Stef doesn't even remember driving home she was so lost in her thoughts. What had just happened? As she crawled into bed, she thought about that kiss. It had been the most wonderful kiss she had ever had. She must have kissed Mike thousands of times in their 9 years together, but none of them made her feel like she did after the kiss with Lena. If it was so wonderful, why did she stop? What was she afraid of? Was she worried about Mike? That couldn't be it because she had told him the night before that they were separated and her private life was hers. Was she embarrassed because Lena was a woman? Would she be having this guilt if she had kissed a guy? No, she was sure she wouldn't have felt this way after kissing a guy, because there wouldn't have been any feelings there at all. It was Lena. This woman mesmerized her. She hadn't been able to get Lena out of her mind since the day they met. What was happening to her? Was she really falling for this woman?
When Stef awoke she knew things would be different. She had dreamed of Lena during the night and woke feeling so content that she knew that everything was going to be ok. She needed to talk to Lena and apologize, but first she had to get through her shift at work.
Lena awoke with slight headache. She wasn't sure if it was the wine or the crying. When she looked in the mirror and saw her puffy eyes, she realized it was probably both. She fixed herself a cup of tea and some toast and sat down to read the paper. She knew she had to keep her mind off Stef and the only way to do that was to keep busy. She called her friends, Jenna and Kelly, and volunteered to babysit for them that night. They were beyond thrilled and took her up on the offer. Jenna picked Lena up so she could go to Dino's and get her car. During the drive, Jenna asked her friend what was wrong. Jenna said, "Come on, you can't tell me you are still getting over Gretchen. What is going on Lena? Talk to me".
Lena let out a sigh and said, that no, it wasn't Gretchen, she was just lonely and probably wouldn't ever date again. Jenna responded that she was beautiful and anyone would be lucky to have her.
Lena said under her breath, "Yeah, well, Tell Stef that".
Jenna's mouth fell open and then she said, "Who is Stef".
Lena said that she wasn't supposed to hear that. Jenna said that she did, so now she had to spill. They sat in Dino's parking lot as Lena told Jenna about her meeting with Stef and about their kiss last night. Jenna listened carefully then warned Lena about getting involved with a married woman and said that she didn't want to see her get hurt. Lena wiped away a tear and said that she was already hurting and that she would see her tonight.
Lena was enjoying her time with Garrett, he was such a good baby and she really loved taking care of him. It reminded her how bad she wanted children some day and that was the reason she and Gretchen broke up, because Gretchen didn't want kids. Lena decided that she couldn't get involved with Stef because Stef was married and had a son of her own and Lena wouldn't get in the middle of that. She resolved herself to not seeing Stef again, even though it made her sad.
It was the longest shift of Stef's life or at least it felt that way. All she wanted to do was go see Lena. Luckily it had been a pretty slow day so she only had one more hour on her shift. Later, she would realize that she jinxed herself. With only 45 minutes left in her shift, they got a call of an armed robbery in progress. As they raced to the scene, she cleared her mind knowing she would have to focus on the job at hand. There was already a patrol call there and they radioed in "officer down". Stef covered her partner as he dragged the other officer to safety. Soon, more backup arrived. The suspect was held up in the store with two hostages. Stef thought that this was going to take hours to resolve when the two hostages exited the store with their hands up and right behind them the suspect came out and put his gun on the ground. Stef and her partner led the hostages to safety as another officer arrested the suspect. Two hours later, Stef and her partner finished their paperwork and headed home. Stef was glad she had the next few days off and even though she missed Brandon, she was glad she didn't have to pick him up until Sunday night.
She went home and showered and debated whether or not she should go see Lena. She decided she needed to get this over with, so she grabbed a bottle of wine and headed out. She parked in the lot outside Lena's apartment and when she didn't see her car, she remembered that Lena left it at Dino's the night before. She felt bad that she wasn't available during the day to take Lena to her car. She decided she would offer to do that tonight. She was surprised how nervous she was knocking on Lena's door. When Lena didn't answer, she got a little perturbed thinking Lena was avoiding her. She knocked again and yelled through the door asking Lena to open up. After a few more minutes of no Lena she decided that Lena was probably right in not coming to the door, she deserved it after what she did to her. She called Lena's number and when Lena didn't pick up she hung up and headed to her car.
Lena was surprised when Jenna and Kelly returned at 830p. She asked if anything was wrong and they both replied that they had a great evening and just wanted to get home to their son. They thanked Lena for giving them a "date night" and she hugged them both good bye. She thought about stopping to pick up a movie, but she wasn't in the mood. She hopped in her car and headed home. Her phone rang and when she saw it was Stef calling, she let it go to voicemail. She didn't want to talk to Stef while she was driving and she kind of wanted to see what kind of message Stef would leave.
When she pulled into her apartment she was preoccupied with her phone trying to see if Stef left a message that she didn't see the figure walking towards her. When Stef called her name, she nearly jumped out of her skin and it stopped her in her tracks. This wasn't at all what she was expecting. "What are you doing here" she said. Stef responded, "I came to apologize, can we talk". Lena thought better of it, but invited Stef in to her apartment. Stef handed her the bottle of wine and said that it was a peace offering. Lena asked her if she wanted a glass and Stef said, "Yes, please". As Lena went to the kitchen to open the wine, Stef glanced around the apartment. She noticed that Lena had a lot of books, but that didn't realize surprise her. She saw a few photographs and noticed one which must have been Lena with her parents.
When Lena returned, she handed Stef her glass and gestured towards the couch. Stef sat and asked Lena if that was a picture of her parents. She said that it was. Lena asked Stef about her parents and Stef explained how they had split up when she was in high school. She said that her Mom moved to Fla and that she saw her Dad every once in a while.
After a few moments of silence, Stef set down her glass of wine and looked into Lena's eyes. She said, "I'm so sorry at the way I acted last night. I wasn't expecting to enjoy that kiss so much and it threw me for a loop".
"So you enjoyed the kiss?" Lena asked.
Stef responded, "very much so".
"Then why did you pull away" Lena asked softly.
Stef said that she had spent all night and all day trying to figure that out and she still wasn't sure. Stef said that the only thing she knew was that it made her feel whole again and she hadn't felt that way in years. Lena put down her glass of wine and moved closer to Stef. This time, Stef initiated the kiss and Lena didn't pull away. The kisses started softly and then Stef deepened them as she pushed Lena down on the couch. Lena's hands slipped under Stef's shirt and moved up along her breasts as she struggled to undue her bra. Stef kissed Lena's neck and trailed kisses along her cheek and then nibbled on her ear. She heard a small groan escape Lena's lips and it sent chills up her entire body. She couldn't believe that this beautiful woman was laying under her feeling her up. She didn't want to stop, but was a little nervous about going much further. She ran her hands along Lena's long lean body and she found her mouth once again. They kissed for what felt like hours when Lena giggled and pushed Stef back up to a sitting position.
Lena said, "wow, that was amazing, but I think we should stop for the night". Stef pouted and said that she agreed. When Lena asked if she wanted to stay the night, Stef said that she wasn't a fan of sleeping on the couch and would just go home.
Lena laughed and said, "Well, I was hoping you would sleep in the bed with me".
When Stef's eyes got wide, Lena responded, "don't worry, we'll both keep our clothes on, I just don't want you to go".
Stef said ok and they walked into Lena's room holding hands. Lena opened a drawer and pulled out a night shirt and offered it to Stef. She then went into the bathroom and changed into a night shirt herself and brushed her teeth and washed her face. When she came out, she offered Stef a new toothbrush which she used. They crawled into bed and Lena was happy when Stef crawled into the side that she didn't use.
"See" she said, "we already know who gets which side the bed".
Stef laughed and laid across Lena for another deep kiss. She then rolled over and Lena wrapped her long arms around her and nestled her head into Stef's neck. Stef felt so relaxed she fell asleep immediately. Lena fell asleep wondering how this happened. Twenty-four hours ago she was distraught thinking Stef would never want to see her again and now, here she was in her bed.
The next morning, Stef awoke to Lena gazing down at her. She smiled and said that she had slept so well. Lena responded, "I'm so glad, now let's eat". They walked into the kitchen and Lena started some coffee and asked "what would you like for breakfast". "Surprise me". Lena started doing her magic and when they sat down 15 minutes later, Stef couldn't believe her taste buds.
"This is the most amazing French toast I've ever had".
"Thanks, I love cooking, especially when I get to cook for others".
Stef smiled and said, "You can cook for me anytime".
Lena blushed and thought to herself that she could cook for this woman for the rest of her life. She leaned over to Stef and lightly kissed her lips. "You taste like syrup". As Stef deepened their kiss she thought only of the person next to her. That is, till she heard her phone ring. Lena begged her to ignore it, but she was always worried about Brandon when he wasn't with her.
When she saw Mike's number on her phone, she quietly cursed to herself. "Mike, what's up? What? For how long? Does he have a fever? Well, does he feel hot? Ok, I'll be there in 30 minutes". Stef hung up the phone and looked over at Lena. "I'm sorry, Brandon is sick, I have to go".
Lena responded "of course".
Stef quickly dressed and grabbed her things. She thanked Lena and ran out the door. Lena was a little surprised at how Stef left things. She understood that Stef's son was sick, but she could have at least kissed her good bye. Was Stef feeling guilty about being with her?
AN - I hope you are enjoying my firstFiction. I'd love some feedback since I am new to this and really don't consider myself a writer.