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Gir: "It's called protecting your sammich!"

Zim: GIR sbagliato citazione.

Gir: que?

Zim: dimenticare..."Cercate di non. Fare o non fare." parole di Yoda.

Dib: ...what?

Sakiko: translation "try not. Do or do not" words by Yoda. He's so cool.

Dib: you know Italian?

Sakiko: since I went to a school called SHUT YOUR MOUTH!

Dib: never heard of it.

Zim: Idiota

Sakiko: shut up already.

Dib: why don't YOU shut up!

Zim: SILENCIO IDIOTA! Sono stufo di te e la tua stupida testa grande!

Dib...what?

Skoodge: I think he said stuffed stupid test grande...tuna...

Dib: again...what?"

Sakiko: stupido.

chapter 6 Reality and Tears

INFORMATIONAL LOG. BH-1179323

File: D3F3T1V35: the naming of Smeets

the naming of smeets is a difficult matter... it isn't just one of your holiday games.

you may think at first I am as mad as a hatter, when I tell you that a smeet must have three different names...

first of all there's the unique name that the families use daily...

such as peter, augus, zon, alo, or james... such as victor or jono, ared, zan, thann... geo or bilbaily, but all of them sensible, honorable, everyday names...

there are fancier names if you think they sound sweeter... some for the gentlemen, some for the dames...

such as plato, metus, electra, dem but all of them sensible everyday names...

but I tell you a defect needs a name that's particular, a name that is peculiar and more dignified, or else how can he hold up his antennae perpendicular, or spread out his fingers, or cherish his pride?

of a name of this kind I can give you a forum, such as mun, miyuki, garshloog, kustrap, platso, viola or copat, such as belurina, or else lourem, names that never belong to more than one defect.

but above and beyond there is still one name left over and that is the name you never would guess... the name that no tallest can research can discover but the defect himself knows and would never confess.

when you notice a smeet in profound meditation, the reason I tell you is always the same... his mind is engaged in a wrapped contemplation of a thought...

of a thought...

of the thought... of his name...

its ineffable... effable... ef... And ineffable... deep and inscrutable... singular... name...

Okay, here's a little lesson that Dib will probably never forget. You know how the PAK functions like a living computer? you can download things into it and you can erase things from it.

well because of Zim's little attempt at suicide, the PAK suffered trauma. the first being the separation between the PAK and it's host, if the PAK cannot find it's host, it will simply connect to another living creature in order to survive, if it can't find anything, it will shut down and wait for something or someone to restore it.

the second trauma was the Robo-parents. you can't really bang a PAK around, it'll get damaged, but knowing the Robo-parents, they probably dropped the poor device on the floor or started hitting hit with random objects.

the third was connecting the PAK to its host while it's damaged...that sends out a recovery program. the PAK tries to repair itself and its host. this is something really hard to do.

after Skoodge had helped repair the PAK, the poor thing finally reset. knocking Zim into his little state of unconsciousness.

then because some of the programming had been lost during the repairs the PAK was starting to reprocess the information it had left and the new information it was taking in. filtering, downloading, scanning, and slowly repairing itself back to its original form.

now this is where Dib's stupid card comes in... You know how sometimes you put certain things under a file?

well let's just say Dib put Zim's information in the wrong file... and downloading that file into Zim's PAK along with others?

what will happen?

this is what happens, Zim wakes up with hardly any memory because his PAK is still reprocessing, and is speaking Italian... Skoodge was going to kill Dib.

"What on Irk did you do to him hyuuman." said Skoodge in an angry tone.

Dib then inched away from Skoodge a little.

"... It was an accident?" said Dib, trying to sound a little innocent and inching away from Skoodge.

"You swore on your balls hyuuman..."said Skoodge in a dangerous tone.

"I swear! I thought I deleted the Rosetta stone program!" cried Dib, frightened out of his mind.

Zim who was sitting on the table, allowing his feet to dangle off the edge was not really paying attention to the duo that engaged in argument.

"Dove sonno?" asked Zim aloud, he was wondering where he was...last thing he remembered... wait... oh that's right...

Zim closed his eyes and started to process, he didn't care for what was going on; his main priority was to make sure his PAK was in order... right now... Zim had the entire sum of irken knowledge...but there were many mistakes...and many memories...some of which took him a while to study.

After about two hours... Zim had finally processed, organized, and understood all of the information stored in his PAK. After that, he remembered... the dream... the truth... the lie... Miyuki... Miyuki...

Then it hit him…THE DREAM!

Zim desperately looked around, looking, searching.

Was this reality? Was this a world that he just dreamt up? or was it real?

As Zim was searching his eyes finally fixed on an object that hung peacefully on the wall…the clock…

He stared at the two arms that pointed to the numbers… Zim searched through his memory and remembered… these are earth numbers…

The arms were pointing at two of them… the shorter at the number 9… the longer at the number 3… it was… it was… come-on… what was it?... don't you remember… yes. Yes it was nine fifteen…

The numbers were still… clear… readable…Zim then noticed something on lying carelessly on the floor…he couldn't see the print on it…what was it? Oh yes… it was a book… the things humans sometimes used to gain or store information or fantasy…a…a-n-i-m-a-l… f-a-r-m… an.. animal…Animal Farm… by George Orwell…

He could read… he could read English… he could READ.

It was real… this world was real…

Suddenly Zim felt something squeeze his chest… it shocked and surprised him.

'am I sick?' he thought…

His chest ached… this was reality… but the ache made him hurt… why did he feel so… so…why did it make him feel this way? Shouldn't he be happy?

Zim suddenly felt his throat tighten… almost as if he were swallowing a ball…

' no, no… don't cry… only smeets cry… and defects… but Zim is a defect isn't he?... Zim isn't dead isn't he?...Zim is… this world is…" Zim's throat tightened as he thought… he wanted to go back… he wanted to go back! GO BACK!

Zim couldn't help it… he brought his legs up and hugged them tightly against his chest as he let a single tear fall from his eye…

'Zim is not weak, I am Zim! I AM ZIM! I AM ZIM! I…' Zim's mind went blank as he felt his breath quicken and his chest become tighter…

'Zim? Zim can you hear me? Don't be so sad… you are free… and you are still alive… you are still living… live your life…stand up against the machines that ruin… become sane in this insane world… for all of our sake…' said a soft voice in Zim's head.

'Miyuki?' asked Zim in his mind.

'cry Zim… you need it…' said miyuki.

'no, please don't go…you are my tallest…art thou alive?' he asked.

'no… I am no longer tallest… I am merely alive in your thoughts and dreams… I no longer live… I am just a figment of your imagination… your sense… your subconscious… I love you Zim… please… please keep me alive…can you try for me?' asked miyuki…or Zim's projection of her.

'no...Zim will not try… Zim will keep you because he can…without trying…' Zim then sobbed a little.

It felt good to cry… just this once… and just for now… he would cry… and he would do, instead of try… it was time…

But he had to remember…

When the game is over…both the king and the pawn go in the same box…

I am soooooo sorry that i havent updated when i said i would and i am soooo sorry for this suckish chapter... i have a super case of writer's block and i am trying to peice this story together...again i am soooo sorry and i- to tell the truth- hate this chapter... but it was the best i could do! i couldnt interpret it the way i wanted to! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGA!

and i know Zim is totally OOC but bear with me ok? i am not JV here! besides it is my story.

anyways. please leave your reviews and ask or correct me on anything on this story.

k thats all for now. until next time. yours truly...

sakiko