[NB, definitely not safe for work...]
Accompanying soundtrack: You Say Party - There is XXXX (Within My Heart)
Jen was a mess when she woke up the next day. She'd no idea how things had escalated so quickly, and there was too much crap swimming round her head, not to mention she had a slight hangover. The first thing she did was look at her phone.
"I'm sorry. I'm a fucking dick. Lunch?"
The obligatory text from H, at whom she could never really stay mad at for long because she was such a persistent bugger, and would've kept phoning and texting until Jen gave in or got a restraining order.
"Yes. You're paying."
There wasn't anything from Tilly though, and Jen's heart fell. She'd been hoping that there would have been at least something from her.
Lying there, she kept looking at her phone, knowing that she would have heard any kind of text or call, but just in case it for some reason hadn't given her a notification she wanted to make sure, and wishing that by just looking at the screen she could force a message to appear. She rolled the device round between her hands, trying to occupy herself. Jess was still asleep, and all Jen wanted to do was get out of there. Not because she wanted to be away from Jess, just because she needed to be doing something – anything to keep her occupied. Just lying there was driving her crazy.
She got up and started to get dressed, eventually finding her shirt draped over the side of the bath and her socks under the lounge table. Slightly confused by the clothing treasure hunt she'd embarked on, she slumped down on the sofa only to feel her phone vibrate. She grabbed it out of her pocket, hoping it was from Tilly, but it was just a reply from H. Realising the impossibility of her being able to stay in one place right now without going mad, fully clothed Jen headed back into the bedroom, kissed Jess on the cheek and told her she had to go.
Jess didn't live too far from Tilly's, it was probably a good 20 minutes walk and Jen had made up her mind to go round. She was reasonably certain that if there was anyone else there she wouldn't be welcome, but this wasn't a time where she was worried about being rational. Jen wanted so much to just call Tilly, but she knew she'd probably just tell her not to come round.
She rang the doorbell and stood tapping her foot, her mind blank, just waiting for a reply. Unfortunately a reply never came. It was a reasonable assumption that Tilly was probably in Hollyoaks trying to smooth over the Esther and Tom situations. Looking at her watch it was now past 11am, and they'd probably have gone last night anyway. A better decision now was to head home and change, ready to meet H for lunch.
They'd agreed to meet at the Fox, a local pub which was close enough to be comfortable, but far enough out of town to not be Saturday shopper busy. Jen sat waiting for H, who was predictably late. Having still had no contact she decided to drop Tilly a message.
"Hope everything is ok. X"
She wasn't entirely sure if she was supposed to be maintaining radio silence, but decided that now it was broken, the "X" was ok, because barring everything else that had gone on Jen simply didn't want to come across like she was angry with Tilly. She was completely the opposite in fact, coupled with a decent shot of unsettled and anxious.
"OK. Esther is at the Dog, pretty pissed at me but only to be expected. Not found Tom yet. X"
Unexpectedly the reply came through almost immediately, and the vibration made her jump slightly, blind-sided by the speed of the reply.
"Ok, let me know if anything changes. X" Jen wasn't entirely sure what to reply, so keeping it low key and no pressure seemed like the best option. She didn't expect the follow-up that arrived.
"I'll be back tonight. Can I come round? X"
"Of course, I'll be in all evening so come anytime you want. X"
Jen let a small sigh of relief and a smile broke through onto her face. At the same time she saw H appear into her view, and she continued with her smile as she approached. She stood up, raised an eyebrow and held out her arms for a hug.
"C'mere you twat". H stepped in for the welcoming embrace, relieved she didn't need the bullet proof vest. Jen just wanted everything to be OK; she didn't want to have to fight with her best friend about the choices she was making in her love life.
Jen opened the door to Tilly, smiling broadly, inviting her in with a swoop of her dipped arm. This was the first time Tilly had been to Jen's, and she was surprised by how beautifully presented it was. Art hung from every wall, including a selection of tasteful nudes and landscapes. Jen watched Tilly's eyes taking in the décor.
"Possibly a little self-indulgent, but they're mostly mine of course," and she shrugged her shoulders.
"I recognised the style," Tilly responded, smiling whilst running a finger down one of the canvases. "I live in a bit of a student hovel by comparison".
"Student places are supposed to be hovels! Drunken parties usually ensure that nice things get broken." Jen grinned, teasingly. "Drink?"
"Thanks, whatever you've got going will be fine."
"Well, that'll be wine then," and she poured out a decent size glass. "Did you manage to speak to Esther, or are you still public enemy number one?"
Tilly shook her head.
"I think it's fair to say that this is one bridge that is well and truly burnt. I've no idea if she'll ever speak to me again. She's told Frankie too, as I dropped by the Dog to see if she was there, and just got a tirade of abuse thrown at me."
"I am sorry that it's happened this way. The last thing I want is for someone to get hurt out of all this. But I can't help myself – you draw me in like a moth to a flame. Possibly not so much a flame as a roaring fire, but my point still stands." Jen looked at Tilly with a combination of love, and ever so slight tears forming in her eyes. She batted them away almost immediately.
"Jen, if I thought I had any choice in this I'd have made a rational decision to walk away. The heart isn't rational." She took Jens hands in hers. "If we all made decisions with our heads then we'd be pretty dull people. I mean it'd be stress-free but boring as hell!"
Unable to control her feelings much longer, and with the issues momentarily resolved, Jen leant her head forward and lightly kissed Tillys lips.
"I was thinking about that day we had our lunch," said Jen, moving her kisses upwards to Tillys collarbone and neck, savouring the taste of her warm skin, tousling her hair gently without opening her eyes.
"Were you?" smiled Tilly. "I wasn't really sure what made me want to invite you back. I certainly didn't have anything planned. I mean… it wasn't a set up or anything. It just felt like exactly the right thing to do."
Jen smiled, letting out a small laugh.
"I couldn't have predicted what would have happened, that's for sure!"
Tilly kissed her deeply on the mouth. It was an exciting kiss, full of passion, need and desire, and she felt the world melt away.
"There is almost nothing I want more in the world right now than to extract you from those clothes," Jen said softly. "Can I tempt you into a hot shower? We could cleanse away the negativity of the past and start refreshed."
"You are appalling at symbolism. How about we just forget about all that stuff and fuck in the shower?"
Jen took Tilly's hand and led her to the bedroom.
"I'll go and get things started," and she left to start the shower.
The downpour of water as she turned on the hot water hid the noise of Tilly sneaking into the bathroom, and she watched Jen step under the water, propping herself up against the shower wall as the almost too hot water bounced off her skin. It was a double shower cubicle and there was more than enough space for the both of them. Suddenly, she felt the soft bite of fingernails on her bare back, tracing their way up and down her spine. Smiling, but not stopping, she let the fingers continue to roam their way about her body, indulging in the unmistakable feeling of small kisses being dotted around her shoulders and neck. She turned around to face Tilly, her hands raising to stroke her soft hair as it began to get slowly wet from the water. Their breasts pressed together, eyed closed as the water cascades over them both, Tilly continued to kiss Jen's neck while running her hands across her body. Jen felt herself sink down a little, allowing the sensations to travel through her body. She slid her hands down Tilly's back, allowing them to rest on her buttocks, gently caressing and squeezing.
"I feel compelled to touch that beautiful arse of yours," Jen attempted to speak through the water.
Their tongues touched and kissed more deeply, the passion feeling completely overwhelming. Tilly felt an intense desire to pull Jen closer to be as intimate as possible, craving her soft, warm, curvy body.
Jen leant back against the wall, shivering slightly at the coldness of the tiles but enjoying it equally as much. The water arched over them both, and Jen opened her eyes to re-orient herself. Through the rivers of water flowing over her face she could see Tillys ginger locks in front of her, head dipped to kiss the underside of Jens neck and around her breasts. Tilly ran her hands across Jens stomach, and she slightly flinched to the touch.
Jen pulled Tilly back up to her face and then quickly spun them round to switch places, pushing Tilly back against the wall this time, the wall always just a little colder than comfortable, making her shiver, her eyes enlarged slightly as the cold sensation hit her. Jen pressed Tilly hard against the wall and began kissing down her body, even gently biting her along the way. Tilly gasped every time she did this, and when she nipped the inside of her thigh, she was positively shaking in anticipation. Jen looked up to Tillys face from her position below, and watched water rivulets slide down the curves of her breasts, shoulders and legs.
Jen worked her way back up, the hot water continued to roll down Tilly's body, trickled over her breasts and hardened the tips of her sensitive nipples. Face buried into her chest, Jen began to suck on the flesh of each breast, occasional running her tongue down the deep valley between them. The feel of her warm tongue on her breasts and the sharpness of her teeth nipping and biting at her nipples sought only to push Tilly further on her way towards her highly anticipated destination, her chest heaving up and down as she panted with lust. Finally reaching Tilly's face, Jen wrapped her arms tightly around her waist, pulling her in.
Her fingers danced over her breasts and nipples once more, before stroking at the furry mound between Tilly's legs. She ran her hands past, and down the inside of her thighs, tickling Tilly slightly, causing a strangled giggle. Jen's eyes sparkled sexily as she smiled up at Tilly, her dark hair now stuck to her face long, the warm shower continuing to run down her back. Tilly brushed it back behind Jens ears and gave Jen a look which could only be interpreted as a wordless invitation for Jen to take what she so badly wanted her to.
Jen buried her face into Tilly, a mixture of water and juices greeting her as her tongue eagerly searched. Tilly squealed as she could feel the warmth as Jen nibbled and sucked, burying her whole face, trying to fulfil the overwhelming desire that such a pleasurable endeavour requires. Hot water pounded Jen's back, flowing between the cheeks of her arse. Her arm wrapped around, gripping Tilly's buttocks to steady them both. Tilly's folds gave way to Jen's tongue allowing her to slide past, her chin pushed in between her lips as she searched deeper, the repeated darting and pulsing rhythm having the desired effect.
Tilly moaned as she found Jen parting her lips with her fingers, and she closed her eyes and threw her head back, biting her lip, and trying to grip the slippery wall as untethered moans of pleasure escaped from her mouth. Both of Jens hands were frantically at work between her legs now, and she could feel herself coming closer and closer to orgasm. Jen sunk her fingers deeper into Tilly, resting her forehead against her stomach, revelling in the feeling of Tilly around her fingers and the motion of her hips. Frantic multiple fingers forcefully moving in and out of her, she gasped and jolted, her muscles clenching tightly around them. Tilly threw her head back, sucking in her breath, eyes shut, brain racing, and body convulsing. She tensed and arched her back, biting down harder on her bottom lip as the intense feelings of pleasure exploded over her and around her, too much to handle any more she half-heartedly tried to push Jen away to stop her, taking with it her ability to stand.
Tilly slumped down and Jen caught her weight, assisting her to the floor of the shower, where Tilly pulled her down on top of her, and peppered her with kisses. The shower continued to power hot water down on to them. With a seemingly impossible recovery time, Tilly simply slid her hand down Jen's body, and without any other distraction went straight between her legs.