitz. I nodded
"I wanted to stop taking the pill and well, i've been on it for a while so i wanted to know what my chances were-"
She grinned and nodded "well, you're only 28? Almost 29 so your chances are still very good. Your last check up was last month and everything was right on track so as soon as you're ready to start trying just stop taking the pill and you are good to go"
"Alright, thank you"
"Not a problem"
(Break)
"You okay Livvie?" Fitz asked as we got ready for bed. He was watching tv while doing paperwork in bed when i came out of the bathroom.
Emmy was sprawled in the middle since she decided Wilbur was snoring too loud for her taste tonight.
"Yes why?"
"You're just extra quiet"
"I uh have something to tell you" i sat on his side of the bed with him as he put me on his lap. Emmy was a dead sleeper so we weren't whispering
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing!" I smiled "i got off of birth control today"
"You did?" He croaked as i played with the back of his curls
"Yes"
"You don't think we're moving too fast?"
"No, do you?"
"No! I just don't want you to regret something and feel like i pushed you-"
"I'm not Mellie, i love you and i love Emmy and all of our future babies"
He smirked as i slipped up "babies? As in plural"
I laughed "we agreed we would sidebar"
"So, do you want to try?"
"Yeah, we could try"
"This is going to be fun" he threw me over his shoulder fixing the pillows so Emmy didn't roll over. He carried me down the hallway and into his old bedroom
"Why would it be more fun then the dozens of other times?" I blushed as i recalled the past month. It was like Fitz and i were teenagers, whenever we were alone we couldn't keep our hands off of each other.
"Because we could make a baby"
I smiled at how excited he was. I had finally everything i always wanted, i just had a problem accepting the fact that it was mine
(Break)
"So, this is your first single session anything you want to talk about?" Dr. Richards said as i crossed my legs and sat down. Fitz was in New York for a meeting and would be back in a couple of days
"I'm taking Em to her first ballet play tonight"
"That's exciting"
"Yeah, she's amazing so i thought we could have a girls night for all her hard work"
"Do you have any insecurities when it comes to mothering her?"
He always hit it spot on, damn. "Sometimes, when we were fighting Fitz said HIS child and ever since then i'm always afraid his ex wife will come back fighting for her"
"His ex wife signed her rights away"
"What if Emmy wants to go with her?"
"You would let her?"
"I don't want her to hate me, if mellie made her happy.." I blinked away my tears.
"Why do you feel so strong about this?"
"You know the about our marriage.. How it started" he nodded "that was such a dark time in my life, i was miserable and i never wanted to leave my bed let alone be a first lady or a step mother"
"So what changed?"
I smiled "one day when i was having a bad day dealing with the affair. I was in bed and i remember she climbed into the bed and under the covers with me." I was crying already "she said 'i love you momma, i'm right here' and she held my hand until i was ready to leave the bed. The was the first time she called me momma" i paused "she was the light in my life at such a dark time and i just.. Love her so much" he nodded and handed me some tissues.
"Have you and Fitz thought of having kids?"
"We're trying"
"But?"
"What if this is too fast?"
"No, don't do that. You're scared because you've never had this but you are allowed to be happy okay?"
"Okay"
(Break)
"Did you have fun tonight baby?" I asked as Emmy dozed off as i tucked her in
"The best momma, i wished daddy came too"
"Next time"
She nodded as i smoothed her hair "you talked to Mellie today, how was that?"
"Good, she asked about Wilbur" she giggled "she doesn't like pigs as pets"
"Ahh" i nodded as i helped her squealing pig up onto her bed and watched as he cuddled up to her
"Momma?"
"Yeah baby?"
"I love you"
" i love you too Emmy, so much" i kissed her head and switched off her lamp
(Break)
"Livvie?" Fitz asked as i came into the bedroom with a big bowl of pasta after dinner.
"Yes?"
"Is everything okay?"
"Yes?"
"Because" he gulped "you've been eating a lot more than usual lately"
I glared at him "are you calling me fat?"
His eyes bulged out "no! NO!"
"Because calling your wife fat would get you alone in a bed or on the couch in most marriages"
"Liv-"
"Am i bigger?! Am i not pleasing you anymore?!" I yelled "because i'm pretty sure you didn't mind me bent over in the shower an hour ago" i got up and left the room taking my pasta with me. I ran into Harrison on the first floor of residency.
"My husband call?"
He chuckled and nodded "he called you fat?"
"Not in so many words"
"Have you been eating more?"
"I'm just hungry a lot more"
"Maybe you're pregnant" he laughed
"What?"
"The eating, the yelling, maybe you are with child"
"We just started trying to months ago-"
"Ew Liv!"
"Maybe i am pregnant"
"Did you get a period last month?"
"I thought it was due to stress"
"Hello baby grant!" Harrison boomed
"SHH!" I laughed "I don't even know if it's true"
"Liv, according to the blood tests you are pregnant, i'd say about five weeks in" The white house doctor smiled
"Woah" i felt dizzy as i stood. I was pregnant, i was having america's baby, i was having Fitz's baby. "Wow"
"Are you excited?" She asked
"Very, when shall i come back?"
"Just schedule an ultrasound after you've told Mr. President"
"Okay, thank you"